So - I've recced this series twice recently, and had to do a reread of his last one just to satsfy an itch. Still loved it, the perfect mix of angst and bliss, with the only logical ending it could have.  Not usually a fan of non-slayer Buffy, but your wonderful Spike saves it completely and Buffy is still very Buffy.

Was trying to remember your name so I could rec this series on EF, but failed at everything excpet "Meet the Pratts" which I quickly looked up on the BSV. And now have spent a good bit of what should be a very busy and productive day rereading the entire series.  And I still think it is amazing.

The whole series was great!

This story is very moving.  I've been reading Spuffy for a few years now, but have never discovered this gem.  Thanks so much for sharing.  Read all in one sitting. 

Some of it was hard, very hard, for me to read.  But spot on in its accuracy of grief over the loss of a child.  I lost my son 9 months ago, and it doesn't get any easier.  Luckily for me, I have a wonderful partner, and we are learning to deal with it minute by minute together.

 Wow.  These stories are absolutely beautiful.  You've done a fabulous job.

xoef

i found this series amazing. im a little sad that it had to end but great work.

i have read all three in one evening rather than doing my work, and love it all  i've never read anything like, all in this series are amazing.
thank you for it.

Ahh. I hate you for making me cry so much! :(

Wonderful alternate universe. You captured the characters for this alternate universe perfectly. How you eventually brought each character in despite of the different circumstances... brilliant. Your Spike especially was very well done. Delicously evil, yet still likable.

After reading the entire series, I can see that you are very talented, and there isn't any constructive criticism that I can give that won't come with time and experience. Brilliant. Well Done!

Wow.. it's 5am and i finally finished this entire series and i've never felt so sad and lonely before except when i had to go to my childhood friends funeral when i was 16. Don't know if that's a good thing or bad. For you it's probably good, knowing you've reached your reader at such an emotional and personal level.

I kind of wish i didn't read this last part because i don't want to go to sleep all depressed and lonely. I hate you and love you at the same time for this beautiful work of fiction. Hope you continue to write more but maybe a little less depressing.

ftfchris@hotmail.com

Wow. Just wow. I could talk for the day but it wouldn't do it justice.....

Really glad you brought us along for the trip.  Very interesting and unique story.

Buffy is gone and maybe all the good in me is gone.

The truce and the love lasted decades.  It was a wonderful saga of acceptance and caring. 

When Buffy dies, Spike feels free to retun to his true nature of demonhood.  It is a fitting end to this unusual tale of love.

I just found and read the whole series, Loved it too! Great portrayals.

Well, one of best fics I´ve ever read :) All 3, though it´s sad and I kind of hoped that he will turn her. And I have to say, I love the end.
“Hi,” she says. “Mind if I join you?”
I smile hungrily. "Please do."

Ever thought about some Spike stories about his un-life without Buffy? :)

I'm not much of a reviewer, but I wanted to let you know that I really enjoyed this series. I read it all straight through...and its almost 6am now! LOL Thank you for sharing!

Bravo! i commented on the last portion of this fic and the final installment is no less amazing! great job!

Gave me chills, you did! I loved every minute of this series.

Perfect. I loved it.

I'm sorry it had to end too. :)I have really enjoyed this series. I love that you did something so unique. It was a really moving romance while never bowing to any conventions and I was also thrilled that Spike was still Spike despite the story taking place in such a different verse. Thanks for sharing this with us.

Well, I loved it! I found it awesomely romantic that he stayed with her through her life and for the most part, didn't kill people. Hah. Most writers avoid the age issue and I found it refreshing that you embraced the obvious problems to be found in the human/vampire relationship. And while yes, this story is weird in that it is fabulously unique in tone, there is a reality that you have here that you embrace much better than the Buffyverse fandom really does. It's strangely believable, both emotionally and situationally. Particularly the end - the last line was exactly right. I smiled. Soooo...what's next?
~scar

I just read this series from beginning to end, and though your writing style is a bit different I throughly enjoyed each story. I almost was not going to continue on with the third part as I detest a first person perspective, but you did a wonderful job of keeping it interesting.

You could have ended it with Meet The Pratt's and it would have been a great fic. But I'm glad you continued on with it. I was surprised by the fact that I cried in the end. I didn't think it would happen but the obit and his recounting of their last moments got to me.

The beauty of it is that you took me immediately from tears to a smile on my face with the last line. *I smile hungrily. "Please do."* What a brilliant way to end it. Well done!

I love the way this ended. The trade paper obituary was oddly appropriate for the circumstance.

I've thoroughly enjoyed the ride! Thanks for the excellent story! And also, thanks for leaving Spike his bloodthirsty side. ;)

I know I've slacked in the reviewing of the last couple of chapters, but rest assured I have read and loved every one. "Perfectly" is the only way I can describe the way this ended. Of course I don't mean that as in "fairytale" or anything, as this story was so much better than any fairytale, but it was perfect in its imperfection. Did Spike learn anything from his loving Buffy? Possibly not. Is he going to move on with his unlife? Probably so. Were Spike and Buffy happy during their relatively short time together? Absolutely. And that's certainly nothing at which to scoff. What a beautiful, macabre story. Bravo!

wonderful!!!thank you!

