The Bloodshedverse :: Spuffy with Bite

Deb

07/13/2010 11:18 am

Chapter twenty-seven

Thank you for writing the story. Of course, I love that it's spuffy and that it's AU. It's always great to take the characters and bring them into a new setting. Because this dealt in dehumanizing torture for Buffy, it was harder for me to read those parts. You were able to give her vindication, but the premise was dark. As a writer, please don't hesitate to give warning about the chapter and tell the reader to skip to the next chapter if the content would be offensive (for any reason including rape, torture, etc). Please don't get me wrong, I like your story and enjoyed them creating a relationship with each other. You cater to your muse accordingly.

Thank you for reading it! :) I'm glad you decided to give it a go and read all the way to the end even though I know it wasn't easy. Parts of it were hard for me to write but I felt like it needed to be written. The premise was indeed dark but I tried to slip in lighter moments where it seemed appropiate and Buffy got her happy ending, finding love and support even if she'll always be marked by that terrible experience. I'm so sorry about the warnings! Beside the one in the summary I added a warning to chapter four, but I realized I only put it in the AN over at the Spuffy Realm and Elysian Fields... since there's no individual window for AN here at BSV, I tend to forget adding them. *smacks forehead* I apologize! But I do believe that by skipping those difficult to read chapters, a reader could miss a part of the plot or development as well. I'm happy you liked and thank you for reading and leaving me a wonderful review, Deb!!! :)

nojiri23

05/07/2010 04:41 am

Chapter twenty-seven

read this a while ago but never reviewed it. loved it then, still love it now! I really enjoyed the twisted plot, and Buffy's moment of empowerment. but most especially, Spike is lovely in this story!

Aww, you're so awesome! :) It's so great to know you loved the story and let me know. Hee... glad you enjoyed the twisted plot. To be honest, I had no idea where the story was going to take me when I started writing and posting it, but it somehow all worked out. I always obsess about details in everything I do so I wanted the plot to be at least a tiny bit different. Spike is lovely in all my fics. :D That's because I love his charcter so much I can't really make him a jerk, not for long anyway. lol Thank you for the delicious review!!! :D

Viaje

04/04/2010 01:38 am

Chapter twenty-seven

I just finished reading all the chapters over the last two nights and I just wanted to say that I thought it was brillant.

I've never read a spuffy story set in an alternative universe before and wasn't sure if I'd like it as I usually prefer stories that are based on one of the buffy episode, but I loved this. It really showed what could of happened if Buffy had Spike to help her through all those years instead if him being her ememy.

I really liked this and would recommend it to anyone.

You're made of awesome! :) It's a pretty long story, so kudos to you for reading it so quickly. ;) You can't imagine how happy it makes me to know you liked it.

I'm very glad you decided to give this story a chance even though it's not your cuppa tea. I like alternate universes becuase it gives you more room for thinking up any plotline you want without having to adhere to the official canon. It also makes it tougher to get the characterization right though. Hee... I love it that you loved it! :D

You're very sweet, thank you for the heart-warming review, Viaje!!! :)

txjmfan

03/29/2010 07:23 am

Chapter twenty-seven

Excellent story teling. Loved the writing, the characterizations, the original plot. Great job!

*blushes* Way to make me feel all flustered and smug. LOL I'm very happy you enjoyed the story, that's the reason I write. :) Thank you so much for giving it a chance and leaving me the awesome review!!! :D

Magemaster

03/28/2010 08:57 am

Chapter twenty-seven

Wicked story, well written and captivating.

Hee... you're kind for giving me such lovely compliments. :) Thank you for leaving me a review, I really appreciate it!!! :D

Shardallinee

02/09/2010 03:11 pm

Chapter twenty-seven

I enjoyd every part of it... i only found this story yesterday and couldn't left a review for every chapter cause... well.. you know, i had to quickly go to the new one ...
poor Bufy... and i'm soo happy it all worked out the way it did! amazing story! (and yummy Spike...) ;)

like i said... loved every bit of it!

I'm glad you found it and decided to give it a go, Shardallinee. :) Never you mind the reviews for every chapter, I'm happy you let me know you liked it at all! It makes me feel giddy to know you enjoyed. :D

She went through a horrible ordeal, but it all worked out in the end! :) Mmm... Spike is always yumy and very lickable if I do say so myself. ;)

Hee... you're awesome! Thank you for the brilliant review!!! :D

BuffyConvert

01/10/2010 06:08 pm

Chapter twenty-seven

OH, I was so sorry to read the words "maybe now she would find some friends after all." cause I could tell it was THR END. It was well-written and I enjoyed reading it.

I remember I was so sorry to write that sentence, but at the same time quite content that I finished it. Reviews like yours were inspiration for me to write more. :) Thank you for the heart-warming words and stopping to let me know you enjoyed! I really appreciate it!!!

nmcil

12/10/2009 04:51 am

Chapter twenty-seven

You came through with a terrific ending - bringing back the originator of all her misery, and misery is simply inadequate to describe what she suffered from Lukas and all his monster clients. Plus getting her back into school so that she meets Willow and Xander was another nice touch.

Best thing is that you kept things real with the admission that all the terrible nightmare existence she lived through would always still be lurking about in her consciousness, but both she and Spike would find the strength to live with them and past them.

Congratulations on your story - I am so glad that you used my banner - wish I had been able to get that second one to you, maybe on your next story or for some previous works I can do another one for you.

All my best wishes to you for the Holiday Season, with school and for the coming year -

A spuffy friend and grateful reader.

