I know it has already been done, but I still have to say that Xander has killed people. He called Sweet. He didn't know what would happen, but when people started dying he stayed silent. All he had to do was 'fess up and they could have ended it. More people died because he was embarrassed and he only came clean when it became obvious that he would be found out.  I've always been a little disappointed that this was never addressed on the show.

I'm compelled to point out Xander was responsible for (several) deaths even though it was by proxy.

To be honest... I was hoping both males would show more maturity and benevolence.

Personally, I've always disliked the shows having Xander see everything in black and white when it proved convenient. (Remember how indignant he was when Buffy/slayer went after Anya for having a whole roomful of young men killed. There are too many such incidents to ignore.)

At least with Giles the lost of Jenny and being tortured by Angelus gives some credence to his issues with Vampires.

Hopefully, one or both of 'em will see the light and be a better "white hat" for it... But, I'm not holding my breath.

Please keep up he fine work. Ta!

I really like this vulnerable Buffy! You can tell she really loves Spike and probably did mean it when she said it in the Hellmouth. But his death and failure to tell her he was back made her close it off as if it never existed, much like Willow's earlier thoughts about Buffy keeping her feelings close. Now that she's let it out again she's afraid she'll end up hurt and alone yet again! Hope the returned memories aren't too far off.

Great Story - very much have enjoyed everything about it thus far - eagerly await the next update -

Fabulous conversation - and their fragile happiness. Gripping.

Distance is wonderful, dear Miz Herself. I am glad to be getting announcements of new chapters as they appear. I do have gifts, patience not being anywhere near the top half of the list, so this is both delighting and frustrating me to devour this story slowly and savor each word. I'm afraid for Buffy, that she's going to be lost again after being so close to heaven on earth--I'm afraid for Spike/William, becos I do not want to see him endure any more pain (sound like my mother lol). He really is a gentle soul in so many ways, he is, at his core, so beautifully lonely and longing for human touch, in both his life and unlife. I'm thinking you love him too and will bring him and Buffy, through this story, exactly where they need to be. I see your story through the beloveds' voices and you have them spot on, even Willow whose cadence is difficult to suss. I can see the moonlight on William's skin, hear it (the "longing for the night sky"--James Marsters did that a lot in the show)in William's voice. The coupling you write about causes my head to reek with all the heavy, liquid, potent sex smells--all through their voices. Buffy is so conflicted on a good day, it's kind of you to give her some relief, kind of you to provide her an opportunity to stand up for herself as well as Spike/William, to finally say most of what needs to be said. I didn't almost read this becos she was being so frozen in the beginning--I almost couldn't bear the idea that she would be so hard hearted to him, didn't realize she was as close to death as he was. Thank you, Miz Herself, thank you (hurry hurry hurry please--oh, I apologise I know you have a life and want to do other things--consider me a persistant 4 year old)I'll keep reading whatever you're willing to share becos it's all good!

I can feel her anxiety at his regaining his memory ( if this is truly what's wrong with him)It almost comes right off the screen at you.
I Looooved how Buffy stood up to Giles and Xander,whose personalities you got down pat, couldn't stand them on the show , like them even less in this fic , morons. I;ll be looking for an update everyday in hopes that there is one.
By the way r u still in "The village"? . I lived in Brooklyn Heights for 31 years, now i'm in Staten Island"Yuck"

If she was good to him every hour of every day from now on, maybe this delicate new happiness knitting itself around them like a shell, would remain intact. Never be broken

Oh, the longing, and the fear in that sentence. You've utterly captivated me with this story; please, please another update soon???

Both afraid the other will change...when he remembers. And that the happiness will disappear.

So what will be the trigger ?

Enjoying..