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Scars by JamesMFan charles 11/20/2017 04:13 am End This was a great, beautiful story. And I do hate you for the ending. I don't know how you can think of it as happy, as it is the definition of tragedy. Nonetheless, I loved it. The characterization is pretty much everything I look for in fanfics, and I wished you'd written more. Thank you! Addy 05/24/2016 06:49 am End
ehhh.... I have a mixed review lol
I REALLY liked the story, and even the ending was good - but tbh I didn't feel like the two quite matched. The story was incredibly character-driven - relying on their emotions and experiences both separate and together to keep the flow going and making it easy for the reader to become immersed. But the ending felt like it contradicted that, to me. It's not just that it wasn't "happy", either, but that it's slightly rushed and cuts off so abruptly with no real resolution - for the plot or the characters. It frustrated me a bit - I don't mind character death or even dark/artsy stories, but I kinda prefer more closure than I felt this gave; a smoother transition out, a broader point to the events. A feeling like - if something drastic happens, even if it's senseless and meant to be: make it count. Make it contribute something to the fic. Be consistent. This felt like it was really building and growing into an epic fic and really exploring the characters with SO much potential to really go anywhere it wanted - and I was anxious to see where that would be - but then it just kinda gave up midway through the last chapter.
I don't mean to come down on you either, though, just wanted to explain my reaction to it as a reader - when I finished reading it, I actually didn't even realize it WAS the end until I saw "The End" at the bottom. lol Then I thought, "...*blink* that's it? seriously? O.o hmm. *sigh* ok, on to another fic, I guess. I really liked that one, though, I can't believe it just cut off like that :/". I like the intention of it logically, but it just kinda detached me emotionally, I guess and it didn't feel end-y. I hope that makes sense lol
Despite that, I did still very much enjoy the story otherwise. I loved the character portrayal and detail and I did kinda like that it's at least somewhat open (and thus kinda leaving room for interpretation as far as "what happens next" lol).
My only real disappointment, though, was the lack of warning - and not even for me, but the bigger point of it. I know a lot of authors don't want to include one with some things because it gives too much of the story away - but there ARE ways to work it without doing that (ie: we know there's character death - but no clue who it is, or how or why it happens, etc; and misdirection in the story can be used to cover it if necessary) - and warnings exist for a reason.. *especially* for things like death, cutting, and suicide, because they're triggering for some people. Stories are meant to be felt - making the reader think and feel is the goal to reach - but some feelings can be harmful for some people. For all any author knows, someone could be at the very edge of their sanity or emotional rope reading a fic and while it IS fiction, the place it takes them to - emotionally and mentally - could be very real for them, and have very real consequences.
Warnings help people prepare for what to avoid if it's triggering for them - they have no clue what they're getting into otherwise, and at that point, readers are basically left choiceless as to the feelings and concepts they're exposed to reading a fic because by the time they realize something is there that could disturb them, they've already read at least part of it (and often that's really all it takes). I'm always a little disappointed when I see fics/authors that don't take that into account. I see it from the author's POV, too, because I'm a writer myself lol, but I know I always feel the responsibility to "take care" of my readers in that way, so it's a prevalent thought for me.
09/25/2010 11:49 am End I like it... wow. i do. it envokes...alot of emotions. If buffy had to die..in a morbid way. this is one...i think id be at peace with. No light without the dark perhaps. Sigh. 05/22/2010 12:48 pm End Still an excellent read. Thanks. :-) 05/22/2010 12:04 pm End I so didn't see that coming. Tears abound. 05/22/2010 12:02 pm End Sunshine 05/18/2010 05:02 pm End Hi! Firstly, I want to say that you write very well, and I have enjoyed reading your stories. I do not doubt that you have / or can, aspire to write real good literature. But I personally do not read fanfic in a wish to read good literature, I read it to have a good story, I tend to like some escapism. I feel that this story was spoiled by an ending not fit for fanfic, but more for arty literature. Each time I read a fanfic that aims at being to arty, I feel robbed as a reader. The better the story, the worse the feeling. You, as a writer, should take this as a big compliment, even if I hate what you did to this special and really good fic. Sunshine 05/18/2010 04:41 pm End Hi! Firstly, I want to say that you write very well, and I have enjoyed reading your stories. I do not doubt that you have / or can, aspire to write real good literature. But I personally do not read fanfic in a wish to read good literature, I read it to have a good story, I tend to like some escapism. I feel that this story was spoiled by an ending not fit for fanfic, but more for arty literature. Each time I read a fanfic that aims at being to arty, I feel robbed as a reader. The better the story, the worse the feeling. You, as a writer, should take this as a big compliment, even if I hate what you did to this special and really good fic. 05/14/2010 09:58 pm End Wow. For reasons unbeknown to me I was not disappointed at all. Such a raw ending. I loved it for what it was. I just read the other reviews. I agree with you; readers needed to go with the flow of the story and NOT be warned about character death. While it was heartbreaking, looking back it was inevitable. Buffy was broken, but in the end she won as well as lost in the sense that she determined her own fate, not relying on someone else to make it for her. When Giles told her to choose between Spike and her friends, she said she was choosing neither--she chose herself. And her death was her choice. In a way, it was Spike's confession that sent her over the edge, but ironically, he made that confession because she had changed him as much as he had changed her. That was evident from the way you wrote the ending with Spike helplessly banging on the barrier trying to get to her--a truly powerful scene. You really set her death up well by writing the part where Buffy realizes Spike can't help his nature anymore than she can ignore her own as a killer. Beautifully done. An artist that I knew killed himself just from this circumstance - he was such a good artist and poet but life screwed him over really early on when a car came crashing into him - left him paralyzed and in a wheel chair - he too could no longer live with his pain and suffering and how his life had been so devasted - Powerful stuff your ending of her life - and Spike's as well really - where could he go from here but just further and further down. Glad that you did not take the easy way out - reads like you have been close to the subject you wrote her pain and suffering and trauma so well. J 01/11/2009 04:56 am End No punches pulled, there. The progression of the story and the relationship and changes in Buffy and Spike were a fantastic read. The ending is fitting, though abrupt enough that it took me a few minutes to come to terms with it. Excellent story, thank you for sharing. that... sucked. oh my gosh. im in complete shock. i was so expecting a happy ending. no 'i love you's or anything. i cant believe taht's it. im gonna be a zombie for the rest of the day..... ~dl Okay, may have to cry now...lots. Wonderfully true, wonderfully sad. You're right, as much as I wish things could have ended happily ever after, this group is just too dysfunctional to help her through it, and Buffy's too far gone to help herself. It's beautifully ironic, that Willow's spell actually killed her, rather than saving her. Everyone let her down, one kick at a time, until this was her only option. Just so wonderful, and bittersweet. icespuffy 11/11/2007 11:33 pm End Great story, a very interesting look at the characters. I liked evil Spike that does not stop killing and lies about it. I understand Buffy very well here, to have something happen that makes you think you are not your self anymore,makes you less, and wanting to end it because you just can handel the pain, both inside and out. Buffy´s death was suprising but if you think about the story the ending was right and true. Thanks for sharing this!! just wanted to say i absolutly love this