You always write such amazing reviews, nmcil! :) I'm really glad you liked the ending! It was inevitable for Buffy to finally get to the point where she had to take revenge on her own, even though ultimately it was on Spike's behalf that she went off the deep end. I supposed that was what would trigger her reaction; death of someone she loves more than anything. Since I already introduced Willow, I didn't want to let that thread hanging, so I used them as a new beginning for Buffy. Her life with Spike, and friends she never thought she could find again.

It would be way unrealistic to say she'd gotten over everything, that she didn't even remember the abuse. Once a person lives through something as traumatic, they are never the same again, and as for Buffy, she'll never forget, but having Spike by her side, she will learn to live with it.

I was SO happy you made the banner for me; it's really gorgeous!!! :) No worries about the second one! I'll be very grateful if you make one for my next story when I write it, if you will have time for it.

Thank you. :D I wish you the best Holiday Season ever!!! I love Christmas, can't wait to make (and eat) pastries with my family.

Thank you for leaving me such an awesome review, nmcil!!! :)

Lou

12/04/2009 09:43 am

Chapter twenty-seven

I like how the Slayer took over and killed 'em all -- suitably gruesomely -- exactly what Buffy needed. Really well done.

She tore them apart quite literally... it was the least they deserved. I wrote it so Buffy was the one doing the saving, because she needed it. :) Thinking Spike was dead really set her off in a big way, just like it would Spike if the roles were reversed. Thank you for every lovely review you left me, Lou!!! *hugs*

Curtis

12/04/2009 06:35 am

Chapter twenty-seven

This is one of the storys I'am sorry to see end. I hope you write some more.

Aww... you're just too sweet! :)) It means a lot that you liked it! I have some ideas for the next one in my mind, so I hope you'll like that one too. Thank you so much for the lovely review, Curtis!!! :D

nmcil

12/10/2009 02:25 am

Chapter twenty-six

Like the playful quality between Spike and Buffy, that nice touch of spuffy - and then the quick turn around ending that brings back all the horror from her imprisonment - calling her "Sunshine" when all she lived through was utter darkness and living hell. NICE

I enjoy switching things. :) Still can't deicde whether I liked writing more- the fluffy or the angsty parts... probably both. I knew you would appreciate the paradox of him calling her that since Lukas was the one that had trapped her in the darkness and almost destroyed her completely. ;) Thank you so much for leaving me such an awesome review, nmcil!!! :D I greatly appreciate it!

Lou

12/01/2009 01:45 am

Chapter twenty-six

A final test for Buffy, I hope she gives him hell.

That it is... there will be some obstacles before Lukas gets what he deserves though, and I hope you won't be disappointed with how it pans out. :) Thank you for the lovely review, Lou!!! :D

Lou

11/24/2009 10:11 am

Chapter twenty-five

Buffy's bound to have fears but she's going to beat them -- and the nasties!

She has this niggling doubt at the back of her mind... maybe it means something, maybe it doesn't. *winks* The confrontation is coming closer and closer, and I hope you'll like the outcome. :) Thanks for the kind review, Lou!!! :D

vladt

11/20/2009 04:01 am

Chapter twenty-four

another very good read, thank you. had to help, telling her mom. love the whipped cream, chinese, sappy movie and killing spree for a date night.

I'm glad you liked. :) It did help, one less burden to carry after all. Not many can say they go killing after their dates. lol I enjoy writing these fluffy parts of the story just as much as the angsty ones, maybe even more. Thank you for the awesome review, vladt!!! :D

Vette

11/18/2009 08:10 am

Chapter twenty-four

Glad that Joyce is now clued in to what is happening around her and is now aware of just how much pressure Buffy was under before her ordeal. High time that Buffy had an outlet for her emotions and beating the snot out of one of her abusers proves that she is ready to take back her dignity. Spike may yet get Buffy ready to face Lucas for a smackdown of epic porportions. Look forward to more.

I couldn't have summed it better than that. :) The weight of the secret no longer rests on Buffy's shoulders, and Joyce finally knows what had really happened... the sooner the better as the truth always comes up eventually, and it would have hurt both of them more had it been later. Buffy is definitely on the road towards revenge, and Lukas will get what he deserves soon. Thank you so much for the briliant review, Vette!!! :)

vladt

11/20/2009 12:43 am

Chapter twenty-three

very good chapter, thank you. someone has to let joyce know what is happening. and may i add: don't stop, buffy.

You're very welcome. :) Don't worry, Buffy won't be able to cover this up with convincing lies, so there will be some facing up to the truth in the next chapter, which you can read whenever you've got time since it's already been posted. Dave definitely will get what's coming to him, but maybe not from Buffy. She will however have her revenge, no doubt about that. ;) Thanks for the lovely review, vladt!!! :D

nmcil

11/10/2009 01:00 am

Chapter twenty-three

What a big turn of events - think you handled Buffy's reaction in a disturbing but also realistic way - it reads like something that would happen in the real world. Either the victim could retreat in fear and self protection, be reduced to abject fear, or they could just lose all control and find release in giving back some of the abusive, extreme pain and fear onto the abuser.

Looking forward to your new chapter - hope that I can have an image for you very soon.

:D Already replied to the other review... thank you again!!! :)

nmcil

11/10/2009 12:57 am

Chapter twenty-three

Thank you! :) I did research on the PTSD before I started writing this, and since Buffy came to the point of regaining her own power little by little, it would make more sense of her to turn the rage against her abuser instead of retreating into herself which she would have done had this happened weeks ago. And being treated not just as a victim, but as an equal by Spike, while still being able to rely on his ability to comfort her and protect her, Buffy can learn to live with what had been done to her.

