Buffy slips into depression after Spike's sacrifice, the fact he was back and never told her just pushes her even more over the edge. When Spike realizes the mistake he made by staying away, he's willing to do whatever he can to save her.

"You're in love with pain." Set season two, after What's My Line.

For anyone who has ever wondered where Spike got that camper they ran from Glory with in Spiral, or for that matter, the shotgun he had in Fool for Love. Set after Family.

“How’d you know I liked wine spritzers?” Buffy asked.
    “What do you mean? You told me.”
    “Since when do we discuss wines?”
    He rolled closer and gazed at her, amused. “We planned a whole wedding together, love. Remember?" Memories of a spell bring on a conversation, which could make their time together better, or worse. Season six.

“Angel...” Buffy says Angel's name while she and Spike are in bed. Why? And what is he going to do about it?

Anya overhears an idle wish at the Bronze, and suddenly there’s no more Spike. What would Buffy have been like without Spike to catch her after she came back from death? How far down would she fall?
WARNING: VERY DARK FIC!
Nominated at No Rest For The Wicked Awards

  Season three – a sequel of sorts to my last Seasonal Spuffy, “P.S. You Suck, Spike” that was an AU between season 2 and 3 in which Spike finds Buffy in LA and determines to bring her out of the depression she’s been in since leaving Sunnydale.  She’s now been home for several months, the PTB have brought Angel back, and it is nearing Christmas. We have a twist on what is already an AU canon that won’t deal with anything else in Season III except Buffy’s Cruciamentum.