fic!!!! its angsty but amazing. Totally wasn't expecting the death but i think it was well writen. Thank you so much for a brilliant story [even if it did make me blubber like a baby several times!!] chelsea 06/29/2007 02:18 am End this was an amazing piece of work. buffy's strength as a slayer is in her support network, it makes sense that if they abandoned her she would be most vulnerable. i loved spikes reaction too, the desperation, the fury, the begging. would love to see how this affects him. DoWnEr 04/09/2007 02:02 pm End Wow. Really sad. I don't hate you for it. But i wish i had a little more warning. I was hoping Spike would leave and Buffy would be sad and get over it... but this... it's just... Loss for words. FTFCHRIS@hotmail.com wow...that is so unbelievably sad...heart-breaking really...i had tears in my eyes...i didn't expect the sad ending, but nothing wrong with a sad ending sometimes...great job on this fic :) Deej 05/31/2006 10:56 am End I thought it was very good and I think it was the right ending. I cried a couple of times during the whole thing...it was really moving. Great writing! lux 05/13/2006 02:57 pm End an aftermath ficlet would be great for this. reactions of the scooby gang... otherwise i like it. Gathered - if you had done the character death warning thing - it wouldn't have changed a thing. nice read. I hate you, you made me cry....I loved this story, please write some more. The ending was belivable and great. I still hate you though...but I´ll stop if you write another. Ellie 04/17/2006 08:29 pm End wow i soo wasnt expecting this butits just total genius!! it just gives the story darkness that just fits in Wow - just wow - what an ending ::blinks:: I wasn't expected that.... I liked it... have to say it is not "agnst" this is more "dark" but what an incrediable read. just wow... I've enjoyed this story, which was well written and well crafted. In the end, I'm sad for Buffy, that she lost all hope and gave up on life. I'm sad, too, for Joyce, who will live forever with unbelievable pain. awwww... poor buffy and poor spike for having to watch.. *wipes a tear* Lou 04/10/2006 11:23 am End Unexpected - but it did match the tone of the fic and was completely believable. Nicely done. Nikkole 04/10/2006 02:41 am End I was reading evryone else's reviews after I posted mine, and I also think that an epilogue would be great. Maybe her funeral, how everyone reacts to her death, how they deal and try to move on. Nikkole 04/10/2006 02:34 am End WOW! That was very powerful, and very sad. YOu write it beautifully. I have to say, when it said she flicked the scissors across her wrists, I was completely NOT prepared for that. It made me jump in my chair. Thank you for writing this story and sharing it with us. I hope to see more from you soon. Irene 04/09/2006 11:22 pm End I really really loved this story, but there has to be an epiloge, or something! Please, please, please. Irene 04/09/2006 11:21 pm End I really really loved this story, but there has to be an epiloge, or something! Please, please, please. chance 04/09/2006 10:43 pm End hey amazing story i've really enjoyed it!! and this last chapter is brill!! it was great!! had me bawling. i agree though with some of the reviewers bout liking 2 see another chapter where we see every1's reactions 2 her death and how it will affect every1. really great job!! claire 04/09/2006 10:39 pm End hey i have been reading your story over at sinister attraction and then i found it here and that u ad finished it here. i loved ur whole story & i think this was a great way 2 end it. ' crying my eyes out '. beautifully written. shows that it was very well thought out. good job!! SpaceLord 04/09/2006 07:23 pm End Hmm maybe you should name this story...when interventions fuck things up more than they already are....I really think that you got that part right...the judgemental things with the way the scoobies always tried to tell her what was right and wrong with her personal life could probably make her comit suicide if she was already depressed as she was in this story....the feeling of being completly alone...however I would probably think that she would have done "suicide by demon/vampire". As I already started a nice epi or another chapter with all the reactions after her suicide would have been nice....I can just see all the guilt and the blaming that would go around. I must admit that you had me sobbing with this chapter. Buffy’s actions made it start, but what really did it was Spike, who by this time wanted nothing more then to save her, and who could no longer get to her. She was so lost, in so much pain that she couldn’t ever see any other way to free herself. I really should have seen this coming, it was so true to your story and everyone’s reactions to her when they found out about Spike would have had to be so completely different for there to be even the possibility of a different outcome. This whole story has been very beautifully written and in this chapter you did another fantastic job. That was a very moving story, and I her death at the end was not a disappointment to me at all. It sort of fit there. ::puts in favorites:: SpaceLord 04/09/2006 12:09 pm End Wow....not the ending I would have expected. Good really good IMO but not expected. Would have liked an epi to see how this would have affected Spike after....would it change him completly? I'm thinking that would be an interesting story to tell. Waaa Waaaa :( soo totaly sad. Butifuly writen thow, an a total tear jurker. It was very beautiful. Yes, I'm bawling and really wasn't expecting her death and Spike being there to witness it but it was still one of the best stories I have ever read. vladt 04/09/2006 04:37 am End really loved the tale. do feel that an epilogue, spreading the guilt to those who earned it, would not be inappropiate. loved the read, thanks Jess Marie 04/09/2006 04:18 am End Gah, been a long time since a story made me cry. idk5743228 04/09/2006 03:27 am End I was truly all ready to blast away for not putting the character death into the summary. But, I probably wouldn't have read the ending. I'm usually about the fluffy/spuffy. I've read and loved this story from the beginning. The ending was beautifully written and obviously well thought out. You stayed true to the story. Thank you for an exceptional story. Gah... just saw 'Richard's' review... don't you just LOVE it when readers tell you where you are or were going with your own story!? *rolls eyes* I know, right? Jeez. But still thanks for reading and reviewing. Glad you liked it at least. :) *sniff* Sad but brilliant ending! I am glad you didn't put a character death warning on... it really would have ruined the ending. I feel so sorry for Spike I think in his own way he really did love her and to watch her die and be unable to even go to her would have been so hard for him. Fabulous angsty story, thank you! Leslie 04/09/2006 02:55 am End I hated the ending, but at the same time it was appropriate. I'm glad you stuck with your original intentions. Fran 04/09/2006 02:19 am End *Sobs* How can I be disappointed or hate you for giving us such a beautiful story? I’ve followed this from Chp 1 and loved it all the way. You write beautifully. I wasn’t sure how you were going to end it, although must admit I never suspected this. I’ll go away and have a good think about it. At present it worries me because basically she gives in and that’s not what she or anyone should do. Whoa! You are going to get blasted for not warning, I'll bet. But it really is good that you didn't give it away - and in retrospect, there was nothing happy or even particularly hopeful about the story, so you did set it up so well that there shouldn't be too much shock. I was surprised, but found myself nodding my head as I realized there was going to be no last-minute saving of the Slayer. Very well done. just sue 04/09/2006 01:11 am End Bravo! A shock but in keeping with the tone of the story from the beginning. Happiness seemed fleeting for poor Buffy and all too easily shattered by reality. Strangely I think that Spike would truly have made the effort if he'd thought she would do this. How else could he be so devastated at the end? A brave choice and I salute you. Thanks for the ride. Next ne a little more upbeat maybe? *hugs* Missus_grace 04/09/2006 01:11 am End I've been reading this story from the beginning and was drawn into it quickly. I love fluffy endings, so it is a bit disappointing, but you are a great writer. Thanks for sharing! OMG. I hope Spike is ready to die or run. Thank you for sharing this very sorrowful story with us. Whoa, holy crap. Sad ending, but I think it fits. I've really enjoyed this story. Thank you for sharing. :) Thank you for reading. *sobs* Ok, so didn't need the downer ending, was actually trying to get cheered up today. *sighs* Maybe a slight angst warning in