Sad that this had to end too, but it did have to - this was the only option that would've sat right I think. Thanks so much for this trilogy - they are truly wonderful, and very unique.

I'm sorry too, but this last chapter was trly breathtaking. Thank god I'm alone at work so that nobody can see me cry :'(

True to themselves stright thru til the end. I've told you before that I've loved this story from the beginning, the middle and now its end. If this is your idea of one of your wierd stories, I can only say, are you hiding anymore "wierd" stuff that you aren't sharing? Again, thank you for sharing this great story with us.

fantastic ending to a fine tale. thank you. loved the paragraph that contained "-finally told her – I loved her. My only regret is...."

*dies* It always makes me so sad when I read about Buffy growing old and dying.

But this saga of fics had been amazing, I loved all of it. (even the sad dying part)

I also really like how he went back to square one when she died, alot of people would play the "he stayed good to honour her memory" angle. while romantic, it's not realistic given that he's a demon. Kudos.

*dies* It always makes me so sad when I read about Buffy growing old and dying.

But this saga of fics had been amazing, I loved all of it. (even the sad dying part)

I also really like how he went back to square one when she died, alot of people would play the "he stayed good to honour her memory" angle. while romantic, it's not realistic given that he's a demon. Kudos.

I really like how you tied it up. Spike changed for love but is still the same as ever at the core. How he chooses to live now will be just that....choice, not instinct or a leash. Love his pride being with her even as an older...much older woman. Just loved the entire series. So glad you expanded.

Kathleen

"They’re not crazy about my pet’s appetites, but they trust me to keep him in line." I loved this line! I loved the whole thing!

I loved it and I hated it! Loved it because it was one of the more realistic stories I read about a vampire, and because it was still a great love story - especially the part about staying with her to the end - that seems like such a Spike like thing to do. Hated it because it was so realistic. Going back to his prowling ways after she's gone, also a very Spike like thing to do.

I'm a bit sorry it had to end, too; but it did so beautifully. Thank you for sharing this unique and different look at them.

It definitely was a great trip. And although I'm very guilty of reading and not reviewing, I want you to know how much I've enjoyed your tale.

Quality throughout, hon. Very, very real. They did what they wanted, they lived together, and now Spike goes on. Excellent job of Buffy's side feeling transitory while Spike is everlasting. And yet, there was love.

Loved this story, thank you! I really like the ending, it provides a continuity for Spike that acknowledges his immortaility. He had a set of behaviors for the time he was with Buffy, but that was only a long interlude in his longer life. A great time for all, and now it's back to reality. Thanks again!

Ah, I'm sorry it's over! This story has been awesome!

So sweet, so perfect, and so sad an ending all at once. I'm glad she never asked to be turned, though. And how like Spike to immediately drift back to what he was before Buffy. This Spike didn't change for love, he just put a truce up for love. "I smile hungrily." Perfect.

Cheated.. read the ending first. Had to love her to stay with her until 88. Not able to say it until the end though. Too much of a human emotion.

But still the predator and Buffy was a little twisted to love and want that in him.

So will the pretty blonde be lunch or luck out and be the next Buffy? Maybe he will show her his paintings. Although I feel they were of Buffy.. from beginning to end. Something she would't have wanted to see.. something he would want to have as a tribute to her.

Enjoyed.

Amazing story; sorry to see it end; maybe you should look into reincarnation? That way they can be together forever! LOL! Seriously though, absolutely loved it; the fact that Spike is still and always unapologetically a vampire and that Buffy accepts him like that, is incredible, and ware sorely missed during the show! Bravo!

Wow!  Buffy and vamp Spike have been together for 10 years.

“This,” I tell him with a flourish, “is what I think of my life and times bein’ fodder for your academic studies.”  and so Giles is killed - to protect Spike's  life with Buffy.   

It doesn't bother me that you killed off Giles. It's sad, since he believed in Spike's ability to change or whatever, but seriously, what was he really thinking? Not to say he deserved it, but what's like, almost that? God, wouldn't it be great to have Spike introduce you to the mile high club? Damn.

I'm very curious to see where this goes, I'm excited about the possibilities, thanks for the great work?

~scar

spike didn't kill giles. giles committed suicide. talk about not thinking something all the way through. very good read, thank you.

Still following this story, and I realize I haven't given any f.b. lately. I can't help thinking of the phrase, "It's all fun and games until somebody loses an eye." Wonder why that popped into my head?

Anyway, loving the story.

I hate that it is Giles but really did he expect that William would be okay with being followed? I am so glad that they have been able to make it work this long.

I can see his point. Had he let Giles live and that book get out others, not so pleasant others, might decide on a different sort of stalking. Sad about Giles but understandable. I think Buffy (even without the details) understands that.

Glad to see them still together and in love as Buffy ages gracefully.

I really do love this story.

Wonder what THIS Spike would do when he looses his Buffy though, how much HAS he changed in the day to day way of things. Giles was a necessary kill but without Buffy to give him pause would he revert? Interesting questions.