That would be so very great of you! :) Let me know whenever you think of something. I'm pretty sure the story won't have more than 30 chapters, so it's getting really close to an end. *sigh* I will miss writing this story! Thank you so much for the brilliant review, nmcil!!! :))

11/08/2009 07:51 pm

Chapter twenty-three

I love your Buffy/Spike scenes, and how you can make them be so lighthearted and then serious and real. It seems like a little too much of a coincidence for Dave to be a random guy who paid to beat up a young girl, so maybe we'll find out he dabbles in magic or is involved with Wolfram and Hart or something.

I wonder if Joyce is going to learn about vampires around Spike, who is trapped out of a house while the woman he loves has to face somebody who abused her, or if she'll only learn about the captivity. Looking forward to the next chapter and how Spike talks to Buffy about what's happening. Great chapter.

Yay, thank you so much!!! *grins* I try not to make the story way too heavy. Now that they are so much closer than they had been, and Buffy is on her way to being healed more and more, it's more appropiate to use those lighthearted dialogues between them. Dave was meant to show you that even a regular Joe, and a human being, could be just as evil as demons are... but yeah, he had to know about the place from someone, right? *winks*

Joyce will definitely have her world turned on its axis! Everything she thought was true will be altered by what Buffy tells her in the next chapter. After what had happened, Buffy won't be able to keep up her lies any longer, and she will have to tell her mom everything, unless she wants to end up being in a loony bin again (not that Spike would let that happen)... besides, now she has her very own vamp to support her 'demons are real' theory. More will be up next week. :) Thank you so much for the brilliant review!!! :D

vladt

11/03/2009 03:01 am

Chapter twenty two

another fine read, thank you. take your time and tell your great tale as your muse tells you.

You're very welcome, I'm really glad you enjoyed. :) Thank you for your understanding and for the lovely review, makes me wish I had more time to write!!! :)

nmcil

10/31/2009 06:37 am

Chapter twenty two

Better to take your time and get your work at the quality that you want instead of trying to satisfy your "hungry for more" readers - Your story is so good. Especially with the theme of punishment and revenge that you have introduced - it's a tough and complex theme. With Spike, he is right, his nature is to deal with killing and violence - with Buffy, it becomes much more complex.

Hope you have a great Halloween - I'm thinking that I will try another image that features Lukas, Buffy and Spike that you can use for the chapters dealing with what happens to Lukas and Spike's punsihment against all the abusers.

Thank you for being so understanding!! :) Though, I prefer writing this story than getting headaches from writing the essays, one has to have priorities. *sigh* At least I'm almost finished! Review like yours always lifts my spirits! :)) You're right, Spike doesn't really have any dilemmas other than protecting Buffy, whereas she has to deal with facing her fears and the demon that had ripped away her innocence... she hasto be strong not only physically, but also emotionally. It's something she has to do on her own, and Spike understands that... doesn't mean he has to like it though. lol

That would be so great!!! :) Let me know whenever you have time. Great Halloween to you too, Sylvia!! :D My would be much better if I had money to go to London and see James at Hallowhedon... unfortunately, student here, so the budget is kind of tight. *sigh* I've wanted to see him since I became a Spike fan five years ago.

Thank you for the awesome review!!! :D

10/30/2009 04:58 am

Chapter twenty two

Great chapter, though I was surprised Joyce wasn't mentioned. I love how we get to see Buffy and Spike being serious and worried and affectionate and playful and humorous... all the things that make up a relationship beyond declarations of "great, tragic love" betwen crisises that was really all the shallow relationship we got to see between Buffy and Angel on the show.

As a couple living together, Spike and Buffy are very real and it's wonderful how you made it seem to effortless to read. Buffy simply wanting to make Spike feel as good as he makes her feel was natural and says a lot about both of them and how they're learnign to fit together as people, despite violent pasts. Great job!

I don't have the next chapter written yet, but Joyce is defifnitely going to be in it, so don't worry...not leaving that one hanging. :) And good point about the Angel and Buffy thing... it was pretty shallow, they didn't even know each other since Angel didn't seem to be a sharing type, and Buffy was pretty much just a kid when they were together... sure they had the whole angsty drama teen thing going on, but there was never that sense of 'realness' that she and Spike had. Actually I stumbled upon this ridiculous petition yesterday, it said 'sign up' if you think Spuffy was disgusting and perverse or some such rubbish. Some Bangel fan actually called their S7(!!!) relationship disgusting. The fact that someone didn't like their relationship is okay, but why be so nasty about it?

Anyway, I'm really glad it's coming across just the way I wanted it to...they are both just trying to find a little bit of happiness where they can, getting closer and relying on each other for support. :) Thank you so much for the brilliant review!!! :D

MarzBar

10/29/2009 10:47 pm

Chapter twenty two

This is such a great tale!! I look forward to every new chapter.

*huge smile* Thank you so much for the compliment and for leaving me a review!!! :D The story doesn't have many chapters left, and I can tell you it definitely will be finished. :)

10/25/2009 03:13 pm

Chapter twenty-one

Just sat and read the whole 21 chapters - I am completely taken by your story. The charactisations of Buffy and Spike, the idea - absolutely awesome.

I hope your coursework goes well and really looking forward to reading more.

*huge smile* I'm having a rough time writing a news story for my course right now so your review just made my day! :)) I'm really happy you've liked it so far... I have the next chapter written, and I hope I will have time to write the next one as well in the next few days. Thank you so much for the lovely review, it was just what I needed!!! :)

nmcil

10/22/2009 12:28 pm

Chapter twenty-one

Good luck with all your work - and thanks loads for keeping up with your terrific story and posting the new chapters -- it has to be difficult trying to get all things done.

