Scars by JamesMFan
Chapter: End

charles
11/20/2017 04:13 am
This was a great, beautiful story. And I do hate you for the ending. I don't know how you can think of it as happy, as it is the definition of tragedy. Nonetheless, I loved it. The characterization is pretty much everything I look for in fanfics, and I wished you'd written more. Thank you!

Addy
05/24/2016 06:49 am
ehhh.... I have a mixed review lol 
 
I REALLY liked the story, and even the ending was good - but tbh I didn't feel like the two quite matched. The story was incredibly character-driven - relying on their emotions and experiences both separate and together to keep the flow going and making it easy for the reader to become immersed. But the ending felt like it contradicted that, to me. It's not just that it wasn't "happy", either, but that it's slightly rushed and cuts off so abruptly with no real resolution - for the plot or the characters. It frustrated me a bit - I don't mind character death or even dark/artsy stories, but I kinda prefer more closure than I felt this gave; a smoother transition out, a broader point to the events. A feeling like - if something drastic happens, even if it's senseless and meant to be: make it count. Make it contribute something to the fic. Be consistent. This felt like it was really building and growing into an epic fic and really exploring the characters with SO much potential to really go anywhere it wanted - and I was anxious to see where that would be - but then it just kinda gave up midway through the last chapter. 
 
I don't mean to come down on you either, though, just wanted to explain my reaction to it as a reader - when I finished reading it, I actually didn't even realize it WAS the end until I saw "The End" at the bottom. lol Then I thought, "...*blink* that's it? seriously? O.o hmm. *sigh* ok, on to another fic, I guess. I really liked that one, though, I can't believe it just cut off like that :/". I like the intention of it logically, but it just kinda detached me emotionally, I guess and it didn't feel end-y. I hope that makes sense lol
 
Despite that, I did still very much enjoy the story otherwise. I loved the character portrayal and detail and I did kinda like that it's at least somewhat open (and thus kinda leaving room for interpretation as far as "what happens next" lol). 
 
My only real disappointment, though, was the lack of warning - and not even for me, but the bigger point of it. I know a lot of authors don't want to include one with some things because it gives too much of the story away - but there ARE ways to work it without doing that (ie: we know there's character death - but no clue who it is, or how or why it happens, etc; and misdirection in the story can be used to cover it if necessary) - and warnings exist for a reason.. *especially* for things like death, cutting, and suicide, because they're triggering for some people. Stories are meant to be felt - making the reader think and feel is the goal to reach - but some feelings can be harmful for some people. For all any author knows, someone could be at the very edge of their sanity or emotional rope reading a fic and while it IS fiction, the place it takes them to - emotionally and mentally - could be very real for them, and have very real consequences. 
 
Warnings help people prepare for what to avoid if it's triggering for them - they have no clue what they're getting into otherwise, and at that point, readers are basically left choiceless as to the feelings and concepts they're exposed to reading a fic because by the time they realize something is there that could disturb them, they've already read at least part of it (and often that's really all it takes). I'm always a little disappointed when I see fics/authors that don't take that into account. I see it from the author's POV, too, because I'm a writer myself lol, but I know I always feel the responsibility to "take care" of my readers in that way, so it's a prevalent thought for me. 

09/25/2010 11:49 am
I like it... wow. i do. it envokes...alot of emotions. If buffy had to die..in a morbid way. this is one...i think id be at peace with.

No light without the dark perhaps. Sigh.
05/22/2010 12:48 pm
 

Still an excellent read. Thanks. :-)
05/22/2010 12:04 pm
 

I so didn't see that coming. Tears abound.
05/22/2010 12:02 pm
 

Sunshine
05/18/2010 05:02 pm
Hi!

Firstly, I want to say that you write very well, and I have enjoyed reading your stories. I do not doubt that you have / or can, aspire to write real good literature.

But I personally do not read fanfic in a wish to read good literature, I read it to have a good story, I tend to like some escapism. I feel that this story was spoiled by an ending not fit for fanfic, but more for arty literature. Each time I read a fanfic that aims at being to arty, I feel robbed as a reader. The better the story, the worse the feeling. You, as a writer, should take this as a big compliment, even if I hate what you did to this special and really good fic.

Sunshine
05/18/2010 04:41 pm
Hi!