Kathleen

I can't believe Giles would be so naive. Then again, without the fine example of Angel turning into Angelus, maybe he would be.

Ouch. Not so big on redemption,is he?

Whoa! Just when it seems they're working it out... Spike is still a bad boy. I wonder if their little truce will hold for the rest of her life, now that she knows he can still kill if he feels the need.

Wonderful chapter; can't help but wonder, what's gonna happen as Buffy gets older and older? Is the turning question going to arise? Please update again soon!!

Oh, funny, Giles being a champion for redeemed vampires. But I understand why Spike did what he did...that chronicle actually did scare him. He knows there are things bigger and badder than him in the world, and even if he was safe, Buffy wouldn't be.

Ten years.. and so goes Giles.
And she has already mentioned age.
Vampire Chronicles-- with his picture would have a tendency to make Spike an obvious target. So much for anonymity. My life.. an open book..literally.

Don't think the Watcher Group will be so foolish next time.

Enjoyed..

Glad to be back to this fine story.
Spike has been not killing!  Buffy is so hopeful for the future.

very good read, thank you. smiled with them at the up beat chapter ending.

Fucking brilliant. I don't know how else to describe it. You're extremely talented. This reads like a book. I read prequels before this and didn't take the time to review, I'm basically putting it all into one because I simply couldn't take the time to write a review when I could read more of this delicious story. It's a joy to read, every word is well chosen and the way it pulls at my heart just makes me cry and kick my feet at the same time.

I absolutely love it and I was so relieved to see that, though unfinished, it is still being written and I absolutely can't wait to sink myself into more of it.

Great job and thanks for taking the time to entertain me!

~scar

This is my first ever review - I can't decide if I want this to end happily now, or end happily eventually after more twists, but I look everyday for updates. How sad is that? Love the story

Oh, yay! That was a lot more hopeful, at least for the immediate future.

And you were never properly afraid of me.

Loved that line. It sums them both up so perfectly. I also enjoyed all the back-and-forth dialogue between them. Once again, things seem to be looking up. Let's see where they're at next chapter!

Still much loving this story!

Ah, so Spike is the owner of the home that he has now redone for Buffy.. along with blood on tap at the local demon bar.

And even the idea of a soul. Harris all insightful. Powerful chapter. But now who is the other?

Still afraid of the ending..

But Possibilities..for a while.

Enjoyed.

Ah - a faint hope springs into my aching heart...LOL Okay, that sucked. But you get my drift. Things may be looking up? *crosses fingers*

Meant to add....love the chapter title...My Way indeed, just his way for the right reasons, proud and decisive.

Kathleen

Oh yes indeed. Love this development. He's changing and NOT just for her. Love Xander's dose of reality that Buffy could outlive Spike. Really love how they both acknowledge the improbability of making a go and yet forging ahead anyway. Yup, they can go the distance.

Kathleen

I HATE this Willow and Buffy who gets herself lost almost in every unti-Spike thought!:E
Otherwise,good fic!

He's changing [for her].
She's doubting him.

Now they'll have to talk again.
They've come a long way since they met.

OH, No, Willow, don't lead her away...!
I'm just not liking Willow in this fic. I DO realize that practically & realistically speaking, she IS trying to look out for Buffy, for Buffy's safety, for her LIFE. For "realistically", Spike IS a serial killer in this fic. Something, to the characters in this fic, that otherwise would've been a figment of myth or horrored imagination, a vampire being a movie monster, NOT a reality! BUT, Willow's manipulative streak does keep rearing it's ugly head, even if only weakly in THIS chappie as opposed to others, such as the Owen debacle.
I DO like her and Tara having kids. I can understand the adoptions as their way of giving homes to babies already needing them, but really don't understand why one or the other or both of them didn't have their own children by AI or friendly donor.
He's apparently moralistically challenged, FOR HER, if not for anyone else, YET. Seems he has begun to TRY. (ick, rat....yuck!)
Seems a trip to the butcher's is in order, or making friends with a local bloodbank or lab or somesuch. Not being a slayer, she can't be on the menu, and he might lose control...
This relationship has lasted so long (as he said, warn your grand-daughters...but it doesn't look like she'll have any) that they, of course, must somehow be fated to be together.
Strange words to come from Tara, even if not "our" Tara.
Love it that Spike is realizing the consequences of his actions, whether he likes it or not.
Buffy needs to discuss more her trying time and grief w/the entire Hugo episode of her life, as it totally, literally consumed her and those years. It, ie the "Hugo years" practically took on a life (one that Baby Hugo was not graced to have long or keep) of it's own, from testing and "t.t.c." (trying to conceive) by any and all unimaginable miserable means possible that occupied and tied up every waking and some sleeping moments of her/their lives, to failed pregnancies to trying to stay pregnant to waiting with bated breath for a baby that came to weak and too early and could not keep up the fight to stay alive, to still working, or NOT, through the stages of grief, of death and dying (and not helped or supported by her seriously waste of breath husband)...which Buffy has not yet worked through, not dealt with, ie still working through the avoidance & denial phase in many respects, plus depression & anger...is she bargaining with herself that Spike will fill the void in her life, or just truly seeking the one person that ever made her feel completed (apparently unlike her husband Owen, useless POS)?
I hope she doesn't do the typical TV Buffy and RUN, bolt, and if she does that Spike will realize her value and go after her. Perhaps she should see his honesty to and with her, and his attempts, the changes she would see if she would just look a little closer at him as well.
Liking this fic, read all three so far, & can't wait for more.
Thanks!
~~K.~~
~~fyreburned~~
fyreburned@yahoo.com

one step forward, two steps.... very good read, thank you.