An interesting plot turn with bringng in Joyce and the theme of guilt and shame that has to be part of her experience -

It's tough but I'm trying! Reviews like yours always help me find some extra free time to write. *winks* Thanks for the awesome compliment, I'm really glad you're enjoying it! :)

Buffy and Joyce definitely have some unresolved issues between them, and Buffy not telling her mom what had really happened has not only something to do with not wanting to hurt her mother, but also Buffy's lack of trust. Being in the loony bin isn't exactly the experience Buffy wants to have a repeat of, not when she'd been a prisoner for months.

Thanks for the awesome review, Sylvia!!! :)

Liza

10/26/2009 04:29 pm

Chapter twenty

Don't be anxious, really enjoyed it! Sexy but tender.

:DD Thank you so much!... I was a bit nervous about writing it since I wanted it to be meaningful, not just sex, so thank you for the lovely review, Liza!!! :)

nmcil

10/22/2009 12:07 pm

Chapter twenty

One thing I like so much about youir story is how Spike changes along with Buffy - both trying to become whole and healed.

Spike's always been someone who adapts to the situation he's in, always changing and molding himself but still retaining that core of who he is, and now that he finally found someone who loves him back, Spike's trying to be deserving of it. They both give each other what they need. :) Thank you for the lovely review!!! :D

vladt

10/14/2009 08:47 pm

Chapter twenty

great update, thank you. relieve all the tension and then restore it.

Yep, that's me! Gotta keep you on your toes. *grins* Thanks for the lovely review, vladt!!! :D

10/14/2009 07:13 am

Chapter twenty

Anxious?.... Not too worry... Who doesn't love "hot" virgin set with a nasty twist of angst/cliff hanger at the end?

Don't leave us hanging too long... Plz!

*giggles* Indeed! I thought it was the right time to make them do the final leap, because they both needed the ultimate connection, not just mental but also physical. As for the cliff hanger... it gives me an extra thrill to do that! :D More next week! Thank you for the review, I really appreciate it!!! :)

vladt

10/12/2009 10:23 pm

Chapter nineteen

buffy is making progress and spike does npt lie very well. good chapter, thank you.

Buffy is making another step towards healing and reclaiming the power that had been ripped away from her. The Slayer is a big part of who she is, so it's important for her to get that back. And you're right Spike is definitely not a good liar! LOL Thank you for the kind review, vladt!!! :D

Vette

10/11/2009 08:51 am

Chapter nineteen

Hope Spike is hunting down her tormentors and isn't going easy on them. Buffy facing a punching bag is a first step to controling her own destiny. Look forward to more updates.

Spike is definitely up to something and it's not just getting into accidental fights... but you're perceptive as I see, so it won't be such a surprise to you! *winks* You're right, relearning how to be the Slayer again, which is a huge part of who Buffy is, is crucial to cliamin back that power that had been taken away from her. More soon, and thank you for the lovely update, Vette!!! :D

vladt

10/04/2009 04:17 am

Chapter eighteen

beautifully done, love. thank you for the fine read.

*smiles* I'm glad you enjoyed! Thank you for taking your time to leave me yet another lovely review, vladt!!! :D

Goddess_Hecate

10/01/2009 06:33 am

Chapter eighteen

I just found your story and read all the way up to this point non-stop. I may fail my midterm I was supposed to be studying for, but this is SO worth it. You're brilliant!

I love new reviewers! :D You've been a bit naughty I see... reading spuffy instead of studying! lol I gotta commend you though, to read it all in sitting takes one hell of a committed reader! *thumbs up* On the other hand, I'm sorry for distracting you... ehm, though not really that sorry, because then I wouldn't have this awesome review from you!!! :D I hope you'll ace the midterms so I won't have to feel guilty! :) Thank you for the heart warming, muse kicking compliment and your amazing review!!! :)

Deb

09/30/2009 09:11 pm

Chapter eighteen

I really liked this chapter. Spike was hesitent and frustrated and caring without leaving character for ths very new situation, and Buffy's openness with her feelings and her seeking him out after their misunderstanding let the scene show a depth of love both are unfamiliar with before. The first kissing scene while they were talking in the training room was great, but the care infused into this last section was wonderful and not overstated. That last line left me feeling like I needed to read more, hopeful of how things would move on but still afraid if there will be another misunderstanding. Spike isn't going to think Buffy lied to him about her treatment, right? He must know they could have been hurting her over and over in other ways. And this is something she's willing to give him that hasn't been taken from her before.

Looking forward to the next chapter, and if the blood bond between them manifests some more! That bit of plot is too unique, and I can't wait to see where you decide to go with it!

I really loved your review, Deb! :D Poor Spike is struggling with his hold on control, his need to posses her fully, but knowing it's all Buffy's choice to make... we'll see more of that in the next chapter. And funny you should mention the blood link cause there's more about it in the following update, unless my betas recommend me to rewrite it, that is. :) I'm glad you find the idea unique, there's nothing you could say that would make me feel more accomplished and happy, so thank you! I agree that the second scene was more caring and meaningful, plus I'd like to think this Buffy is more mature than she would be at her age normally, so I made her face the conflict by approaching Spike instead of avoiding it. Don't worry about Spike's reaction... it'll work out! :)) Thank you for the amazing review, I really appreciate it!!! :D

nmcil

10/22/2009 10:19 am

Chapter seventeen

great to get back to the story again - nice transition from her coma -

Great to have you back! :D I'm glad you enjoyed and thank you for letting me know Sylvia!!! :)

vladt

09/25/2009 02:29 am

Chapter seventeen

love both your buffy and your spike. very enjoyable read, thank you. just a little apprehensive. things seem to be going too well.

LOL No need to be apprehesive, I can do sweet too... for a while, ehm. Thank you so much for the compliment, I love it when readers love something! :D I'll try to keep up your interest, and I appreciate you reviewing and letting me know what you think, vladt!!! :)

vladt

09/22/2009 07:22 am

Chapter sixteen

sweet read, thank you. (only a evil author would end the update that way.)