an authors note for this chapter won't give it away? Because I would have stayed FAR FAR away from anything resembling angst. Great fic though, I definitely enjoyed the ride! You are of course right, I can't believe I forgot the angst warning! Added now. Sorry. Still, thanks for reading :) Richard 04/09/2006 12:18 am End Well, that was pretty scummy; not including a character death warning. And since I happen to know better, I just thought I'd share with everyone else that it is NOT true "this is where [you]'ve been going with the story the whole time". Actually, it is. How would you know better? I don't even know you. Beautiful, ity fit the tone of the story so well. Anyother ending would have cheapned the impact of the story. It was brutal, it was painful, but in the end it rang true. I'm glad it did. I really wanted to be true to these characters in this context and in my mind it couldn't really end any other way. Thanks for reading and reviewing. spikeskat 04/08/2006 11:27 pm End You're setting yourself up for this one. But, I thought it was a logical conclusion to this story. It was full of angst, and to suddenly end on a high note of fluff didn't seem quite true. (But, there's nothing to say you can't do an alternate "fluffy" ending... LOL.) Great job! Thank you! Yeah, I couldn't go with the fluff even if my heart was saying "Go with the fluff, go!" I knew it wouldn't ring true. Thanks for reading! Terrific chapter - I love the simple yet devasting three words from Spike. i love her reaction...not so much the hitting spike part...but so much more realistic than if she had gone off on him and all..can't wait to see how it ends :) excallant chapter - I can't wait to see how you conclude it! Well Giles and Xander's response was not unexpected. Spike and Buffy's confrontation was so emotion-charged. Spike coming clean was the right thing to do and, as expected, it has hurt them both... looking forward to the next chap to see how (or if) they can get past it. I must say I will be sad to see this story end... I have really enjoyed it. Lou 03/29/2006 03:31 pm Loss He'd probably be better off following his instincts as he'll never get a free pass now! Had two chapters to catch up on, and now I'm going to be late for work! Gah! Wonderful - can't wait for the last chapter. If Spike is still killing, he could have done that universe a big favor and eaten the Whelp. More story please. Ouch.  To let down your gaurd and find that you have been lied to.  That's hard to stomach.  Good chapter. just sue 03/29/2006 09:21 am Loss Oh, dear. Her secret world ain't so secret anymore and the foundation is crumbling - to dust? I can't believe that the next chappie will be the last and am fearful for them both. Great story and will be very sorry to see it end. xxx please let this have a spuffy ending, make him change or her not care or something but they need each other. i hate the rest of the scoobie anyway, well except tara, dawn and sometimes willow. Dee 03/29/2006 06:12 am Loss I like where you are taking this and I am looking forward to the big finish. Jess Marie 03/29/2006 06:10 am Loss ACK!!! How can there only be on chapter left?!?! =) Just wanted you to know I've greatly enjoyed this story and will be sad to see it over. Cewcew 03/29/2006 04:09 am Loss Oh man! put on your golashes,its getten deep. And its starten to hit the fan. A good read indeed. The only problem is, the page has run out of words! :( More soon please. very good chapter. tough place to stop. should make the last chapter very good reading. thanks for the fine tale. Thanks for the great update. Spike had it right Buffy's friends do have a habit of ambushing her and making her feel like shit. I'm glad that Spike finally told Buffy the truth about the killing. I am really looking forward to how this ends. McChick 03/29/2006 03:13 am Loss Ohhhh that chapter was intense! I wasn't shocked to see Giles and Xander attacked Spike, but to have Buffy slap him... I could see the pain that caused him cause your writing was so well done!! I loved this chapter and will be sad to see the story end, but you are doing an excellent job with it!! -Ashley- Lacy 03/29/2006 02:53 am Loss Oh! Horrible cliff hangers! More please! oh god!!! last chapter ... already ... wide eyes ... but but but ... lol great update! now i'm all worried how it's gonna end...sigh Nikkole 03/29/2006 02:13 am Loss I am glad that he finally came clean, but poor Buffy. She will feel so betrayed. Maybe they can tell everyone to sod off and run off together. LOL! Fantasies are a wonderful thing, aren't they? oh god!!! last chapter ... already ... wide eyes ... but but but ... lol great update! now i'm all worried how it's gonna end...sigh I love this chp. All so in character. I want it to end and don’t, all at the same time. Thanks for great read. well, if they're gonna be like that about it..she's done without them this long, what's a bit longer? but when she finds out that they're partially right...wow...this could get ugly...more now :) I loved this chapter! it was very awesome! This is a very powerful story and it shows great insight into the characters. Although you set up a new situation the characters stayed true to who they are. I loved in this chapter that Buffy faced her greatest fear, rejection of her friends, and found the power to choose herself. Thanks for a great story. Lou 03/19/2006 02:18 am Conviction She toughed it out! Well done, Richard 03/17/2006 10:19 pm Conviction Oh yeah, excluding Tara. But that's because she's a complete and total Victim. Richard 03/17/2006 10:18 pm Conviction Wow, what a bloody bitch Joyce is. She's manipulative, hypocritical, two-faced, simple-minded and downright callow. Very much what she actually is in canon before she got whitewashed and sainted by people too small-minded to appreciate that there's not a single person on BTVS that isn't destined to go straight to the deepest pits of hell. OutSTANDING writing! vladt 03/17/2006 09:25 pm Conviction good scene(could 've used a bit of xander slapping, but every fic could.) thanks for the fine read Love it. Despite the fact that I'd hoped Joyce had learned enough to want Buffy to have what Buffy needed, I thought the Scoobies all acted as expected. Nicely done, though it's sad that Buffy believes him and he lied. That's gonna hurt. oh my, great update...ohhhh the angst, and i loved when Joyce walked in on them...every mother AND daughters worst nightmare...lol Bridget 03/17/2006 01:07 am Conviction Great chapter. I am glad that Buffy stood up for herself. I hope that she and Spike come to some type of understanding. I hope it is not just sex. Bad Friends! Bad, bad, bad! Poor Buffy. :( more please. fantastic chapter! Joyce gets the bad mom award though. That was mean! Hmm...  Buffy all alone and seemingly, in shock.  Update soon, please! It always makes me crazy when they all think they know what is best for her. I loved the chp. Will be waiting for more. OMG! Buffy stood up to the Scoobies!! WTF is up with Joyce? All this time Buffy was not talking to anybody or seeing anybody and totally depressed. Now she's better but so what, she's suddenly all moral and knows more about being a Slayer than Buffy. More story please. Oh I love this story so much. Can’t wait for next chp. kim 03/16/2006 11:25 pm Conviction Well...didn't expect Joyce to be so hard on her...that was definitely an uncomfortable meeting. And now she's on her way to Spike...probably...or he'll find her first, since he probably didn't go too far from the house, watching over her and such. Very well put, "I choose me". This was a big step for her, and they don't even realize it. You just grew up a bit more, Buffy. Big smiles. Very funny. Thanks. :-) 05/22/2010 11:45 am Ready oh wow....never considered that possibility...careless of them, eh? great chapter though :) squeals! Oh I do love that - she burst in for that - this is really good :-) I’m glad Buffy’s is going out and doing something with her Mom, about time. And OMG what a way to end the chapter, Joyce walking in on Buffy and Spike! I have to say I’m a little surprised by Buffy’s affections after seeing the news earlier on in the day. She’s not a stupid girl, she’s gotta know it’s Spike. Nikkole 03/01/2006 08:17 pm Ready OMG! TOO FUNNY!! Lou 03/01/2006 11:18 am Ready How come Spike left and came back? *L*  Busted!  Great chapter. akarinacj 03/01/2006 09:18 am Ready Great, great. And now Joyce. That´s going to be interresting to see. Can´t wait!!!!! LMAO! How fast can Spike get out of there? Will Joyce figure out that Buffy's change for the better has been inspired by Spike? :O Busted! lol :D LOL... BUSTED! Poor Joyce... that's got to be a shock to her system. Loved the update. Thank you. SpaceLord 03/01/2006 01:48 am Ready Well talk about getting busted....hope that she don't have an axe within reach :) “GAH!