Another great chapter! I've always wondered, though, how did Willow know he was a vampire? Was that in the first story and I just missed it?

A humdinger of a story, coming from a completely different angle of Spuffy. I keep a lookout for updates. P.s. would like to read Deluged but Buffy Central can't be accessed. Is it anywhere else? Love your work.

This chapter is turning Spike the vampire on his head, slowly, but surely.

You've nailed it. Never communicating, and always at cross purposes.

Oooh. This Spike is slowly starting to resemble more of...well, "our" Spike. He's seemed to me to be almost like a stranger with a familiar face and personality, but we don't really know him. Nor Buffy, though we can still see "our" Buffy in her as well. I think one of the things I've liked so much about this series is the way it's basically an AU without the Fantasy, as far as genres go. I dunno, I find the combination very appealing! Can't wait to see where this may go from here!

I'm sure the seller suddenly changed their mind because of something Spike did? Too coincidental after she told him about the place.

And now Buffy's having second thoughts....I think she probably thinks he sabotaged it, too. So, she calls Willow....and gets blunt with Spike.

And he's had rat for dinner *twice*!! Be hilarious if he finally feels he has to change, that it goes beyond his efforts not to, and she's had enough. Their typical bad timing.

AHA Spike is already changing. I suspected he would. Getting to look on your food source as more (Xander, Andrew, Buffy) will have to have an effect on your eating habits.

Lovely update.

Kathleen

Ah, hope and angst in the same fine chapter. Nicely done, VW.

He cares enough to not kill.. rat boy. So what happened to don't ask me to change? Too bad he didn't tell her. 'Course that would probably be the end of the story. And Willow.. he can bag-it.

And the home.. "He" doesn't want to sell it.. I thought it was a she .. his aunt.. Spike bought it for her? Need to reread.

These two are so exasperating.. you are doing a great job...

“I’ll be fine, love. It’s you who’ll grow old and die.”
That's not sort of a thing I'd like to hear before sleep :)

"There’s no tonic, no potion. This is what I am. Thought you knew that.”
Can Buffy accept it?

mmm, I like this conversation! it's all bittersweet and...I'm left not sure whether I'd prefer him to turn her or let her go her natural life...this might be one of the INCREDIBLY RARE instances where I want a happily-forever ending, though the bittersweetness of the alternative is remarkably attractive as well.

good thing I don't have to choose, huh? I can just sit back and enjoy whatever you have in mind *massages your evil lil brain*

sweet, sad read. thank you.

Still loving it!

Oh how I love this pair. She really is accepting what he is because she knows WHO he is and loves him. He loves her too but can't see how to be different than he has always been. I think they have a really good chance because the both actually do want each other when all s said and done.

LOVELY,
Kathleen

Oooooh - great chapter. Sweet, scary Spike and pushy Buffy. That last line is a wrench - for Buffy and us!

Love Spike's twisted sense of right and wrong.. "You kill people"---"People Die" Yet she is worried about the Villagers and Torches.. And his ending.. that she will grow old and die is suppose to be consoling? LOL

Waiting to see if "bagged" comes up. Even though he has now brought up.. don't try to change me and I'll stay.

And BTW.. Chpt. 7-Spike's comparison between him and Owen would have Buffy stunned-the only difference was he died in an alley.. and that Owen did care more than she knew.. Sad

Enjoying.

Aye, there's the rub.

I love this story. So much. It works so, so well. I really don't know what to say beyond that!

Bittersweet, that's what really describes them.