LOL I do like to be evil... can't help it! *bats eyelashes* More this week... tomorrow maybe, or the day after tomorrow. Thank you for taking your time and reviewing so dutifully, vladt!!! :)

09/22/2009 03:02 am

Chapter sixteen

Yes indeed, I loved your lovely closing and the poignant waking of our much loved and needed Slayer -

Hope school is going well for you -thanks much for the quick updates now that you are busy with your studies.

Then I hope you'll love what comes next, this is after all, what Spike had been wishing for the whole time Buffy was in a coma, to gaze into her eyes again and I'll keep my fingers cross that you'll like what I did with it! :)

Thank you! :D The school is good so far, I haven't really had much to do, except the registrations and intros, and hopefully I'll be able to keep up the updates when they up the ante! lol I write during the evenings cause that's about any free time I've got. Thank you so much for the really lovely review!!! :)

verito

09/21/2009 02:14 pm

Chapter sixteen

very good read...love this story...

I love it when you love the story! :D I'll try to keep your interest and thank you for taking your time to review!!! :)

vladt

09/22/2009 07:12 am

Chapter fifteen

great chapter, thank you. love the ending line.

I love it when people love something about the story! :D Thank you for the lovely review, vladt!!!

09/22/2009 02:49 am

Chapter fifteen

WOW - loved your visualization of Buffy's shattered mind and mirrors - all things reflecting her innocent past, brutal captivity and potential salvation via Spike and the ritual -

Your Lukas and his disgusting monsterous clients are also powerful visualization - strong writing.

While this is a horrible experience for Spike and Buffy, it is also one of the best chapters, IMO, of your work.

*blushes* You're too kind! I'm glad you think it's one of the best chapters yet, because I've really enjoyed writing this one, though I noticed people enjoy the less abstract ones more (or so I judge by the number of reviews). I thought it would be a good idea to let Spike not only know what happened to Buffy, but to truly comprehend it, to really understand what makes her who she is. Thank you for the brilliant review!!! :)

vladt

09/22/2009 06:58 am

Chapter fourteen

so far, so good. fine chapter, thank you.

I'm glad you liked, vladt. Thank you so much for the review!!! :D

nmcil

09/18/2009 06:31 am

Chapter fourteen

Just wanted to wish you all the Best of Luck with school and this new phase of your life-

Super busy getting ready for an exhibition so can't do any reading right now - will get back to your fine story this week-end. If you need additional banners to match what happens in your story as it develops we can try some new ones.

:))) Thank you! I hope it'll go well, I love studying! :D Especially something I'm interested in (I'm studying magazine journalism).

I love art!!! Not the modern art so much, but I like when something's different... like Chaim Soutine. Anyway, good luck with the exhibition! :) I'd love to have another banner from you, since you're so talented. Btw loved the banner poll... it is impossible to choose just one though. I'd say the first one is yours, because I really loved it and it looks a little bit like your style, but I may be mistaken. :) I hope you'll like the next chapter and don't hesitate to give me pointers! Thank you for the review Sylvia!!!!

vladt

09/22/2009 06:38 am

Chapter thirteen

sweet read, thank you.

Thank you for a sweet reivew!!! :)

nmcil

09/21/2009 10:31 am

Chapter thirteen

Your treatment of Spike and his deep fear and their connection is very effective - well done - I felt my heart racing right along with him. Your use of contrast and how he keeps going sliding back and forth between his human life and his vampire life also works really well - especially the battle he has with his demon.

Very much like your treatment for Buffy - I like not having the more usual angry or Buffy trying to escape her life as The Slayer.

*smiles* Thank you for the compliment, it's always good to know that the things I wanted to show a reader are coming across effectively, especially Spike's struggle between his demon and need to be more for Buffy. He was terrified that she tried to kill herself, and we all know how Spike reacts to uncomfortable emotions- anger. I'm so happy you like my Buffy!! :D Mostly because it's really tough sometimes to write her OOC, but still kind of not. Thank you for the brilliant review!!! :)

pfeifferpack

09/01/2009 03:36 am

Chapter thirteen

So sweetly tender! Love his emotions all over the place, very in character. Unsouled Spike was a bundle of confused feelings and you have captured it perfectly here. His fear of losing her, his fight with his own demon (and I wonder what other influence), his anger, his love....

This ritual can't come soon enough. The demon in her is a knowing one...it knows they plan to get rid of it. Scary, very scary. Sh'e already been through so much and to be free yet still not really in control of even her own body must be horrible.

Kathleen

I tried to picture what Spike would do in a situation like this, and this is what came to me! lol Spike always had trouble with staying focused, you're totally right- his emotions tend to get all over the place! His anger was spurned by the fear of seeing Buffy like that, and it made him lose his head, let his demon take control and trying to make him turn Buffy so he could never lose her.

Buffy's free, but still not, as you said it. She can't be free until they get rid of the demon inside her, and the ones that are metaphorical. The ritual is getting near, and the hijacker's time is running out- and he knows that. I hope you'll like what I've planned for the ritual! :)

Thank you for the great review, I can't tell you how much I appreciate it Kathleen!!! :)

amaya

08/31/2009 09:25 pm

Chapter thirteen

I like it. Please keep writing.

*grins* I always like to hear that!! :) More will be up on Sunday or Monday, and there will be plenty more after that, promise!!! :D Thanks for taking your time to review!!! :)

BuffyConvert

01/10/2010 01:25 pm

Chapter twelve

LIke it? Hmmm... Yes!