Firstly, I want to say that you write very well, and I have enjoyed reading your stories. I do not doubt that you have / or can, aspire to write real good literature.

But I personally do not read fanfic in a wish to read good literature, I read it to have a good story, I tend to like some escapism. I feel that this story was spoiled by an ending not fit for fanfic, but more for arty literature. Each time I read a fanfic that aims at being to arty, I feel robbed as a reader. The better the story, the worse the feeling. You, as a writer, should take this as a big compliment, even if I hate what you did to this special and really good fic.

05/14/2010 09:58 pm
Wow. For reasons unbeknown to me I was not disappointed at all. Such a raw ending. I loved it for what it was.

03/22/2010 05:27 am
I just read the other reviews.  I agree with you; readers needed to go with the flow of the story and NOT be warned about character death.  While it was heartbreaking, looking back it was inevitable.  Buffy was broken, but in the end she won as well as lost in the sense that she determined her own fate, not relying on someone else to make it for her.  When Giles told her to choose between Spike and her friends, she said she was choosing neither--she chose herself.  And her death was her choice.  In a way, it was Spike's confession that sent her over the edge, but ironically, he made that confession because she had changed him as much as he had changed her.  That was evident from the way you wrote the ending with Spike helplessly banging on the barrier trying to get to her--a truly powerful scene.  You really set her death up well by writing the part where Buffy realizes Spike can't help his nature anymore than she can ignore her own as a killer. Beautifully done.

02/13/2010 04:45 am
An artist that I knew killed himself just from this circumstance - he was such a good artist and poet but life screwed him over really early on when a car came crashing into him - left him paralyzed and in a wheel chair - he too could no longer live with his pain and suffering and how his life had been so devasted -

02/13/2010 04:41 am
Powerful stuff your ending of her life - and Spike's as well really - where could he go from here but just further and further down.

Glad that you did not take the easy way out - reads like you have been close to the subject you wrote her pain and suffering and trauma so well. 

J
01/11/2009 04:56 am
No punches pulled, there. The progression of the story and the relationship and changes in Buffy and Spike were a fantastic read. The ending is fitting, though abrupt enough that it took me a few minutes to come to terms with it. Excellent story, thank you for sharing.

06/20/2008 02:12 am
that... sucked.
oh my gosh.
im in complete shock.
i was so expecting a happy ending.
no 'i love you's or anything.
i cant believe taht's it.
im gonna be a zombie for the rest of the day.....
~dl

01/13/2008 10:55 pm
Okay, may have to cry now...lots. Wonderfully true, wonderfully sad. You're right, as much as I wish things could have ended happily ever after, this group is just too dysfunctional to help her through it, and Buffy's too far gone to help herself. It's beautifully ironic, that Willow's spell actually killed her, rather than saving her. Everyone let her down, one kick at a time, until this was her only option. Just so wonderful, and bittersweet.

icespuffy
11/11/2007 11:33 pm
Great story, a very interesting look at the characters. I liked evil Spike that does not stop killing and lies about it. I understand Buffy very well here, to have something happen that makes you think you are not your self anymore,makes you less, and wanting to end it because you just can handel the pain, both inside and out. Buffy´s death was suprising but if you think about the story the ending was right and true. Thanks for sharing this!!

06/29/2007 03:42 pm
just wanted to say i absolutly love this fic!!!! its angsty but amazing. Totally wasn't expecting the death but i think it was well writen. Thank you so much for a brilliant story [even if it did make me blubber like a baby several times!!]

chelsea
06/29/2007 02:18 am
this was an amazing piece of work. buffy's strength as a slayer is in her support network, it makes sense that if they abandoned her she would be most vulnerable. i loved spikes reaction too, the desperation, the fury, the begging. would love to see how this affects him.

DoWnEr
04/09/2007 02:02 pm
Wow. Really sad. I don't hate you for it. But i wish i had a little more warning. I was hoping Spike would leave and Buffy would be sad and get over it... but this... it's just...

Loss for words.

FTFCHRIS@hotmail.com

08/11/2006 05:36 am
wow...that is so unbelievably sad...heart-breaking really...i had tears in my eyes...i didn't expect the sad ending, but nothing wrong with a sad ending sometimes...great job on this fic :)

Deej
05/31/2006 10:56 am
I thought it was very good and I think it was the right ending. I cried a couple of times during the whole thing...it was really moving. Great writing!

lux
05/13/2006 02:57 pm
an aftermath ficlet would be great for this. reactions of the scooby gang...
otherwise i like it. Gathered - if you had done the character death warning thing - it wouldn't have changed a thing.
nice read.