Just figures a prudish Willow would manipulate a situation to what she thinks it should be---whether to her morals or what she thinks a fairy-tale ending would or should be...but then again, perhaps she's just an over-eager buttinski friend, truthfully (and rightfully so, in the real-world sort of way) concerned for her friend, who IS still grieving, disenchanted, and bitter (even if rightfully so), and for her friend's physical if not also emotional & mental welfare; perhaps she's not just trying to shape other's lives to a reality like hers, or like what she thinks everyone's should be...perhaps she just can't help meddling...perhaps she just thinks everyone should have a human marriage or partner, and two or 2.5 kids, stay home, etc...
rather than be free to roam the world, have more money than the Queen, still have a high-paying & celebrity-friendly career, even if sans kids & "normal" (as in still human) hubby & kid(s) (hey--ever hear the word "adopt"?)...
Willow---it all just figures.
I know this fic doesn't really parallel the occurrences of the actual "show" Buffyverse, but figures that in this instance Willow could villify herself this way.
Also found it amusing that Owen became the husband, rather than Riley, or Angel. Angel I could see in the literary world, but probably only in that apparently he relied, possibly post soul-infusion on books to pass the time, literature, art & poetry; Riley, I really couldn't see that way.
For the progress of the story, I can see how Owen was brought in as a poet and author. And, what a jerk, BTW. Such loss Buffy feels from her time with him, and not just for the loss of Hugo...for the TIME, the energy, the effort, the youth, the lost babies, the tears shed, the loneliness, the lost nights alone--that he didn't care enough to remain with her for excuse of conferences & work; his carelessness. And as you point out, he never says he loves her once he finds her, nor Hugo; yet he has the audacity to attempt to spin the fairy-story of the poet and the artist! What, did someone offer him a mini-series or Lifetime movie deal? Did he think it would boost ratings, sales, or publicity? Did he hope to use their reconciliation to market a sequel? Appalling!
You artfully bring out this loss, the feel of her lost days, energy, time in a slow, moody way yet with a feel of escalation; a sense of occurrences gathering near. The whole series has a gradiated, almost Film Noir-ish feel. Perhaps it is just that she is happily beginning to move more and more in his world of night than her's of light...the dark, the hidden, unseen, unknown, vs. (?) the light, the known, the seen world... perhaps her lights and camera(s) being symbolic of the ability to move within these worlds, blended? But then, her artistic eye has always been able to see things that others did not see, or want to see, did not visually catch, successfully apparent to HER, correct?
Thanks for the read so far. Obviously am enjoying it. It's a bit of a different sort of tale than what's generally out there in Spuffy fic--which in it's own way is a compliment (not that I don't like my dose of fluffy Spuffy regularly--I do). It's been all stretched out over a bit of time while you wrote it, but maybe that of it's own all adds to the slower feel of it all (and that the fics take place over quite a bit of time for Buffy especially, as well).
Looking forward to more.

~~K.~~
~~fyreburned~~
fyreburned@yahoo.com

I just read the last 5 chapteres of this story and I am enjoying it so much. This is going to be a wonderful addition to your last two in this series.

Another great chapter. I read all of the other reviews on this chapter before submitting mine. I think most everything has been said. your writing just gets better and better. I truly love this unrepentent Spike. Can't wait for the next chapter.

I examine him. Buffy used the phrase pale imitation to describe him, and I get that now. He’s what happens when a tortured misfit adolescent grows up into a handsome man and figures out how to make all that angst into lemonade. Professionally speaking.

I’m what happens when the same guy gets killed in an alley.


adored that bit. also, pinned like a butterfly. *shiver* also, devour a dozen starbuck-swilling americans. bwahaha. careful, spike, wouldn't wanna get fat :)

red can be a bit aggravating. very good chapter, thank you.

Great update! Is it mean that I was happy she sent Owen packing? Am I rude because I want to drop kick Willow for being a meddling pain? Either way, can't wait for more Spuffy loving.

I don't have time to review as much as I used to, but I just wanted to say how much I still love this series.

Okay I just love the scene between Spike and Owen. And I am so amazed that Willow told him everything... But I am so proud of Spike for not standing in the way. He is letting her make her own choices. I can't imagine what she is going through but at least he is letting her feel as if she is in control.

Glad to see Buffy make decisions -break off any future with Owen and tell Willow off for interfering.
Now maybe...

First, sidenote: I thought you fell off of the face of the earth!! I was worried :) This update was AMAZING!! I never thought we would actually see Owen in this story. And that line, "So, you're the new guy?" “Wrong, mate. I’m the old guy.” Too funny. I am kinda upset about Willow, I never uderstood. She always wanted tolerance about her life choices. But Buffy's--judgement all around!! Great Update, don't wait so long in between if you can makes me all twitchy LOL !! Thanks

Only Spike could get happy and want to kill people..LOL

And the Owen appearance really threw me, especially when it was Willow trying to intervene. Guess she wants she feels is a more normal and safe life for Buffy. Yet, love was not on his lips. How disheartening.

This Buffy knows what she wants.. Spike. And also how to be patient and not push.. for now. But you have hinted about the diet and a possible bone of contention soon. Although he did say bagged wasn't that bad.

Incrementalism.

Enjoyed as usual.

He cares!!!!

Owen's a moron. I liked Spike's description.

Yay for Buffy owning her life, however it goes from here. I think Spike will be secretly touched by her home choice.

Love this story - so atypical, but incredibly interesting. THis Buffy follows her heart, even if it does lead to very gray places. And Spike, great evolution of character. Beware, Barristas, Beware!

Hee! The original, evil, happy-to-be-a-vampire Spike. And yet still capable of loving a human woman. *sigh* Nice update.

I must be perverse but I had to smile in happiness along with Spike with that last line. Yes, I want him to stop killing but I just loved the elation he clearly felt that Buffy was not going to leave him for the normal guy.

Willow does an intervention even in this world...typical. Okay, I can sorta see worry if your friend is in love with the undead but gee she's already "survived" several encounters with him in the past and that says a lot.