*grins* You're the best! Thank you for leaving me the lovely review, BuffyConvert!!! :D

nmcil

09/21/2009 10:09 am

Chapter twelve

Great chapter - like the way that you have brought them together - all the close connection but still having to deal with her tragic past and his confusion and desire for this slayer. This is such a huge new way of having to deal with his life. For Buffy, being able to trust anyone one or thing at all is also a huge change.

Like how you brought in Steve

There are all kinds of conflicting emotions for both of them, and they both have to adjust, adapt to the changing circumstances since they only have each other. I never really liked Whistler, so I made up Steve, and he served his purpose well, I'm glad you liked the way I brought him in! :) Thank you for a lovely review Sylvia!!! :D

vladt

08/28/2009 06:15 am

Chapter twelve

excellent, thank you. (i refuse to comment on the evil chapter ending.)

LOL I'm sorry about that!!! I hope it will prompt you to come back and read the next chapter that should be up on Monday or Tuesday! *winks* And I promise there's no evil ending in that one! Thank you for your review vladt!!! :)

pfeifferpack

08/26/2009 04:07 am

Chapter twelve

Whoa! Glad Steve came in the awake time for less cryptic help. (Like him).

Spike really is starting to care on more levels than the bond and that is good because Buffy does too.

His vampiric speed came in handy this go round. Poor Buffy needs to get rid of this hitch-hiker asap!

Yes, liked very much.

Kathleen

The less cryptic, the better, and Steve was just the guy with enough info to help them! :)

It was the bond that let Spike see Buffy for who she really was, and vice-versa, but it's not the bond that makes Spike genuinely care for Buffy, that's all him. :) What will his reaction be when he finds Buffy hurt? And was it the demon inside her that hurt her, or was it Buffy herself?

I'm glad you liked, and I think you'll like the next chapter too, there will be a sweet scene at the end! Thanks for being so awesome and leaving a lovely review Kathleen!!! :)

nmcil

09/21/2009 09:48 am

Chapter eleven

Good to get back to your story - really enjoying it

I'm really glad you came back to read more and that you're enjoying it! :) Thank you for letting me know!!!

Joyce

08/21/2009 11:08 pm

Chapter eleven

So many questions. Where did the demon come from? You are certainly building a mysterious web.

You'll find out next week! :D I really really hope you'll continue to like! Thanks for the lovely review Joyce!!! :)

nmcil

08/21/2009 06:47 pm

Chapter eleven

WOW - excellent chapter - great blending of Buffy's horrendous past, this mysterious evil entity and their also mysterious connection. And the twist on the claiming, also very effective - while it makes perfect sense that her blood is no longer normal, I was still surprised with your treatment of the claim.

I do however have one small thing that I found discomforting in this chapter - small but still enough for it to something that I personally found you might want to consider. Your voice for Buffy is excellent but we they few times that you give her a more "normal series Buffy voice" it seems a little out of character for your Buffy that is still terrified and traumatized by her tortured experience with Lukas. This "series Buffy voice" acted like a break in the flow of the intensity of your scenes.

It has to be a difficult element for writers, how to keep their Buffy's voice and combined it with the Buffy series voice. The reaction that I felt, for instance when you have her say "let's do this," is that your Buffy is a lot more confused and terrified by her experiences to so quickly fall back into Buffy Slayer voice. I only mention this as something for you to maybe consider - or you could just think that I am totally nuts - but one thing is that I am so very much enjoying your story that I care enough to mention it.

Looking forward to your next chapter -

*grins* What can I say, I like to surprise people! The evil entity is fighting their connection because it threatens its existence, and it uses all available, including turning Buffy's blood into the black sludge when Spike tried to claim her. You could notice the blood was its normal red colour when Buffy touched the bite mark with her fingers.

I don't think you're nuts! lol I really apprecaite your honest opinion. I'm a new writer so I'm always up for a good advice or constructive criticism! It makes me improve, and since I'm writing it for you guys it's just fair you'd tell me what do you want me to keep my eye on. I'll try to beware of it, even though I can't guarantee it won't slip my attention sometimes! But I'll try! :)

Thanks for a lovely review Sylvia!!! :)

Amaya

08/20/2009 11:56 am

Chapter eleven

Please. Keep writing. There will be a happy endindg?. I hope so. Bye.

I will! :D Unless a bus hits me or something. And just to let a hint, I do like happy endings! Well, happy in a way that nobody dies and spuffy is forever... hope that's good enough? *winks* I'm happy you gave this story and chance and left me a review, Amaya!!! :)

vladt

08/28/2009 05:55 am

Chapter ten

their nightmares seem to have brought them where they need to be. very good chapter, thank you.

Yep, that they did. Both Buffy and Spike had been hurt, albeit in different ways, and they'll need the other to help them heal. And since you've already read the next chapter, you know the dagger is important!! :) Thank you for the kind review, I'm glad you enjoyed it!!! :)

Joyce

08/21/2009 10:59 pm

Chapter ten

All I can say is ...weird dream but very compelling.

Exactly what I was going for! :D Buffy's nightmare did have its meaning, all will become clear in the chapter 12. Thanks for leaving a review Joyce!!! :)

nmcil

08/14/2009 04:45 am

chapter nine

totally am liking this very different Buffy treatment - this is such a good combination of feeling her pain and suffering and abuse from her captivity and this other part with this demon and their connection -

Good Job -

I'm glad you like so far! :) I'm trying not to sweep her experience under the rug and make her all happy as fast as I can 'cause that wouldn't be very believable. The attraction rises though, and Spike will have to keep his hands to himself which will be difficult for him, as he he is used to take what he wants at all times. More soonish, today probably! :) Thanks for yet another lovely review, nmcil!!!! :)

vladt

08/09/2009 05:55 am

chapter nine

very good chapter, thank you. what wonderfully evil last line.