04/18/2006 11:38 pm
I hate you, you made me cry....I loved this story, please write some more. The ending was belivable and great. I still hate you though...but I´ll stop if you write another.

Ellie
04/17/2006 08:29 pm
wow i soo wasnt expecting this butits just total genius!! it just gives the story darkness that just fits in

04/14/2006 04:44 am
Wow - just wow - what an ending ::blinks:: I wasn't expected that.... I liked it... have to say it is not "agnst" this is more "dark" but what an incrediable read. just wow...

04/13/2006 05:03 am
I've enjoyed this story, which was well written and well crafted. In the end, I'm sad for Buffy, that she lost all hope and gave up on life. I'm sad, too, for Joyce, who will live forever with unbelievable pain.

04/11/2006 02:49 pm
awwww... poor buffy and poor spike for having to watch.. *wipes a tear*

Lou
04/10/2006 11:23 am
Unexpected - but it did match the tone of the fic and was completely believable. Nicely done.

Nikkole
04/10/2006 02:41 am
I was reading evryone else's reviews after I posted mine, and I also think that an epilogue would be great. Maybe her funeral, how everyone reacts to her death, how they deal and try to move on.

Nikkole
04/10/2006 02:34 am
WOW! That was very powerful, and very sad. YOu write it beautifully. I have to say, when it said she flicked the scissors across her wrists, I was completely NOT prepared for that. It made me jump in my chair. Thank you for writing this story and sharing it with us. I hope to see more from you soon.

Irene
04/09/2006 11:22 pm
I really really loved this story, but there has to be an epiloge, or something! Please, please, please.

Irene
04/09/2006 11:21 pm
I really really loved this story, but there has to be an epiloge, or something! Please, please, please.

chance
04/09/2006 10:43 pm
hey amazing story i've really enjoyed it!! and this last chapter is brill!! it was great!! had me bawling. i agree though with some of the reviewers bout liking 2 see another chapter where we see every1's reactions 2 her death and how it will affect every1. really great job!!

claire
04/09/2006 10:39 pm
hey i have been reading your story over at sinister attraction and then i found it here and that u ad finished it here. i loved ur whole story & i think this was a great way 2 end it. ' crying my eyes out '. beautifully written. shows that it was very well thought out. good job!!

SpaceLord
04/09/2006 07:23 pm
Hmm maybe you should name this story...when interventions fuck things up more than they already are....I really think that you got that part right...the judgemental things with the way the scoobies always tried to tell her what was right and wrong with her personal life could probably make her comit suicide if she was already depressed as she was in this story....the feeling of being completly alone...however I would probably think that she would have done "suicide by demon/vampire".

As I already started a nice epi or another chapter with all the reactions after her suicide would have been nice....I can just see all the guilt and the blaming that would go around.

04/09/2006 04:59 pm
I must admit that you had me sobbing with this chapter. Buffy’s actions made it start, but what really did it was Spike, who by this time wanted nothing more then to save her, and who could no longer get to her. She was so lost, in so much pain that she couldn’t ever see any other way to free herself. I really should have seen this coming, it was so true to your story and everyone’s reactions to her when they found out about Spike would have had to be so completely different for there to be even the possibility of a different outcome. This whole story has been very beautifully written and in this chapter you did another fantastic job.

04/09/2006 02:01 pm
That was a very moving story, and I her death at the end was not a disappointment to me at all. It sort of fit there. ::puts in favorites::

SpaceLord
04/09/2006 12:09 pm
Wow....not the ending I would have expected. Good really good IMO but not expected.

Would have liked an epi to see how this would have affected Spike after....would it change him completly?

I'm thinking that would be an interesting story to tell.

04/09/2006 08:45 am
Waaa Waaaa :( soo totaly sad. Butifuly writen thow, an a total tear jurker.

