"Not that she was particularly trying to take some high moral stand for the sake of being good. It was simply that she’d feel sick watching TV with him after he’d been out doing some casual murder. Simply that she might retch as he kissed her, if she had to wonder whose life had ended on his lips that night."

I love this section -

sad buffy. shame she doesn't have a bit more confidence in spike. very good read, thank you.

aw, sadness! poor buffy. choices, choicse. rather angsty, dont ya think? suppose its realistic. good job, once again!
~liz

Ohhh, some interesting thoughts. Sad that she's so convinced it'll end in heartache. I really hope it doesn't. And well done on the nominations! Totally deserved!

One thing she doesn't know about Spike yet is that once he wants something he does EVERYTHING needed to get it and for her love and commitment he will reinvent what a vampire is and does if necessary.  Lovely and realistic view of Buffy's dilema.

Kathleen