â€Â's with Joyce...rofl...well this should be fun to explain...lol I love this story. This chapter ending is great. Please update soon. vladt 03/01/2006 12:44 am Ready absolutely wonderful. great setup and fantastic place to end the update. we readers can ponder are own update, until you show us how it really should be. thanks Richard 03/01/2006 12:32 am Ready Damn, I never saw this coming. Enter Joyce! ROFLMAO! Great update. ChrissieLinnit 03/01/2006 12:27 am Ready Wheeeee! What a ride that turned out to be! Got to say... it's a sure-fire way to get it all out into the open! Now, hopefully, Spike and Buffy will have Joyce sort them out - as a couple, and Spike will start to come clean with Buffy and Buffy will reassess her measures of good, bad and those tricky grey areas in between... OR, there could be a fast trip to the land of DeNial on the horizon? Great chapter and a fantastic punchline. “GAH!†Spike looked up, surprised. “Oh…shit. Hi Joyce!†neo_trinityknot 03/01/2006 12:24 am Ready Joyce see the full moon, did she? Heheh! Funny (and evil) cliffie! Joyce's reaction should be interesting lol. Glad Buffy's getting back to normal.....I just hope the dumb ol' Scoobies don't think they're gonna start running her life again. Nemo 03/01/2006 12:01 am Ready Oh god, I just loved this chap! Buffy's morning routine reminds me so much about myself in the mornings *lol* I loved the ending, can't wait to see how Joyce will react to a naked Spike in her daughters bedroom. That was just hilarious! :-) 05/22/2010 11:40 am Leaving DoWnEr 04/09/2007 01:33 pm Leaving .... Damn starting to really hate Buffy now. Fucking whore. And that guy is really a fucking asshole. He really needs to die. It's obvious, at least for a man, that he's doing it all because he's jealous and not because he cares. I'm sure you can recognize women who pull the same stunt. Men can spot assholes in the same way. Really am enjoying the story, if i wasn't i wouldn't have such strong feelings for any of the characters but just because i love the story doesn't mean i have to like some of the characters. I like the fact that you didn't turn Spike into softy right off the bat. Like how he's still pure evil and knows it but knows he's slowly falling for the slayer and would be willing to change if he allows himself to fall further. You don't see that a lot. DoWnEr 04/09/2007 01:33 pm Leaving .... Damn starting to really hate Buffy now. Fucking whore. And that guy is really a fucking asshole. He really needs to die. It's obvious, at least for a man, that he's doing it all because he's jealous and not because he cares. I'm sure you can recognize women who pull the same stunt. Men can spot assholes in the same way. Really am enjoying the story, if i wasn't i wouldn't have such strong feelings for any of the characters but just because i love the story doesn't mean i have to like some of the characters. I like the fact that you didn't turn Spike into softy right off the bat. Like how he's still pure evil and knows it but knows he's slowly falling for the slayer and would be willing to change if he allows himself to fall further. You don't see that a lot. knew he couldn't leave...poor spike...but he'd better come clean right away, or it'll be bad...gotta read more now :) lovely - sigh - i still want J for my own - can i justhave them both - my own vampries! Oh no he CAN’T leave, not now! GAH! And Jeremiah came back, but now he’s run off again. *sigh* Oh thank god… Spike didn’t leave town. vladt 03/01/2006 12:32 am Leaving had to reread this before commenting(and i was having i really bad day during the first reading). i love the story, i like jeremiah, but if he is really gone this time, he seems to be more of a distraction, than an asset.thanks for the read. i really love the story and apologize for the negative comment. Lou 02/28/2006 03:39 pm Leaving You can't leave me there!!!! just sue 02/25/2006 11:32 am Leaving Well, that answers all the questions I had. Great chapter and am looking forward to seeing what happens next. Thanks ever so. Ahhh....you had me worried for a minute! Thought I was going to have to kick Spike's ass lol. Still wondering what Jeremiah is up to, though. :) Nikkole 02/25/2006 06:49 am Leaving Jeremiah seems so nice. I am just waiting for him to show his true face. I guess I like him, but don't trust him. Nothing is ever as it seems in Sunnydale. Very nice chapter. I can't wait for more! Taylormaid 02/25/2006 06:06 am Leaving Really enjoyed this chapter. I'm afraid the sh*t is gonna hit the fan soon for Spike. I'm sad to see Jeremiah go...I've liked him a lot. Spike didn't get far this time. Had me worried there for a bit. lol I'm glad you don't have Spike changing his ways overnight just because he has something going with Buffy. This is so much more realistic and true to his character at the time. god you are so not helping me! Every chapter i try to decide how i feel about this fic! and every chapter you leave me staddlin' the fence...part of me hates him for lying to her and part of me hates her for believing him...aggghhh!!! great update by the way...lol Spikes Slayer2 02/25/2006 02:44 am Leaving HA! i knew he wouldnt really leave.. he's in to deep.. lol Always look forward to a new chapter of this one. Jeremiah is a truly unique idea for a character, and you've used him well in creating interest for the plot. I also like the complexity you've used with Buffy's trust of Spike. She's almost made herself trust him because she needs him so much. It's well done. Finally, I like the fact that he's still not worthy of it. And he knows it. Classic Spike... Always loves bitch.  Love it! Shanna 02/25/2006 12:10 am Leaving I do like this story very much. Well written and different is a very good way. Here's hoping that Spike decides to change his evil blood sucking ways due to love and that this love is returned. Fingers and toes crossed. ape 02/24/2006 11:17 pm Leaving who in the holy fuck is this asshole and why is he touching another man's girl.i hope he gets his head torn off, the bastard. good story though. Gah, I can see badness on the horizon for these two. Jeremiah was adorable (as always) but I wish he hadn't planted doubts in Buffy's mind. I know it is bad of me but I just don't want Spike to get caught out 'cause that only leads to pain for both of them *sigh* Fabulous update,thank you! I really really enjoyed this. Will be waiting for more. :-) 05/22/2010 11:31 am Surrender i love buffy's last line...that was incredible...so very sweet and sexy...i feel apprehensive though, over the whole trust issue... *bites nails* more please :) oh now that was a lobely bite fans self She trusted him to bite her! And then she passed out! And they joked! Fabulous chapter, really like how close they’re becoming, the trust that’s between them. I just hope Spike either a) stops killing humans or b) confesses what he’s been doing before Buffy finds out. Just read this fic in one sitting... and what can I say... I LOVE it!! Buffy's confidence and trust returning slowly as her and Spike's relationship grows is lovely. I hope Spike stops killing before he destroys Buffy's trust when she discovers his deception. Fabulous job... I look forward to reading more haha.. lol trust her to say that lol great story.. i love it!!! very awesome chap!! I always love it when Buffy 'lets' Spike bite her and the part about trust was just fabulous. Can't wait to read more! just sue 02/19/2006 09:39 pm Surrender Wonderful chapter. Am assuming that Spike is still having hs Happy Meals on legs and that it will all come out at some time to explode in his face. Which is such a shame as, with or without intent, he's helped Buffy so much. Looking forward to more. Thanks ever so. Nikkole 02/19/2006 03:35 pm Surrender Very nice update. I don't think it is good for her to trust him just yet, but we will see what happens! Great update! I love how Buffy is finding herself again! I just hope that Spike doesn't screw it up! Lou 02/19/2006 03:07 pm Surrender There's hope for them if they can be honest. Cool chapter.  :)  I wonder when Spike is actually going to start *earning* the other part of trust that she has given him. brilliant! I'm all aflutter! akarinacj 02/19/2006 11:53 am Surrender Great Chapter. I´m still curious about Jeremiah...though.? And please, don´t let Buffy find out Spike is killing... if he still is, that is. Please update soon. Nemo 02/19/2006 11:09 am Surrender Bitey! Yum! I'm so glad that Buffy trusted him and that she's starting to work things out with Giles. Love the update, can't wait for more! I love this chp! She trusted him not to kill her and then when she woke up the worry that someone had died for the beauty of them was just funny. Excellent and cant' wait for more. vladt 02/19/2006 04:43 am Surrender wonderful chapter. ending was beautiful. thanks Oooooh! Sexy biting! Loven the read! cant wait for the next update. Cool :-) 05/22/2010 11:23 am Goodbye DoWnEr 04/09/2007 01:06 pm Goodbye Spike should have killed him. I don't care you who are you don't fucking tell another man your trying to fuck the girl he's just got out of bed with. For a second i thought you hated Spike by having him get his ass dumped in the mud. Was going to flame you big time for that. People always seem to put Spike's fighting skills down, even you did in the beggining of this story. Buffy some how "forgot" she'd be dead if it wasn't for her mother. Seriously... that asshole deserved to die. Hope he still does. His attitude is annoying and he just seems like an all around dick. yeah, a lot of good that decision does him if she catches him later...just an excuse, spike..