Trusting You by DreamsofSpike

Marie Wyatt
02/14/2013 04:02 am
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Thank you so much for this beautiful story! It had so much raw emotion in it that I could actually feel the love; it made me want to cry when they cried and laugh when they laughed. Thank You!

Suzy Q
08/27/2007 11:18 am
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BEST BLOODY STORY EVER!
awww thanx so much, love, so glad you liked it :)

06/03/2007 11:34 am
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oh my god...what a beautiful story! i liked it sooooooooooo much!
thanx so very much, love, you're so kind :)

08/28/2006 10:05 am
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awwwwwwwwwwwww very sweet.
thanx :)

Lou
08/22/2006 08:20 pm
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A just reward after such a tortuous learning curve for both of them. Really enjoyed this one.
thanx for all your kind words of feedback :)

Nic
08/17/2006 04:36 pm
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I nominated this story at Love's Last Glimpse Awards. You really deserve it because this is such a great story and it's very rare that stories make me cry but yours did many times. It is going to be a classic in the Spuffy fanfiction!!!
thanx so much for the nomination, and all your kind words...they are so much appreciated...glad you enjoyed the story :)

08/16/2006 04:02 am
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just a great story from beginning to end. I am so glad that Buffy took the time to get to know Spike and he had the guts enough to give her a chance. Great story again from beginning to end.
thanx so much, i'm so glad you enjoyed this fic :)

tg1982
08/14/2006 07:57 pm
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wow! what a fic. What's next thought. gonna answer that wulfie challenge u mentioned on tag looong back?
thinking about it, after i finish BB...but it will probably be a while before i post...i wanna at least get a good couple weeks worth of chapters before i start posting again....i need a breather... :) thanx again for your reviews and support, glad you enjoyed this fic :)

08/11/2006 01:25 pm
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Wonderful story, JL. Thanks.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Tonia
08/11/2006 09:00 am
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I loved it! ::cheers::
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Robyn
08/11/2006 05:40 am
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This whole chapter was just beautiful. I loved the sweetness of the claim and how there was no hesitation in Buffy about her trust in Spike nor her desire to be with him forever. Thank you for such a great story. :)
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Typerbabe67
08/11/2006 04:13 am
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Thanks for a beautiful, wonderful story--loved every chapter! Now you have to start another one!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Lynda
08/11/2006 03:54 am
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It was a long ride and I enjoyed every minutes. Thank you for this beautiful story.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Kimberly Adams
08/11/2006 03:50 am
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What a great ending and fantastic story!! I look forward to more of them from you and will check often. Thanks so much for giving me short escapes from the ordinary life.
Kim
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/11/2006 01:52 am
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Nice touch.  I liked that Spike initiated the claim with her, rather that suggesting it, and waiting for Buffy's approval, beforehand. Simply asking, insead, "Do you trust me?"  I thought that went a long way toward wrapping this fic up, nicely.  Thanks for the fun read. :)
thanx, glad you liked it :)

vladt
08/11/2006 12:48 am
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beautiful ending to a tense emotional tale. thanks for the great read.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

pretty_in_fangs
08/10/2006 11:12 pm
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Always and joy and a sorrow to see such a good story reach its end. Thank you.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Nic
08/10/2006 07:47 pm
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Wow, that was WOW!!!! Such a great, emotional story. I was seriously crying in some chapters, you're such a great writer. The synopsis is just a simple sentence, and I didn't realise what a great story it was representing. A great plot and wow, it's one of my favourite stories now officially. At times you had me with conflicting emotions, whether to be on Buffy's side or Spike's side. Glad it ended well. I read it all in one go and it was an amazing read. Love it!!! I could go on praising your story forever. Thanks so much for your work.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Bridget
08/10/2006 06:48 pm
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Great story and beautiful ending.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

fallen_angel
08/10/2006 06:30 pm
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ok, my heart's a gooey puddle now. This was such a cool fic. I wanted it to never end!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/10/2006 06:01 pm
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Beautifully written. What a lovely tale of trust. Too bad it couldn't have happened on the show.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Emily
08/10/2006 05:46 pm
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I didnt even realize this was the last one until I saw the Epiloque as the title while writing this review. Such a beautiful chapter, and it just goes to show what we will be missing from story now that its done.
For a while in this story, I was scared that it was going to be hard to make good what had happened in the beginning without, dare I say it, pissing me off royaly or going absurdly out of character. Congratulations, I'm glad to say you proved me wrong. I am also glad to say that I will see you again with Blood Bound, as I have trouble seeing myself without my morning dose of JL writing. Great Job:D ... but I'll miss it so:(
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Emily
08/10/2006 05:38 pm
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thanx, glad you liked it :)

Dreylin
08/10/2006 04:56 pm
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I really enjoyed this story. It went places most don't, and it did it very well. I'm looking forward to your next effort.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/10/2006 04:47 pm
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Well, I'm sad the story isover,but I am glad with how you've ended it. I enjoyed this story very much, and only hopeyou have another idea in your head for another great story.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Emilee
08/10/2006 04:15 pm
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Wow! I'm sorry to see the story end, but then that's always the mark of a great tale. Excellent, excellent excellent!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/10/2006 04:05 pm
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oooo Bitey, claimy Spuffy! YOU ROCK!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

kim
08/10/2006 03:57 pm
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Awwww.....we got really lovey-dovey at the end.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/10/2006 03:35 pm
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EEEEEEE!!!! Happy ending!! With sexy claim-y goodness!! Yay!!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/09/2006 06:57 pm
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My heart is melting...
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Kimberly adams
08/09/2006 05:54 pm
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Beautiful chapter and I am glad there's more to come...I hope. I will read everything you put out in the future cause you rock as the best author out there!
:)
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Robyn
08/09/2006 05:43 pm
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I loved the sweetness of this chapter and the insecurity they both expressed even though they are both ready to take their relationship to the next level. I love how Spike saw exactly were Buffy’s uncertainty was coming from and how he helped her with it. Thanks for the lovely update.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

