Very well written!  I rarely like POV fics but this was an exception.  And your ending was perfect.  Lots of healing to be done.

 

I loved this story. Once I adjusted to the POV and present tense (it's unusual!), I found that this is the Buffy I like to read about; specially touching in the phone call with Dawn, when she explains how evil does not sit well with the good guys, because up to that point I was really not sure that she was so determined not to kill him! Great voices, catching plot and a very strong tension to the very end.

Hated & loved the ending; loved b/c it fits; obv Spike is gonna need some space to work through what's happened; hated 'cause I'm a sappy romantic who always want B & S to wind up together; any chance of a sequel?? Amazing story; thought you had the voices of all the characters down pat; can't wait to read more of your work.

Don't usually like POV stories. Actually, if this wasn't by you then I probably wouldn't have even bothered to read it but your stuff is usually good so ....
But I liked this, liked it a lot. Can't believe I'm even saying that because this is everything I don't like in a story but I loved it!
Great writing.
More from you soon please.

very good read, thank you. loved the line, "My compass is broken."

I really enjoyed this story... looking forward to another update. My only problem was trying to understand what exactly what going on.. a few parts of the story where Spike talked about something inside of him - the soul - made it sound as though whatever Drusilla did "repressed" the soul... which confused me a bit because it wasn't just the soul that loved Buffy or made Spike the character he became.. he only got the soul *because* he already loved Buffy so I'm slightly confused as to what exactly Dru did to him with the magick and all. lol

other than that I loved the story though.

Good job.

awwww...i knew there had to be some reason why he was acting like that, some way she was controlling him...you wrote the action and emotion of this scene beautifully...i love it :) can't wait to see more, love :)

What a ride! I love that you brought Spike back ... into Drusilla's arms. It's a perfectly plausible scenario that I haven't seen before. And your Buffy is very different - mature, thoughtful, aware. But not so much of any of those things that it seems OOC. Part of me hates seeing souled Spike hurting Dawn - but it is what we have to consider, right? If he could do good without a soul, he could be evil with one ... anyhow, well written and so, so, so interesting! Thanks for sharing it.

amazing plotting & characterization. will we have more once he finds his bearings?

That was excellently scary, good action,very creepy and way, way too short. Hope will hear more from you soon.

beautiful.

Heartwrenching!

 

I love the connection b/n D & B; always thought the show handled it soooo poorly; you're doing a much better job!!

No no evil writer. Don't let him get Dawn.

so what is his deal??? i'm so fascinated by this story, the concept of spike being bad even with the soul, even if he's not inherently a bad person, is one that's not often explored...in fact, can't say that I've *ever* seen it explored before...this story is incredible and i can't wait to read more :)

Ack! What a terrible stopping point! I really love the premise of the story and look forward to seeing where you take it.

buffy should have known dawn won't listen. will she this time? very good read, thank you.

Seems to me that Spike's the one with a death wish this time. Poor Spike, wonder what he and Dru are up to. Buffy 'n' Dawn'll fix it ;)

That was amazing. You have me on the edge of my seat, waiting for an update.
Well done - good portrayal of the characters.

Oh, no! The things that are happening to Spike...

What a mystery, couldn't stop reading since the first chapter. Well done. ^_^

Definitely sounds as if a number has been done.  Poor Spike...

 

oooh, now I'm scared that it's not Drusilla's fault he's like this... you evil, evil writer! Getting me on the edge of my seat like this!

Great stuff - this is raw Spike - I love him.

OH!
MORE! Gotta know what is going on!!!

Ouch! This is hurting me almost as much as it's hurting Buffy. Well done.

oh. my.

Something is DEFINITELY wrong...

*is in eager anticipation of next chapter*

very good read, thank you. if spike is so happy, why does he wished to be staked?

There has to be a conspiracy here and Spike is hiding something.. Common, kick the Spike all over again? Really tired of that game, but that's BTVS hall of fame game anyway.. please make it better.. thanks!

wow!! awesome chapter....and it seems as if spike *wants* her to kill him...can't wait to see the explanation for whats happening... :)

Oooh, impressive and promising!  Love the build up to a very apt title.

 

So I just found this story, and I'm enthralled; amazing start; and gotta say, I'm with Buffy; can't believe in a world where SPike doesn't love her. Moving on to the 2nd chapter now, and hope it's as good as the first!

I like the story line in the chapters that you have put up, but I really am not feeling the way its written in first person.

excellent story penny. At first I wasnt quite sure about the present tense, but once Dawn, then Buffy started talking it worked out very nicely. I'll be very interested to see what you do with wicked no soul no chip Spike.

My heart breaks for Buffy. Kind of like Angelus all over again isn't it? She already lost Spike, to maybe have to kill him with her owns hands this time ... I think, after that, I'd just give up on love altogether. o_O

Sorry, I don't buy Dawn still caring about Spike anywhere near as much as Buffy does. Their friendship pretty much went by the wayside as soon as Buffy came back from the dead--the death knell being when she found out about the rape attempt.

Oh and Drusilla's eyes are blue not brown.

Nitpicks aside, I'm very much liking this fic. Turning out to be darker than your average Spuffy fic. Good stuff.

Welcome to BSV. This looks like a very good fic. I like for Buffy doing the chasing and groveling for a change, this should be fun. Hope you can update regularly, thanks.

fascinating starting point. thanks for the very good read.

Poor Buffy. Lately i have been sympathizing with Buffy a lot. I know that in the tv episodes she is a "super bit#@" to Spike. I still think she is using Spike toward the end to accomplish her mission, that's low.. Anyway, what happened to Spike? Why running to Dru? Brainwashed? Dru is definitely a whore to Angelus and other demons, why bother? Anyway keep going.

oh man...i think the breath got sucked right out of me right along with buffy, at the shocking reaction he had to seeing her again...what's the matter with him??? im so scared for both of them, you've really managed to evoke a mood with this, and i'm looking forward to reading more :)

very unique & intriguing storyline! Tho, i'm having a bit of a difficulty understanding how buffy could just keep her cool like that. He just treated her like shit, ripped a rug out from under her and threw it all in her face, WHILE parading Dru around. And she says, 'see you later?'

Either I missing something, or she very obviously has never had ANY type of friendly feelings towards him at all and really did lie when saying sha loved him. So then, if thats the case, why find him? Simply to kill him?

Very interested in reading more! ;)

One chapter, and I'm hooked already. Unique plot and good writing? This one's for me. Eagerly awaiting more.

Don't see a lot of first person narratives these days, but you've got it down pat. This is a good plot, because Spike isn't just his old evil self with amnesia, he remembers loving Buffy, and that makes it so much more heartbreaking. Looking forward to more!