*sigh*...great chapter though :) ohhh and the plot thickens... did i mention i really love J - sigh .... i like em a lot ... Fantastic chapter! I loved the confrontation between Spike and Jeremiah. Spike got so jealous! And Jeremiah is such a gentleman. *sigh* Lou 02/13/2006 03:19 pm Goodbye Oh-oh - this is going to go badly. Firi 02/11/2006 08:14 am Goodbye more please! Shanna 02/11/2006 04:42 am Goodbye Like the story and I wish you had more reviews!!! Nice story telling and original. I just hope that it doesn't get any darker and Spike comes to his senses before he loses the girl before he even gets her! I wish I had more reviews, too. heh. Well, I can't really say whether it'll get darker but it's definately not going to get any easier. Dee 02/11/2006 01:22 am Goodbye I like Jeramiah, although I still don't have him figured out. Friend or fough. You have left him very ambiguous. Great OC. Thank you, I find myself liking him too. I wanted a friendly OC that you couldn't quite work out what his motives were (if he has any) and that you sort of like, despite wanting Spike and Buffy together. Thanks for reading. part of me is like 'kick his ass for lying' and part of me is screaming 'don't tell her, she'll kick you ass'...sigh, i'm so conflicted! Oh, don't worry, that's how I am too. It's strange, cos you want Buffy to know but you also don't want Spike to get slayed. What a dilemma. Thanks for reading and reviewing. akarinacj 02/11/2006 01:08 am Goodbye I just read all the story up to now. I like it very much. It´s different from the others. With a scarred Buffy and a Spike that still kills. (Hopefully he´ll stop soon) I´m very curious of who this Jeremiah is... Please update soon. Thanks for reading and reviewing. I was kind of hoping to be a bit different :P I like the idea of an emotionally vulnerable Buffy and Spike who takes advantage of it...then starts to feel guilty. romero 02/10/2006 11:01 pm Goodbye I'm sorry to see Jeremiah go..I wish Buffy would wise up to Spike's ways. Nikkole 02/10/2006 10:01 pm Goodbye HMMMMM? I see some very possesive thoughts from Spike (yes, I know I am stating the obvious). He obviously feels more than he is letting on. I like where the story is turning and can't wait for more! I'm having a blonde moment. If I reread the whole story, will I find out who Jeremiah is in this fic? If not, I'll keep reading anyway. Jeremiah is kind of the ambiguous stranger. You can't really pin him down. aw, I like Jeramiah. Awesome chappie!! It was jeremiah! Phew! I was suspecting Angel or someone equally undesirable. That was good, and it made Spike jealous *lol* good sign! Love the update, and I'm looking forward to the next chapter. ~Nina Thanks for reading. Great chap and can't wait for more! Thankyou for reading and enjoying! :) just sue 02/10/2006 06:25 pm Goodbye Wonderful to see another delicious chapter. Will miss Jeremiah and am wondering if the missed opportunity for Spike to be honest will bite him in the bum later. Thanks ever so and looking forward to more. Spike's not gonna have an easy time, that's for sure. Glad you tookt he time to read it. ooohh...who's watching them..? i think she's gonna start really falling for him and then find out the truth, huh? :( great chapter though :) OMG who is watching... great chapter - loved the spice girls line - now must have more! He danced with her! *girlish squeal* This Spike is evil, and a lot of the time mean, but I love him to bits! And then the cliffhanger at the end, EVIL of YOU! I wonder who it is… Oh yeah! I can't wait to know who is watching them. More soon please. ohhhh, wonder who's watching...lol...bet it's angel, big dorky stalker guy Uh, oh. That can't be good! Lou 01/24/2006 04:13 am Dance Trouble with a big T is what's watching them - maybe with a large forehead? I'm glad that Buffy is getting better from her horrendous injuries. What is she going to with Spike and who is watching them? gaillee 01/24/2006 02:59 am Dance Wonderful update. Have to agree with CopyKween; the dialogue is one of my favorite things in this fic. Will be looking for updates. Thanks Dialogue is my favourite thing to write, actually. So glad you liked it. Spice girls.. *dies* You know what is really sad is that I have that song on my Ipod. Fantastic update!! That's not sad at all. The Spice Girls were a class act all the way. :P Aww! Scrummy update and I so loving it! Love seeing Buffy starting to get into life again - and seeing her POV was good. Would love to have another peek into Spike's thoughts and motivations right now - never can rummage in that guy's mind enough! And them being watched? Have several thoughts on that - probably wildly wrong - so will keep to self! LOL
Will be languishing in an unfulfilled manner until the next post. Thank you so much. You'll see more from Spike's POV soonish. Thanks for reading. Ohh....the plot thickens! Great update :) I love all of your witty Spike dialog! Thank you kindly. :) :-) 05/22/2010 11:14 am Reconciliation i feel all heart-warmy...love the reunion :) *giggles* I loved the reconcilation scene - very lovely! Double aww! The gang had a reunion of sorts! I’m so glad that Buffy made an effort. And that he friends didn’t ruin it. Great update - keep 'em coming :) :) :) !!! Cracking update. The reconciliation was handled very well and am loking forward to more - soon I hope. Thanks. Great! Love that they are trying to rebuild the friendship but I hope she doesn't let them push Spike away. aww! Buffy has her friends back! *big cheesy grin* So.. is spike gonna show up? Cos that would be fun. :P idk5743228 01/14/2006 09:56 am Reconciliation You just keep getting better and better with this story. I always smile when I see a new chapter up. Lilachigh 01/14/2006 08:35 am Reconciliation I like this story so much! :-) 05/22/2010 11:07 am Leap wow..they just crossed a line...how bad of spike...but really who could blame him? she would have staked him if he'd told her the truth...more now :) uh oh..... runs to next chapter cause all i can do is wonder what will happen Aww… Oz tried to visit her! That was, the whole conversation, was sweet. As for Spike, out right lying to Buffy like thatâ€â€he’s going to get himself into a lot of trouble. Love it as always! More as soon as you can please. Nikkole 01/10/2006 12:18 pm Leap Very interesting! Can't wait for ht enext update!! Great update :) SpaceLord 01/10/2006 08:30 am Leap obviously Spike's definition of the word "no" differs from the rest of the population :) Dee 01/10/2006 07:31 am Leap great chapter. spike is so lying, but at least buffy is able to make some progress in her life. Lou 01/10/2006 06:18 am Leap She's never going to trust him, is she? ComedyofErrors 01/10/2006 06:12 am Leap Very impressive. *applauds Oz*
I do hope Spike wakes up soon. idk5743228 01/10/2006 04:33 am Leap Was really good to see another chapter. This was a good one. I like the changes I'm seeing in Buffy. I'm looking forward to the next update. Still loving this fic. I get a squee-on when I see it updated. Can't wait for the next chappie! neo_trinityknot 01/10/2006 04:04 am Leap Always glad for another update. just sue 01/10/2006 03:45 am Leap Yikes. I'm left wondering which way you're gonna go with this - which is way cool. Thanks for the update and still looking forward very much to more. Classic. Thank you! :-) 05/22/2010 11:03 am Doubt uh-oh...*singsongs* Spike's in trouble!!! ...more now! :) OMG I love Jerimiah - he is just the best vamp - I keep giggling and picturing him. If spike is taken can i have J? ROFL! That chapter was just too amusing. I really like this Jeremiah guy! He’s great! And the stumbling finish for the chapter was hilarious. Keep up the good work. I reckon this Jeremiah sounds alright - there must be some evil plan in action... Great update! Nikkole 01/07/2006 01:32 am Doubt Ok, Jerimiah falling into the open grave? I was laughing HARD at that one, totally unexpected, good work! I really like this story, still, and can't wait for more! I hope you had a good holiday season! Just catching up after Christmas vacation. Wonderful updates! Who is this guy? More soon, please!
