My name is Amy Brock. I remember years ago when I waited avidly every Tuesday evening for Buffy to come on.  My first crush was on Xander, and that one never went away fully. The next crush was on Angel, which is understandable. I still think he was relatively good looking. He's just looks so old these days. I sort of grew out of the fangirl crush though when Spike came on the scene in Season 2. Spike is perfect! I'm still in love with Spike to this day.