Love it.
Kathleen

Ah, Spike happiness, "devoring starbuck swilling Americans." I wouldn't have taken Owen back either - "but I came all this way" Really!

Buffy buys blackout curtains and kisses Spike's blood stained mouth. This is definitely not slayer Buffy but..."did she really made her peace with my [Spike] wicked ways?"

Spike is just a little selfish. He has to feel as if she is hiding out from the world. If they at least talked about things, maybe it will be better. And she had no real issue with him when he walked in the door. Awesome chapter.

ACK! That was awesome. Can't wait for more!

Great update, I love this series!

This was a great chapter!! You would think for an vampire as old as Spike he would be a little less insecure!! Great, I will wait for more!

very good chapter, thank you. want the answer to spike's ending question nearly as much as he does.

AGH! Your cliffhangers kill me.

In a good way.

Spike is so terribly... vampiric... so different from much of the other fanfic out there. You're devilishly good at writing him, just as he's devilishly good at being... well, himself.

"He’s incredibly bendy. I’ve taken up yoga.

This just made me giggle!

Wonderful chapter. She is making peace with WHAT Spike is since she loves WHO he is it has to follow. I'd like him to stop killing as I am sure she would, but she does understand as best as she can. Maybe he could still hunt and eat but leave them living? Then again when you love you have to accept the person as they are or more on. I still would have to at least broach the subject (and offer to fill in any gaps with my blood too).

Lovely chapter.

Kathleen

It always seems with your chapters that I've just started reading, and than, the chapter is done. They are THAT good. You get so caught up in it. By the way, that's how I felt about my first place in London (St. Katherine's Dock) it could have been straight out of anyplace, USA.

An interesting question. Of course, with this Buffy not being a slayer, she very well might not have that need to destroy evil - but will she be able to handle living with it?
Got to tell you, I'm not usually big with the human-Buffy fics, but this one has intrigued me.

I think the latter is the answer to his question..Strange relationship. She knows he is a killer ..dancing on the edge of a commitment.

And what is that something "different" she wants.. a committed noncommitment? Sounds as if she is staying. Now what?

Enjoying.

Hmmmm....how IS she handling his diet, and means of obtaining it?
How're her morals and feelings holding up regarding his feeding habits? Will there be any ultimate change or modification in his dietary habits? Obviously he can't feed enough from her to matter.
Love the fic, and series. It's a slow burn, with subdued sparkage.
These days it's a rarity to read an unrepenatent Spike and a non-nagging, self-righteous, or grieving Buffy.
Thanks for the refreshing read.
~~K.~~
~~fyreburned~~
fyreburned@yahoo.com

oh. gah. this chapter was MADE OF WIN. and I love you for it.

Maybe, I think, maybe she’s just here for this. For a check-in, a top-off. Maybe you’ll do for her, and she’ll go back into the ordinary world and find her way again. She’s already been here much longer than our last interlude, nearly as long as our friendship in LA.

With a start, I realize that I’ll miss her. Miss her like a parent misses a favorite child, I insist to myself.
so much to love about that little passage. the vulnerability, the...ok, is it wrong to admit that I have a kink for the favorite child thing, even if he's kidding himself? ha. no, really. :)

and then the hopped-up blood-hot sex. god, yes. and the morning after. *flails*

this was a great thing to wake up to *skips off to breakfast*

but he won't!

lovely chapter all around, but I especially loved his thoughts on books, then and now. it resonates with me, in a way that other methods of making him seem secretly bookish do not. it was a great image, the diamonds.

Excellent!

Oh, no, no, no, no! Hmmm, you promised no happy ending here, didn't you? *begins to gnaw fingernails*

But she's already decided there isn't enough there for her. There probably never was. Owen doesn't even sound like Buffy's type.

Nope...you're her real thing!

Lovely "catching up" going on here. He's really starting to be in touch with the human still there. Small touches like his memory of the place of books and having his sensibilities offended by our casual treatment of them now are telling. Far more than his diet (loved the "feel like Indian" after watching the girls pass LOL).

Excellent.

Kathleen

This story is unfolding.
The photos Buffy keeps close-her son and Spike.
The tattoo Spike inked on her body so long ago-the Vergina Sun.
The book of poetry dedicated to Buffy.
All intense reminders of the past.

you were absolutely right. You needed the perfect place to let us in on the symbol on Buffy's back. Its meaning just wouldn't have fit as well in any of the previous series. Another great chapter. You give life to these two characters.

I just realized..its Owen's book.

She can't go back.. loveless marriage with someone that let her live through that.. alone.

Seeing a little of Spike's human side..peeking through. The site of her child and a book of poetry.. To B - Will he take it home and let her see "that" side of him. 'Course I am reading through the lines and assuming its is his. Will he buy Owen's book just to compare?

A little dark now.. guess that where Buffy is.. Maybe his poetry will speak to her soul and bring her out of her doldrum..again, if it is his book to her.

Enjoying..