-Lisa I'm starting to think Jeremiah might atually be a better bet for Buffy than Spike in this fic - which only goes to show what a great job you're doing of building his character. Good job. sue 12/24/2005 07:58 pm Doubt Brills chappie. So happy that you've updated. I am so enjoying the fic and this bit with Jer in it was superb - nice to see your take on him not having abandoned church too - very novel. Wishing you all good things for Chrimbo. Looking forward to more - thanks ever so. romero 12/24/2005 09:03 am Doubt Jeremiah is a great character. I laughed at his and Buffy's interaction. I'm looking forward to Spikes thoughts of Buffy and Jeremiah. Richard 12/24/2005 07:33 am Doubt This was hilarious, and classic! I think I'll continue with my mental image of Jeremiah though. Yeah, good idea. After all - everyone has a different image of characters. idk5743228 12/24/2005 06:58 am Doubt Thank you for the gift. It was just what I wanted. Please allow me to give you a little something as well. I think your take on Spike and Buffy is just perfect. I also love your character Jeremiah. I would also like to know who you modeled him after. Although I don't believe that Spike will enjoy him that much. Happy Holidays to you. Thanks a lot, I'm liking Jeremiah too. He's really taken on a life of his own. I based his looks on an actor called Daniel Bess.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v495/JamesMFan/danielbess.jpg OMG, this was funny. I like Jeramiah. Who did you base his character on, looks wise? I need a good mental image. I'm glad you liked it. Looks wise I guess I kind of based him on this guy http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v495/JamesMFan/danielbess.jpg Daniel Bess. Excellent. :-) 05/22/2010 10:47 am Trust very hot chapter...i just keep thinking it's gonna happen like your typical romantic comedy and she'll find out he's lying at the worst possible moment and right when he was going to tell her the truth anyway...*sigh*...on to more :) lovely chapter as always! And another hot chapter. Great smut, but what was surprising was Spike’s internal monologue. He’s starting to care, whether he realizes it or not. Fabulous work! Wow...need a cigarette after that one...you should post a warning....lol...great update, can't hardly wait for the next one.... damn, girl that was great! wonderful chapter! ComedyofErrors 12/19/2005 01:28 am Trust Fine update. I like Spike's reluctance to give up killing. It's a large part of his persona. SpaceLord 12/18/2005 07:25 pm Trust Great chapter, this is a relly good story with a really nice plot twist with Buffy being the way she is. Makes it real fun to read. sue 12/18/2005 06:41 pm Trust Super update. Loving this fic and hoping for more soon. Thanks. Fantastic update. I liked seeing Spike feelings about how he's treating Buffy in this. At first I didn't like the bit when Spike killed the other girl, then I came to think that it was much more realistic that way, I'm sure it will lead to more angst. Will we see any more of Jer? I think he'll make another appearance. Nikkole 12/18/2005 02:59 pm Trust Oh yeah! Have SPike help her with the goopy stuff! I can see where that would lead to, heh!
Great update! Hope to see more form you soon! Ah,more Scars! Lovely update. Thanks for the update. We're lucky your computer troubles have given you a break. Could Buffy get Spike to put the goop on her that will help her scars? gaillee 12/18/2005 10:07 am Trust Great chapter! Keep up the good work. Glad the computer's up. Hope that means more soon. :-) 05/22/2010 10:01 am Friends oh wow....spike is gonna be in for it when buffy finds out...especially if she finds out before she cools down from this incident...loving this fic! read more later! :) giggles! yep not feeding at all *kicks body under the carpet* - I really am enjoying this story! GRRR! An intervention, that’s exactly what that was. I can’t believe Xander was stupid enough to try and force her to stay. I almost wish Buffy had socked him one! And then the end of the chapter, Spike draining that girl and dumping the body… I can’t say I’m surprised. But I am a little disappointed. gaillee 12/07/2005 12:16 am Friends I am really enjoying this story. Hope you can upodate very soon. idk5743228 12/03/2005 02:14 am Friends Wow, exciting chapter. Glad things are getting better on the computer front. The intervention felt just like old times in Sunnydale whenever Buffy didn't seem to be conforming in the image that the Scoobies felt she should. and I don't think that Spike is quite ready for the conforming either. So, what happens next? I just love Oz. Great chap and I'm sooo happy you have Word back! That means more chappies soon, right? *looks hopeful* oooh- Spike is still killing. Love this story for not taking the easy way out. Lou 12/02/2005 08:51 pm Friends Methinks Spike is pushing his luck a bit - but he then didn't seem suicidal... more please. Lou Richard 12/02/2005 03:28 pm Friends Spike killing that girl, you don't do anything the easy way, do you? :) Damned ambush. And why shouldn't she resent them? They were friends with the old Buffy but she doesn't exist anymore, and they're trying to impose obligations on her to be like she was. Bahhh. The girl gets disfigured and they still manage to be self-centered. Some friends! ~*~Tasha~*~ 12/02/2005 02:46 pm Friends I keep hoping that Spike will give Buffy a reason to believe him. Him just draining every last drop out of that girl is going to do nothing to help his case. {sighs} Glad your computer is fixed. Taylormaid 12/02/2005 02:19 pm Friends I'm still loving this fic! Although right now they ALL need a slap upside the head! Can't wait to see how you proceed! Great confrontation with her friends and Spike is still killing! Can't wait to see what is to come. Nikkole 12/02/2005 12:01 pm Friends Poor Buffy, and Poor scoobies, and damn Spike! I know it will all work out in the end, but the middle is so fun to read! Great update! I was really hoping to see Spike as a blood whore!! LOL! Keep up the good work!
ComedyofErrors 12/02/2005 10:09 am Friends Going strong, as always. wow great update....running in circles not sure who to feel more sorry for....lol Poor Buffy. Glad to see an update. Looking forward to the next one.
-Lisa I see Spike hasn't changed and neither has Buffy. Can it really be only Spike making all the new bodies? SpaceLord 12/02/2005 08:22 am Friends I guess Spike just found a way to get rid of the bodies instead of actually stopping his killing :) Those damn scoobies and their interventions...at least buffy had the balls to stand up to them and tell them how it was...instead of letting them do what they always did on the show...love this fic, and yes, I voted for you at the VKA! Good luck--you deserve to win... Sweet. :-) 05/22/2010 09:55 am Deal go girl!!! i love buffy in this chapter, getting her moxie back!! :) great chatper *giggles* Spike as a vamp whore.... pulls out my wallet... now which direction did he go in? Wow. I can’t believe Buffy is actually open to the possibility that Spike has ‘shades of gray’. He’s so… needy, yet not in a pathetic way. Fabulous chapter. Lou 11/23/2005 05:00 am Deal Great job with Buffy's resurfacing Buffiness! Love Badass Spike! Fran 11/23/2005 01:14 am Deal I don't believe it. In the span of 19 chapters you had Spike going from pure evil to willing to quit killing for a kiss. And it was plausible. You rock. You really have a way with visuals too. I am really enjoying this story. *thumbs up* hee thanks! That put a smile on my face. I thought you were going to be like "This is impossible! Die!" but you weren't so thank you! Guh, how I love this story...Buffy now with shades of gray, and Spike willing to ho himself out for Buffylove...loners, misfits, wanting and needing so much and can't put their fingers on what...I'm sorry for your continued and endless struggles with notepad, but can I just wish most heartily for more story? and hope that the puter gets fixed like, really, really quick? They're so tortured and angsty aren't they? The freaks. Thanks for reading. Dee 11/21/2005 04:50 am Deal I stopped reading this story twice after only 3 chapters because it was a little hard to take and kind of graphic with the burn situation. But, then I told myself to stop being a wuss and give it another try. I am glad I did. This story is very interesting. I love Big Bad Spike way better than that other guy!
Looking forward to the rest of the story. I'm glad you conquered your inner wuss! I try to add a sense of realism to these things and not just try to shock. Although I do love to shock too. Thanks for reading! Nikkole 11/20/2005 11:37 pm Deal I am really enjoying this story. this newest chapter was very good! I am also having a hard time seeing Spike working for blood, but maybe Buffy will start getting jealous of the other humans getting his bite? Or she might just start showing up herself! Who knows! Hope you get your computer fixed soon!
Can Spike be trusted in the first place, though? We shall see. Am I an evil person to say I actually like Jeremiah more right now? lol
I'm loving the ironic tone of this fic, along with the twisted pain :) Not evil at all, I like him more right now too! heh. idk5743228 11/20/2005 11:25 am Deal I love that you are soldiering on, even with computer issues. Excellent chapter. I don't really see Spike in a vamp whorehouse selling his big bite (so to speak) But I'm sure one does what one must. Hope your computer is up and running soon. I'll wait semi-patiently for another great chapter :) I do what I can :) love your badass spike! Thank you for bringing us another chapter. So very much looking forward to more!! Thankyou! I'll continue to write like someone on drugs, then! sue 11/19/2005 04:35 pm Deal Loved the latest chappie, although the thought of Spike working in the whore house is not too nice. Looking forward to the next chappie and more of this fascinating fic. Thanks. Spike's a big ho'! heh. I wonder if he'll even get that far...