04/09/2006 05:48 am
It was very beautiful. Yes, I'm bawling and really wasn't expecting her death and Spike being there to witness it but it was still one of the best stories I have ever read.

vladt
04/09/2006 04:37 am
really loved the tale. do feel that an epilogue, spreading the guilt to those who earned it, would not be inappropiate. loved the read, thanks

Jess Marie
04/09/2006 04:18 am
Gah, been a long time since a story made me cry.

idk5743228
04/09/2006 03:27 am
I was truly all ready to blast away for not putting the character death into the summary. But, I probably wouldn't have read the ending. I'm usually about the fluffy/spuffy. I've read and loved this story from the beginning. The ending was beautifully written and obviously well thought out. You stayed true to the story. Thank you for an exceptional story.

04/09/2006 03:11 am
Gah... just saw 'Richard's' review... don't you just LOVE it when readers tell you where you are or were going with your own story!? *rolls eyes*
I know, right? Jeez. But still thanks for reading and reviewing. Glad you liked it at least. :)

04/09/2006 03:08 am
*sniff* Sad but brilliant ending! I am glad you didn't put a character death warning on... it really would have ruined the ending. I feel so sorry for Spike I think in his own way he really did love her and to watch her die and be unable to even go to her would have been so hard for him. Fabulous angsty story, thank you!

Leslie
04/09/2006 02:55 am
I hated the ending, but at the same time it was appropriate. I'm glad you stuck with your original intentions.

Fran
04/09/2006 02:19 am
*Sobs* How can I be disappointed or hate you for giving us such a beautiful story?

04/09/2006 01:45 am
I’ve followed this from Chp 1 and loved it all the way. You write beautifully. I wasn’t sure how you were going to end it, although must admit I never suspected this. I’ll go away and have a good think about it. At present it worries me because basically she gives in and that’s not what she or anyone should do.

04/09/2006 01:39 am
Whoa! You are going to get blasted for not warning, I'll bet. But it really is good that you didn't give it away - and in retrospect, there was nothing happy or even particularly hopeful about the story, so you did set it up so well that there shouldn't be too much shock. I was surprised, but found myself nodding my head as I realized there was going to be no last-minute saving of the Slayer. Very well done.

just sue
04/09/2006 01:11 am
Bravo! A shock but in keeping with the tone of the story from the beginning. Happiness seemed fleeting for poor Buffy and all too easily shattered by reality. Strangely I think that Spike would truly have made the effort if he'd thought she would do this. How else could he be so devastated at the end? A brave choice and I salute you. Thanks for the ride. Next ne a little more upbeat maybe? *hugs*

Missus_grace
04/09/2006 01:11 am
I've been reading this story from the beginning and was drawn into it quickly. I love fluffy endings, so it is a bit disappointing, but you are a great writer. Thanks for sharing!

04/09/2006 12:53 am
OMG. I hope Spike is ready to die or run.

Thank you for sharing this very sorrowful story with us.

04/09/2006 12:23 am
Whoa, holy crap. Sad ending, but I think it fits.

I've really enjoyed this story. Thank you for sharing.
:) Thank you for reading.

04/09/2006 12:23 am
*sobs* Ok, so didn't need the downer ending, was actually trying to get cheered up today. *sighs* Maybe a slight angst warning in an authors note for this chapter won't give it away? Because I would have stayed FAR FAR away from anything resembling angst. Great fic though, I definitely enjoyed the ride!
You are of course right, I can't believe I forgot the angst warning! Added now. Sorry.
Still, thanks for reading :)

Richard
04/09/2006 12:18 am
Well, that was pretty scummy; not including a character death warning. And since I happen to know better, I just thought I'd share with everyone else that it is NOT true "this is where [you]'ve been going with the story the whole time".
Actually, it is. How would you know better? I don't even know you.

04/08/2006 11:29 pm
Beautiful, ity fit the tone of the story so well. Anyother ending would have cheapned the impact of the story. It was brutal, it was painful, but in the end it rang true.
I'm glad it did. I really wanted to be true to these characters in this context and in my mind it couldn't really end any other way.
Thanks for reading and reviewing.

spikeskat
04/08/2006 11:27 pm
You're setting yourself up for this one. But, I thought it was a logical conclusion to this story. It was full of angst, and to suddenly end on a high note of fluff didn't seem quite true. (But, there's nothing to say you can't do an alternate "fluffy" ending... LOL.) Great job!
Thank you! Yeah, I couldn't go with the fluff even if my heart was saying "Go with the fluff, go!" I knew it wouldn't ring true.
Thanks for reading!