Mmmmmm...loved it. It's so refreshing sometimes to read a fic that isn't tying up neatly, a place for everything and everything in its place. I also like that neither of them is jumping onto the "love" train. It would really be too simple for all that. I can't wait to see where they do decide to go!

Very nice navigation of their pasts. Poor Buffy, who is more than a little ambivalent, as her pictures so clearly show. And Spike, assuming that she can't be his and will go back to her good and traditional ex. Great update, thanks!

I don't know, it seems to me Buffy is seeking him at the wrong time in her life, Spike is nowhere ready for this. It all FEELS wrong! He cannot make her life what it was, and she cannot make him feel alive, when she is not!!Although the friendship aspect of the fic--between co-workers and neighbors is the only thing that gives me a happy!Great Update, I will watch for the next.

Her husband is a bastard, isn't he?

And I love you - and Spike - for that slam at Laurell K. Hamilton 'and her lot.'

I'm glad the husband's book wasn't selling. Heavy with regert? Bastard. He's making money off his regret.

I love your Spike; he's all eeeeevil and compassion, and so in character. Lovely to read, lovely to envision. The way you roll out these chapters are almost like private journal entries from the characters that we're allowed to share.

ok, I love Buffy's story. the uncertainty that she wanted a child at all, wrapped up in the expectations that people have on her and...yeah. love it. loovvvvve it.

I also love that kids still would have been a dealbreaker for Spike. I have...well it's hard to explain. I have a kink for...not *love* that is conditional, but *relationships* taht are conditional. you can love someone a lot and there will still be certain things that are dealbreakers, and I love seeing that in fic. you kept Spike as Spike here. kudos

very good read, thank you. what is going on in spike's head? does he even know?

Spike thinks: Whatever I wanted from her is moot...it looks as if she’s got nothing left to give.

He leaves so quickly, Buffy's thoughts are unknown.

Wow! I'm dying here. I started this series thinking that the third and final installment was complete-and have just discovered the truth. Can't wait to see how you end this-it's beautiful.

Wow, I loved that chapter so much that I read it twice. He didn't really want to go to that dinner party anyway. You'd love Minus Zero. It's the type of place that you'd expect to trip across Spike and I seem to remember trading a couple of my best Jefferson Airplane Albums there. The mention brought back a lot of great memories. How did you come across the shop? Plus, please give us another chapter soon.

Not the same Pam S..I wish.
I'd be writing Spuffy from daylight to dawn.

Thanks for the hints.

Guess I'm just a happily ever after girl. Angst is good 'cause it can get too sugary 'n boring and I do prefer a story with a little angst and a good amount of plot.. and of course a dose of NC17.

Waiting for the final chapters.

This story.... You make me laugh, you make me cry. You leave me wanting more. Thank you.

Interesting to see Spike's POV of all this...I feel for Buffy.

Okay first of all, what a reunion. And she was honest and open with what she has gone through and her feelings. I can't even put myself in her shoes. I can't wait to find out what you have next in store for the couple.

Oh yuck.. just reread the intro.. yes doing it again..

Warning.. character death. Spike.. maybe she has to become that slayer..

Oh, this Spike.. has that I am still a vampire edge.. no kids to babysit.
Spike..not too open about the.. gotta ask me in first problem. She is still his girl, but I sense something different. Maybe it is just lust but not love. Something he feels for her is different than "normal" but still a coldness. Maybe the next chapter will let me know if I am right. And he didn't spend the night.

Thanks for the very quick update. Loved it.. but perplexed.

This story is just as you said it would be: not happy, kinda angsty, but just exactly what I could picture happening. I don't know how many chapters you're planning, but if it's the standard 5, then I have to say that I could easily see this wrapping up nicely, either with both of them actually sticking around, or with one or the other skulking off again. OR, I could see this installment going on for several more chapters. And each option would leave me perfectly satisfied!

Interesting, that your Spike still has conditions toward her. This is very much his-own-vampire Spike. Dooes he want to possess her, or does he actually have feelings? Does he even know?

Poor Buffy....

I have a feeling the Harris' won't be too upset over orgasm time...otherwise pot/kettle, much?

Nice reunion sex. Realistic attitude from Spike AND Buffy...she wasn't the one hot to be a mommy after all. Naturally she will feel something is wrong with her by her reaction to losing Hugo but you feel what you feel. Glad she's with Spike now because she and Owen were doomed from the get go.

Lovely update.

Katheen

HE WALKS AWAY!!!! What a pivotal moment, and all she gets is lets do this again huh! Oh my, not the amazing climatic scene I was exspecting but OK! Maybe next update. I am gonna reread, Keep up the great work!!!

Delicious chapter. Like the alternate voices until...the meeting. Xander is fitting as a pop culture addict and Anyanka as his live-in chef.
Spike as a still active vampire is strangely welcome. It means more to change for love.

Of all the apartments in London, she has to walk into Harris' Should be an interesting dinner.

Just reread part 1 and 2.. There was an Anya Jenkins Harris.. any relationship to Anyanka living with Xander Harris in 3? She would know Buffy.. didn't she hire her for a job? Need to go back and rereread...Ha!