Thanks for reading! This story just keeps getting better. Who is Jeremiah? Are we going to find some civilized vamps? I hope you get a new computer or fix the old one so we can have lots more new chapters. I hope my computer fixes itself, too. Jeremiah will probably be back soon enough. ComedyofErrors 11/19/2005 09:06 am Deal I love how much more 'Buffy' Buffy is in this chapter. And the repartee with Spike is great. Wonderful deal. That's the effect I was going for. The Slayer is back in town. So to speak. Thanks for reading! SpaceLord 11/19/2005 07:47 am Deal This is a very interesting story and I can't wait to read the next chapter. Thank you. I can't wait to have the next chapter done. ~*~Tasha~*~ 11/19/2005 07:37 am Deal Hmmm ... kiss him when he's earned it ... Buffy is really starting to get more of her snark and spine back. Look forward to what you have on tap for us next. Snarky Buffy is our friend. Yeah, she's back! Or is she? mwhaha! ahem. Cool. :-) 05/22/2010 09:38 am Stranger hmmmm...this new character is very intriguing...love the twist, can't wait to see where it goes :) Ohh I really enjoyed Jerimah - he was such a great character - hehe and another vampire goes free. Oh well - the council can send help if they care that much about the rise in activity! Oooh! I liked Jeremiah! Very interesting convo they had going. Great chapter. Nikkole 11/19/2005 05:36 am Stranger I was so happy to see that you had updated! It wasx a very good update. I am curious to see how she will react to him, and he to her, when she gets to the cinema. Very nice conversation between Jeremia and Buffy. I wonder if we will be seeing him again, or if this was a one time thing. Keep the updates coming! ComedyofErrors 11/17/2005 12:06 am Stranger Great moment between Jeremiah and Buffy. Very funny and enlightening. Who knows I may start shipping Jeremiah/Buffy! Jeruffy! Or add a bit of Spike in there to make it Jerspuffy! Mmm OT3. ~*~Tasha~*~ 11/16/2005 10:43 am Stranger Enjoyed the update. Glad to see one. I look forward to reading more. Interesting twist with Jeremiah. You will see more! Hopefully soonish. I'm so glad you found a way to update this wonderful story. I've been enjoying it and wondering where it went. I hope you find a way to keep it going soon. (Boy, that's a lot of "me,me, me" for a review of your wonderful fic. LOL) sorry! hehe, that's quite alright. Thanks for reading and taking the time to review. Glad you're liking it. Guh, I love this story...who is this Jeremiah character? some unknown player-yet-to-be-named? Simply adore that shades of gray comment...you know how to write em...keep those chappies coming, if you can.... Well, he'll probably be popping up in the story again, that's all I can say. Another update a lot sooner than this one, probably. Thanks for reading and reviewing. Oh now I love this twist!! I like your Jeremiah! Can't wait to read the next chap. sorry about teh evilness that is your computer!! Thanks, I like him too :P Yeah, my computer sucks but I'll find ways to defeat it's evilness! Hopefully, have another update soon. idk5743228 11/15/2005 12:09 am Stranger Glad you're back. Hope the evil computer kinks get worked out. Great update. So what part will Jeremiah be playing in this story? Sounding board for Buffy, I'm pretty sure that Spike won't be taking to kindly to him. He'll probably be back in some form or other, for what purpose? I can't possibily say :) And Spike deserves to be a little bit jealous in this story, I think. ChrissieLinnit 11/14/2005 07:59 pm Stranger I've missed this story. Glad you've found a way to update.
Another great chapter, and one with a difference. This time Buffy gets to question the black and white view she has of good and evil through interaction with a being other than one she's in love/lust with. Interesting. Yeah, I think it's important that she be aware of the fact that "demon" doesn't necessarily mean "utter evil". I mean, just look at Clem! Richard 11/14/2005 05:26 pm Stranger Oh man, this is sweet. It's a very funny situation too. I like it very much. Glad you like it :) Taylormaid 11/14/2005 05:14 pm Stranger Really interesting and different story. I'm totally hooked. Can't wait for more! I'm glad you think it's different, I don't like to be "samey" heh. Keep reading! Awesome update! This Jeremiah bloke sounds kinda interesting. Hope you're computer problems get squared away soon, so we can see more of this story.
-Lisa Glad you liked, you'll probably be seeing a little more of him. Not in a naked way though. Probably. sue 11/14/2005 03:49 pm Stranger A very interesting development. Hoping for more soon. Thanks. Definately more soon. Cheers for reading! msberry 11/14/2005 02:03 pm Stranger Jeremiah...hmm...bet Marster's scalp would have appreciated them going that direction ;>> Seriously, I think this story is a very neat, different take on Spuffy and I eagerly look forward to updates! hehe but he wouldn't be the same without the bleached locks! Thanks for reviewing :) i feel bad for her friends, sort of...she's been shutting them out when she needs them most, but that's not their fault...great chapter :) nice update! am enjoying! God dammit Buffy, your friends care about you! I like that Xander tried. And so did Joyce. But Buffy wouldn’t have a bar of it. I wonder if and when the gang will find out about Spike, and if they’ll still have their meeting even without the slayer. ~*~Tasha~*~ 11/09/2005 03:26 am Different Look forward to seeing where you go with this next. Deb 10/28/2005 11:37 am Different Interesting twist on Buffyverse. Am impressed with the excellent characterization of unchipped Spike. Buffy really is in a dark space within the fic. Hope seems a very fragile for her. I'm rooting for her to overcome her pain. Great heat generated between the two when they get together. Impressive fic...also appreciate the warnings at the sections that are particularly tough (I'm skipping a little through those). Looking forward to additional updates. Yeah, she's having a hard time of it and that really appeals to me! heh. From a writing standpoint only, of course. I will continue to warn if the chapters get nastier :P I hope it hasn't been Spike being a naughty boy, but it will be and poor Buffy, whatever will she do??? :) bummer about your computer, I hope it all works out soon! :)
Lou 10/21/2005 08:01 pm Different I'm really enjoying this - I like how Buffy is starting to question herself. I look forward to more. ComedyofErrors 10/21/2005 07:22 am Different Fascinating look inside Buffy's head. I'm enjoy her conversations with Spike, so I can't wait for next chapter. Very good filler if you ask me. Its going to be so hard waiting for the next chap because I love this fic so much but completely understand the computer problems. I hope it gets fixed soon. for filler, that was a good chappie...hope the computer gets fixed soon, so we can read more of this awesome fic...thanks! SpaceLord 10/21/2005 06:36 am Different Hope u get your comp working soon, cause I really like this story so far. It's a nice twist to the Buffyverse without being totally AU. :-) 05/22/2010 09:30 am Talk i love the tension between these two, the fact that they're not all loverly with each other...great chapter :) *evil grin* great chapter - here spike is being funny and Buffy is just like I will kill you. Kinda spoils the after sex cuddles! Spike’s light-hearted banter/taunting was great. It was very in-character for him to go all with the relationship talk! Very nicely done. ~*~Tasha~*~ 10/11/2005 10:35 am Talk Definitely one twisted story. Very dark. Well written though. I don't read this one always as soon as you have an update (at SR or here) because I need to be in a certain frame of mind to handle certain subjects. I am interested in seeing where you go next with this one. This is the third time one of my reviews has taken some ecstasy... I don't know. Anyway...
“You can't just screw a guy, then threaten to kill him, break up with him, and then steal his clothes.
