Now we've moved on to avoidy denial mixed with a dash of guilt! She's scared to feel things she's convinced herself she doesn't feel. She even acknowledged that it would've been better to just let him all the way in those years ago rather than continue the way they did.

tickle of mistrust of Willow - oh yeah. How did any of them ever trust her again. Excellent chapter - I like the back and forth between Spike doing things he used to do, but being different as well. Very interesting.

Why is it Buffy seems to see her friends so clearly, and yet when it comes to Spike she's always got blinders on?? Crap, that girl frustrates me!!! ARGH! So obviously, good story! Good job! LOL! Please more!