LOL First time I've been called evil! Next coming up, the nightmare and Spike reliving some of his memories, I hope you'll stay tuned, vladt. Thanks for an awesome review!!! :)

Joyce

08/08/2009 03:02 am

chapter nine

Interesting concept. Eagerly awaiting the your explanation in chapters to follow.

More explanations in the chapters to follow. Comin up, the nightmare and Spike's walk down the memory lane. I hope you'll stay tuned! Thanks for all your great reviews, I really appreciate them!!! :)

sue

08/07/2009 05:11 pm

chapter nine

A very detailed chapter of the two of them, on the brink of a relationship but already so needy of the other. I love the way you have brought them together and with all the contradictory emotions, they still gravitate towards each other: as in Canon, in the end these two, demon and demon slayer give each other both salvation and the most ultimate gift.
Belief.

Beautifully said, Sue!!! :) They need each other, they crave the closeness but it's too early to cross the line, there are still so many unresolved issues, so the emotions will clash. Spike will be having a hard time keeping his need in check. But in the end, they'll give each other exactly what you said- salvation and belief. Couldn't have said it better myself! Thanks for a wonderful review!!! :)

nmcil

08/14/2009 04:28 am

Chapter eight

great update - It will be very interesting to see how you treat her recovery - let's say, her struggle to take back her life - and the crossroads with Spike is already changing him. Intriguing idea this connection by blood but also more than just blood. And what is this demon that is working inside The Slayer? Looking forward to finding out where you take the characters.

P.S. - like your Willow too -

Glad I had a couple of chapter to read - the only thing bad about reading excellent new works - is that I always hate not being able to just read the work all the way through -

Spike is torn because of his nature, his need to assert his evilness because being near Buffy makes poor guy go all protective and sentimental. When he's near her, he can't help himself, he has to take care of her. I'm glad you like the connection, it's just as you said- it is about blood, but it goes further than that, and it's one of the things that will help Buffy heal. Ah, the demon- you'll find out soon, and the connection between the two of them will be crucial in getting rid of it. *winks*

I had fun writing Willow! :D

I know what you mean! lol I'm a very avid reader myself, and it sucks to wait for the updates. The least I can tell you, I will finish it!!! :) Thanks for a great review, nmcil!!! :)

vladt

08/09/2009 05:47 am

Chapter eight

very good update. hope we find out what buffy saw in the mirror. good read, thank you.

You will find out, more to what is it exactly in ch12! :D Thank you for liking so far and leaving lovely reviews, vladt!!! :)

Joyce

08/08/2009 01:50 am

Chapter eight

This is wonderful. Always love conflicted and passionate Spike.

That's why we love the guy so much, right? Right!! :D Thanks for letting me know, Joyce... you're an awesome reader!!! :)

Eternal_red

08/01/2009 12:45 pm

Chapter eight

Makes a change for Buffy to be the abused person rather than Spike. I'm glad that she's safe for now and due some well deserved comfort from our rather torn vampire. I hope that Buffy's vision in the mirror is a hallucination brought on by self loathing rather than a real monster residing in her body - perhaps a trace of Spike's own demon? Thank you for this intriguing fic I shall be watching out for more chapters with interest.

Spike is definitely torn, but the minute he's with Buffy, he can't help but be William all over again! Wooo, should I tell you? Hmm, okay I'll tell you... it is a real monster! I promise there will be more, next two chapters are already written, just need to be beta'd. Thank you for a lovely review Eternal_red, I appreciate you taking your time to let me know what you think!!! :)

vladt

08/09/2009 05:34 am

Chapter seven

hope what lukas thinks "is not a problem anymore" comes back and bites him hard. very good chapter, thank you.

You can bet it will come back and bite him, who knows, maybe quite literally! I'm glad you liked and thank you for being kind and reviewing!!! :)

Joyce

08/08/2009 01:33 am

Chapter seven

Hmm, interesting reaction. Will there be an uber partnership then based on the side effects of the serum?

You're a perceptive reader, I like that! :)) The serum is definitely a reason for all the wackiness and strange connection between the two of them. Thank you for leaving another lovely review!!! :)

nmcil

07/29/2009 11:22 am

Chapter seven

Great Read - I'm totally excited about reading your story - love the idea of their connection and the immediate need for each other. Nice to not go through some of the anger and hatred that Buffy has for him in so many of the other Buffyverse stories - it's nice to have this different treatment.

I would be honored to have one of my banners used for this fine work - I would love to try one - you can check out my work at the whedon world gallery www.whedonworld.com

Hope that you will have another chapter posted very soon -

You are? *bounces* It's great to hear you like the different treatment!!!

Since the captivity, Buffy had to change her black and white attitude, because humans are just as capable of doing evil as demons are, and even a demon can feel deeply. She had found out the hard way.

The connection pulls them together, and it will play an important part in saving Buffy's soul... but I'm getting ahead of myself, I do that sometimes! lol

Checked the website... great work, really!!! I'd love to have a banner made by you! :))

More soon, I promise... I've always got the next chapter already written, it's just a matter of having it beta'd! Thank you for leaving such a lovely review nmcil!!! :)

Joyce

08/08/2009 01:12 am

Chapter six

Hell, yes!!

LOL I take it you liked? I enjoyed writing this chapter the most, I must admit. Thanks for reviewing, Joyce!!! :)

vladt

07/23/2009 03:08 am

Chapter six

very good read, thank you. enjoyed leonard and the depth of his feelings; red, the reluctant hero; and spike having his slayer dropped right into his lap.

Wanted to show that even an evil vampire can love deeply! Willow saved Buffy but it won't be without the consequences, more to that soon. And Spike sure has her dropped right into his lap. The question is, what will he do about it? Thanks for taking your time to leave such a great review!!! :)

pfeifferpack

07/20/2009 04:01 pm

Chapter six

And so they meet.