That has to be my all time favourite line ever! I love this chapter! He's so nasty, yet sweet. I think that Spike's ability to be nice while being bad is one his best attributes ;) I can't even pick out the paragraphs I like best cause this whole chapter was sooooo good. More please!!! Wonderfully dark and twisted...keep going, please :) LOL, poor spike all slayer whipped You can?t just screw a guy, then threaten to kill him, break up with him, and then steal his clothes. Slaymesoftly 10/06/2005 12:23 pm Talk Just stayed up waaay too late catching up with this story. I love it! Reminding us that Spike was still an evil vampire when he cameback to Sunnydale - even if he is harboring feelings he doesn't want to admit for the Slayer, it hasn't changed his basic nature. And excellent job of portraying an unfeeling, uncaring Buffy years before the events of the show made her so.Will be anxiously watching for an update. wow...my stomach just flipped over at that last line...come on, Buffy...*whining*....lol great chapter ;) She is going to kill him after that? I got twenty that says she can't do it. *evil grin* They did it! *squeals!* This was a fabulous chapter and I am SOOO glad now that I started reading this late so that there’s more chapters for me to read. jane 10/16/2005 06:36 am Need Absolutey fantastic I love it. wow...that was easier than i expected, actually...lol..love the interaction between these two, a lovely chapter :) ohhh nice choice - I love this scene! Hot, hot, HOT! *runs to next chapter* I just love the way you write dialogue. It is so sharp and snappy! oh he's so gone...he just doesn't know it yet...same goes for her... :) great chapter :) and the plot thickens... lovely! is it bad that now I keep seeing scenes from Secretary. giggles I kieep seeing this happening in my head and it is so fascinating! I was wondering if they’d tried magic, it’s a shame it didn’t work at all. And WOW was Spike bold in this chapter! Appearing in her room, basically undressing her, massaging the gel into her skin and then showing her just how touching her affected him… just awesome. Great chapter. we'll see...she doesn't really remember him saving her...hmm...again, this should be incredibly good :) great chapter- I am really enjoying the twists and turns of this story. I love how Spike is fighting his attraction to buffy and how buffy thinks he is just being cruel. Buffy’s frustration is totally understandable, I think I’d probably react the same way she did if I were in her position. :-) 05/22/2010 08:55 am Touch she's gonna be forced to see things a bit differently in the morning...this story is so great...fascinating..on to more now :) Wow very powerful! I can't believe that spike just saved the slayer - I wonder how he will try to Convince him self that he hasn't gone soft on this one! Oh no she didn’t! I can’t believe it. Well, I can, but still with the shock having here! Buffy tried to take her life. And Spike SAVED her! I’m alternating between fish like gaping and little squees. Wonderful chapter. :-) 05/22/2010 08:39 am Clash well things just got a heck of a lot more interesting!! love this..this story is so perfect...can't wait to see what happens next :) ohhh - nice kiss! I can;t wait to see his reaction to that! Great update! Another trap. *sighs* Buffy’s right, Spike’s all with the lazy and getting his minions to do the dirty work for him. I really liked that you didn’t have Buffy be all super-girl and fight them off without getting injured at all. It was very believable. well this is building up to quite the confrontation..can't wait to see what happens next ;) poor spike is all confused! I love it! I can;t wait to see how there next encounter goes! Oh wow, I almost feel sorry for that minion! The flashback was beautifully written. The sympathy I felt for Buffy before is nothing compared to what I feel now. It’s not fair. Thanks. :-) 05/22/2010 08:25 am Escape They say you have to hit bottom before you can come back up, and poor Buffy certainly did in this chapter. This was so heartbreaking! (I'm glad to know that it effected Spike so deeply; now I have hope he will help her!) yep...i knew once she got away she was gonna get fightin' mad...can't wait to see what happens next :) great emotion from Buffy - this is a really good story! Okay, gross! Poor thing, being drenched in sewage. *shudders* Nice chapter. wow..that was intense..i wonder what's going to happen next...i doubt buffy's going to be willing to let that little incident go...great chapter, on to more :) wow! intense reaction from Spike! How wonderful to see his feelings portrayed and the depth of feeling and anger that Buffy was feeling! Oh wow. That was a powerful, intense chapter. Spike’s shock and disappointment was beautifully described. i wonder what his reaction's going to be...poor buffy, but the way you're writing her is amazing, so strong and brave...excellent chapter...on to more :) How cruel - not that spike knows that he is being cruel of why buffy cares so much - but still. poor buffy she is so self - consious. Wonder what his reaction will be? Evil Spike, he’s not going to let her off, is he? Very nice chapter. oh wow...this could be bad...i dont think things are gonna turn out quite how spike thinks, though :) great chapter :) Ohhh me likey - what an excellant and evil Spike. He is so commanding I love it! hehe I can not wait to see his reaction to Buffy's scars once he sees them! OMG… my earlier mention that Spike was cruel was an understatement! I can’t belive… gah! Speechless! Cool. :-) 05/22/2010 08:07 am Encounter Col 05/22/2010 08:06 am Encounter Spike lied! I should have seen that coming, but I guess I'm so used to the sweet, "good" Spike of seasons 5-7 that I forgot how truly evil he used to be. You did a great job writing this scene! great job with this chapter, very true to the characterizations of the show, very spike-like ambush...lol...made me grin in spite of being scared and aghast...kind of like my reaction to most of spike's season 2 behavior :) great chapter, on to more now :) oh no! Poor Buffy! Spike has captured her - it will be intriguing to see what he does with her. very intresting story - I am enjoying it! Evil double crossing Spike at his best. You really encapsulated why you’ve gotta love and hate the vampire at the same time. His taunts were cruel but I wasn’t expecting anything less. Nice chapter. Ohhhh bnasty Spike I love it :P Poor Buffy. My heart aches for her. Yet I am also so impressed-- Despite the pain, she still goes out and slays, not giving her back time to heal as the doctor said to do because she doesn't want anyone to die if she takes time off. She may feel indifferent to her friends, but she isn't indifferent to her "duty". Very noble. this is heartbreaking....so sad...poor buffy...i wish there was a way to make her better... :( good chapter, though :) poor buffy - what a lot for any girl to deal with - but buffy is the chosen one - she feels even more helpless - I feel so sorry for her! This is heartbreaking! Buffy is so shattered by what has happened to her and has literally become a shell of the person she once was. Three chapters and I’m hooked. angsty, yumm I love how you mentioned that the four vamps all attacked at once--not like in the movies where they waited and came one at a time to be easily defeated. *rolls eyes* Yup, that always seemed too dumb for words, but the script writers did dit anyway. I begin to see that your title "Scars" is referring more to the emotional scars Buffy carries than the physical ones. Hopefully Dr. Spike has the cure for her! this reunion should be interesting...you make me feel buffys' pain and indifference and bitterness so well...beautifully written...on to more now ;) really intriguing chapter two - can';t wait to see where you take this story! Nice follow up to the intro. This Buffy is hard and cold, very different to the one we know. I look forward to watching this fic unravel! ohhhhh, the plot thickens :-) 05/22/2010 06:09 am Broken Wow, what a powerful, emotional beginning. And you are right to warn us that this is a dark story; I can't wait to see where you are taking this plot! wow...how horrible for poor buffy...yet you've drawn me into the drama and the pain and angst...need to read more now :) poor Buffy - what a sad beginning for her. I keep having visions of the craft and the back surgery there. What a horrible fate for te sun worshiping girl Buffy was! OMG, I had tears in my eyes! I can’t believe I’ve only just got around to reading this fic now! The description from Xander’s point of view was a fantastic opener and really set the scene well. The ordeal Buffy went through at the hospital was horrible. I’m hoping more about why she isn’t healing despite her Slayer-powers is explained in further chapters. I just read this from the start again. Fantastic story. And who is Jeremiah? I have lots of questions, please update soon! :) I just have to say how much I love this story! Very well written, and it has a great premise. This fic may be angsty and dark, but the story has me intrigued. Buffy's insecurities and the whole story with how she sustained her burns is just heartwrenching, and the characterization of your 'big bad', pre-soul, unchipped Spike is spot on. (Oh, and did I mention the smut is HOT?!) Anyway, I'm done gushing now. Great job, and can't wait to read more! Thanks!! I've never really written an "evil" Spike before, so I was somewhat nervous of going too far in either direction, there - making him too evil or too good. Buffy being insecure about her body, and it affecting her whole demeanor has been something I've wanted to write for a while now, and the smut had to follow of course :) excellent beginning More!! *whines* What? I can do that because I KNOW you have it! :P lynp 09/28/2005 12:03 pm Broken Looking forward to more of this story Kittenuno 09/26/2005 10:46 pm Broken An amazing and great start. I have so many questions? What happened to the Incinerato Demon in the first chapter? What has happened to the scooby gang? Where is Giles? Will they make an appearance in later chapters. So many questions...need answers! MarzBar 09/25/2005 02:59 am Broken OW!! What a miserable existence for the Slayer. I've had 3rd degree burns and still have scars and will never forget. I hope some angel (not Angelus) will come along and help her heal. More please. Dreylin 09/25/2005 02:14 am Broken Nice start. I like the flow, and Buffy's POV is well done. I'm curious to see where you take this. | |||
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