Angry with Giles after his attempt to kill Spike, Buffy takes off in a desperate effort to find Spike. Along the way, Buffy discovers that her feelings about Spike have changed – changed enough to destroy her entire outlook on life and love.

She knows that she’ll tell him eventually – when the world is falling apart and when she has no other choice – but she’s too much of a coward to say it now, and the words sound too foreign on her tongue. Set between the end of Showtime and the beginning of Potential.

It hurts her to talk of Heaven; it makes her heart twist and tighten and ache as if it has been pierced with thousands of shards of glass.