I couldn't help but feel sorry for Leonard. I am reminded of James and his Elizabeth from Angel....yes, Buffy will have to know from this that even with an evil core a demon can love and deeply.

Nice save by Willow and loved her babbling nervousness and confusion. Very in character.

Poor Buffy can't really go home but has no where to go at this point. She'll eventually want revenge on Lucas but need to find herself again and to heal.

So something in her has already touched Spike's humanity and attracted the attention of his demon as well. This is the best possible luck she's had thus far. He knows something of what she's been through given he did know to go to Lucas to begin with and will likely put it all together quickly.

Nice echo of canon drowned Buffy. Will there be a new Slayer like with Kendra or will that be a non issue? Either way is fine but the nod to canon was lovely.

Kathleen

I kind of wanted the readers and Buffy to see that even when the vampires are evil, they can love, they can be devoted. Not all of them of course... they are diverse, just like humans are. Every one of them is different in one way or another. Take Angelus and Spike for example. They're complete opposites of each other!

I'm glad you liked this Willow, I enjoyed writing her! :)

You're completely right about that... Buffy will want to avenge herself, once she's ready to face the literal and methaporical demons! Spike showed up at the most convenient moment, sometimes one can find safety and compassion in the arms of the most unlikely hero, right? And there's a reason behind the pull Spike feels in regards to Buffy, more of that will be revealed soon! :)

I'm glad you liked the canon bit... it certainly served its purpose, but I'm not saying a word yet, though you can probably figure it out by yourself! *winks* Kendra will be the next slayer, but she won't be too relevant to the story!

Thank you for taking your time to leave me such an awesome review, Kathleen!!! :)

vladt

07/18/2009 08:54 pm

Chapter five

very good read, thank you.

Thank you for reading and letting me know you liked vladt!!! :)

pfeifferpack

07/15/2009 11:49 pm

Chapter five

Just found this. Very compelling. Rare to find H/C with Buffy the one needing the comfort. Dark and well done thus far. The use of the Watchers potion makes perfect sense (and just why wouldn't the demon community be on to that bit of nonsense anyway?).

Put this in favorites to keep up with updates.
Kathleen

Hi Kathleen! That's exactly what I've been thinking... why wouldn't they? Plus, being evil guys that they are, they modified it a little bit to suite their purposes... and it will have consequences. More will be revealed as the story progresses. I feel honoured that you like my story, since I love all yours... you're a great writer!! Thank you for leaving a review!!! :)

Deb

07/10/2010 11:12 am

Chapter four

Pretty dark place you've gone with this fic. Can't say that this was easy to read, but I believe that you have better plans for her and hopefully some retribution. This type of misery is the base aspect of inhumanity, and unfortunately there are women in this world that are subjected to abuse and torture at the hands and for the profit of others. A very challenging issue.

Believe me when I tell you that it wasn't easy to write at times, especially the graphic rape scenes. I felt like it needed to be written though and it is a journey of healing even if there are many obstacles in the way. I tried to do it justice though and not simply write away everything that happened to Buffy as being done and over with in the end. Even if she learns to live with it, she'll always have the painful memories. You're right, she'll get her retribution eventually as I think ti is necessary for her to face her fears. Hope you'll enjoy the story and thank you for the great review!!! :)

Joyce

08/08/2009 12:43 am

Chapter four

Darkly written very well. Poor Buffy.

A new reader! :D I'm glad you enjoy so far and thank you for leaving a review, Joyce!!! :)

vladt

07/11/2009 03:49 am

Chapter four

very good chapter, thank you. great line: "He was still wearing the towel. And nothing else." way to ruin an exit. is buffy losing her mind, as she thinks, or is it a slayer dream showing hope for a change.

I'm happy you liked the chapter, and the line! I like to keep Spike undressed as much as possible! lol And Buffy's illusion, or dream if you will...it is kind of like a slayer dream, yet not completely...it's more of a meeting of Spike's and Buffy's essences outside the normal realm of existence, Spike is feeling it too, except...he won't remember! Thank you for being kind and leaving a review vladt!!! :)

vladt

07/11/2009 03:31 am

Chapter three

"...wasn't she?" spike will figure it out. good read, thank you.

He definitely will, but I think you already know that! ,)) Thanks for the review!!!

vladt

07/11/2009 03:21 am

Chapter two

they have had five months to work on buffy. she is doing well tobe just numb. good chapter, thank you.

Buffy is teetering on the edge, and she tries to hold on to her sanity with everything she has, being numb is the only way to not lose herself. Thank you for reviewing vladt!!! :))

Brett

07/05/2009 12:10 am

Chapter two

Buffy is in a very bad situation. The question is has she hit rock bottom yet? Or can things still get worse.

What do you think? *winks* Things are far from over for Buffy, the question is, does she have enough strength to not succumb, will she just give in when she realizes she can't take it anymore, or will something give her the will to go on and hope for an escape? Thank you so much for reviewing!!! :)

verito

08/07/2009 01:04 pm

chapter one

wow awesome!!! love the writing...

*grins* I'm glad you like it so far, let's hope I'll keep your interest! Reviews like yours give me the necessary inspiration to write.... thank you!!! :)

nmcil

07/29/2009 08:14 am

chapter one

Glad you asked for that banner and that I started reading - I love how you started and your style - excellent. Like how you bring out important parts of your characters but with just a few lines

Yay, thank you so much!!!! I'm really happy you enjoyed reading, it means a lot since it's my first story, and it's always great to hear positive feedback! Thank you for taking your time to review nmcil, and I'd be very grateful if you decided to make that banner! :))