He did bring up baggin' it-- not being so bad. Maybe this might have a somewhat happy ending.. unless she has to stake him to??..

FINALLY they meet. And it was on a whim as well. What a great chapter.

You are evil, I cannot wait to find out more!! I just love the friendly Spike/Xander relationship! Post quickly, please!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hee hee hee.

:;giggles maniacally::

Lovely. I can't wait for more!

Ah fate! Gotta love the hand of fate!

You know what I love about this story? Well one thing anyway...you don't sugar coat what Spike is and what he does. he's a vampire, he kills. If you choose to leave him this way, okay, his being the object of Buffy's love isn't based on that aspect of him. He can change if he chooses or not. I love that he lives with humans, works with them, loves one and yet does not deny his nature. Very well written!

Kathleen

I loved your intro to the British. I truly believe that we Americans grow up believing that the British all speak like the Queen and have bad teeth. I spent four years in London on a work study program and had to be dragged, kicking and screaming back to the USA. I love your progression on this story. Especially Spike's attitude about his eating habits. Please update soon, you tease.

Haaaaaa! I love it!!!

Holy Cow! Oh I can't wait for the next update to see how the meeting goes!

AAAAAGH! cliffhanger.

Um... I had plans to sketch a little tonight, maybe write, but nooooo, I find the William Pratt series and have spent the evening reading your fantastic words and characterizations and thank you for letting spike still be a vamp, complete with fangs and drainings.

i'm also enjoying how you're managing to work in everyone from the series. haven't seen giles yet. hmmm.

cliffhanger. AAAGH!

Ah, still the unrepentant vampire.

I like that it's because of Xander that they're meeting now.

Multiple miscarriages? Oh, Buffy....

delightful read, thank you.

Nice coincidental meeting.. neighbor of Xander. And I see Spike hasn't started baggin'it.

Waiting to see what happens.

really enjoy the certainty the both share. cery good read, thank you.

Clever William Pratt X, with a passport and a bank account and reinventing his place in time.

This is utterly fantastic. I am salivating for the next chapter!

Great chapter.

Great chaptr look forward to more soon.N

Willow just doesn't get it, obviously.

Through just a few mentions, you get a clear picture why Buffy and Owen didn't work out past the grief of losing their son. They were two people looking for the standard normal life picket fence happy, and it wasn't for them, or at least, not for Buffy. I'm actually amazed to find out that she settled down at all, with how she seemed to enjoy the photo travel.

And now Spike has a little records store - cool. LOL at the image of him walking around like that in daylight. And I love, of course, that he was a smart cookie with a nest egg.

Their connection is so neat.

I really love this story!! I have checked here three times today, and I was actually talking to my husband on the phone when I saw this posted. I immediately told him I had to go and hung up!!! Loved it and am waiting for another!!

So glad that you have started posting the third installment! I have been waiting patiently for it and my day was brightened when I signed on and found the story! The first two were great and I am quite sure that this one will be also, even if it is darker, because I actually prefer dark fics. Looking for to more!

Rich..but still has the desire to work. An old record shop.. low key probably good for a vampire. Somewhat gregarious.. unfortunate for some people.

Nothing said yet about his dining habits-wondering if he thought enough of the encounter to "bag it" for a while. Would make a difference to her.

Enjoying..Mr. Pratt

Way to pile on the, well, not exactly suspense, but anticipation at any rate. Interesting that Spike always seems to have a job of some sort - I can see that helping to amass wealth over long periods of time, in addition to compound interest. Plus I'd imagine his expenses are low.

Ah, so glad you are continuing this series - in spite of the warnings about darkness.

oh, my favorite couple, in my favorite town. What more could I ask for? Oh yeah, next chapter please?!

Love this continuation-a lot can and did happened during those years after their last meeting.

Spike thinks, ' I just have this feeling, this sense, that she’s coming back to me'.

I have been waiting for this! A little darker seems to work in my book. Great start and please keep the updates coming!!

very good beginning to this part of your tale.

I cannot tell you how thrilled I am to see the start of a third story in this series.

I waited, I worried, and finally I was rewarded. I was so glad to see the third in the Pratt series. Great start. Just what I would have imagined of these two, seperate yet still connected. I can't wait for the next chapter.

Ah, what meeting has fate in store? thanks for the third fic.

WOW what a great chapter. And I just can't believe how much time has passed. I hate that Buffy had to go through something devestating. But William is waiting on her. They just have to find each other again.

Excellent POV's! I really am enjoying this series and happy to see a possible reuniting even with darkness and angst.

Kathleen

Great chapter, can't wait to read more.

Elated you are continuing this story. The real Spike.. in love but a vampire nontheless.

Shall I be ready for no happy ending. At least let them find each other and be together for a while. And what is his means of support now? At least he was a working killing vampire.

Enjoying.

Sooooooooooooooo happy to see this fic back!!!!! Feels like Christmas with delicious prezzies!!

Awww, Spike's contemplating giving it up for Buffy.

Poor Buffy....lost a baby, didn't fall in love, and everybody has kids...