pretty_in_fangs
08/09/2006 04:58 pm
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Awww...
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Lynda
08/09/2006 05:52 am
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Yes. Time to trust. Spike trusts Buffy, Buffy trusts Spike. Let's move on to the loving.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Typerbabe57
08/09/2006 04:26 am
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Awesome chapter! I love the new mutual closeness and trust our favorite couple have developed. It's about time Buffy had to do the pursuing in their relationship!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/09/2006 02:47 am
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Very sweet.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/09/2006 02:36 am
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Yay!  On to the lovey dovey smut!  Hehehe
thanx, glad you liked it :)

vladt
08/08/2006 10:35 pm
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sweet and tender read, thank you
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Mickey
08/08/2006 09:18 pm
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Sooooooooooo Sweeeett.......
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Emily
08/08/2006 08:21 pm
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YAY:D This chapter could not be any better! I am soo glad at the way it turned out! ::big huge grin::
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Bridget
08/08/2006 08:18 pm
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Finally! Great chapter.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/08/2006 07:34 pm
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Beautiful chapter. Well written and nice to see it tie back to the begining
thanx, glad you liked it :)

kim
08/08/2006 07:16 pm
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Awwwwww.....
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/08/2006 05:46 pm
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update soon
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/08/2006 05:34 pm
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What a beautifully written chapter with wonderful sentiments.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/08/2006 02:57 pm
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Eeeee! Happy happy Spuffyness!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Emilee
08/08/2006 02:54 pm
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Oh that was so sweet. This story has such wonderful emotions. It's a rollercoaster, but so real. Love it, can't wait for the next chapter.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Lou
08/22/2006 04:51 pm
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Amazing what a good night's sleep might do!
thanx again :)

08/09/2006 06:56 pm
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Buffy, honey, you *are* in heaven.You've got Spike, heaven can't beat that!
thanx, glad you liked it :)

08/08/2006 05:31 pm
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spike wanted to trust Buffy from the begining
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Kimberly Adams
08/07/2006 10:52 pm
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YES! this was fantastic and great and truly wonderful!!! I hope it isn't finished, is it? What a beautiful story! You go girl!
I can't wait for the next installment.
Kim
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 11:57 am
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I really like the update on each of the relationships and that Buffy has realized that she needs the emotional intimacy with Spike before they can have the physical intimacy. Her joy at realizing that Spike does trust her again was so sweet. Thanks so much for the updates, I have really enjoyed them.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

natalie.
08/07/2006 09:22 am
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I really like this fic I'm glad that buffy really had to earn his trust again cos at the bit where she'd done what she did to him in your fic I didn't want her to get him back but like how you've had her earn his trust and I like the fact that they haven't jumped straight back into bed together.
Saying that though I hope there is some good spuffy make up scenes in the next chap.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Tonia
08/07/2006 08:40 am
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That was so sweet! =)
thanx, glad you like it :)

08/07/2006 08:18 am
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Lovely chapter. It's a truly unique pov to have Buffy wooing Spike with hope to regain his love her only incentive.
thanx, glad you like it :)

08/07/2006 12:40 am
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Awwwwwww, YAY!
thanx, glad you like it :)

vladt
08/06/2006 08:35 pm
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slow sweet progress. good read, thanks.
thanx, glad you like it :)

pretty_in_fangs
08/06/2006 06:17 pm
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Yay. People's lives are getting better.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Emilee
08/06/2006 05:03 pm
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That was a nice chapter, very well done. Sweet and also answered a lot of questions about the other's relationships. I hope they get to where Buffy wants them to be, but I gotta ask. You brought in the Scoobies, are you going to be bringing Riley in too? I can certainly see a few rewrites of As You Were fitting in to the story. Either way, excellent update, can't wait for more.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Emily
08/06/2006 04:49 pm
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Ahh! Stop right there Buffy! He may trust her right now, but I don't think that having sex is a good thing yet. Who knows what could happen if they do; Buffy could have gotten out of bed to use the toilet when Spike wakes up, and here comes another emotional break-down. I was (and am) so happy about their taking it slow, I really hope that it will take them a bit longer to have sex again (...even if it is just the *end* of the next chapter considering the changes in this one).

Great chappy JL, and I am glad that, despite the *look* of things in the past, there truly has been changes with this relationship. I finally believe that it will continue well, if not greatly:D
you're so right...they needed a bit more time :) thanx for the review

kim
08/06/2006 03:29 pm
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Nice way to quickly pass through time, yet cover a lot of territory. I agree with all the decisions made, too.

I can't help but think what a different group Giles will come back to come First Evil time. They'll all have grown up, and he missed it.
thanx, glad you liked it :) this is how i would have preferred it to be...i thought this vengeance wish would do them more good than the original (a lot of good being forced to be together did when they were all lying to each other through their teeth!) thanx for the review

Lou
08/22/2006 03:45 pm
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There's a brave soldier!
lol :)

08/09/2006 06:55 pm
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Hey, you used surreal. I love the word *thanks to Kim*. But I think I scared her off :(

Enough babbling. Now that I've made up with Buffy, gald Spike surrendered to the flamed. Loved the last line by the way.
thanx :)

08/09/2006 02:39 am
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impossible to flee what was inside him - or to flee from JL induced angst. Isn't it funny - Spike never had a successful romance?
lol..thaxn :)

08/08/2006 04:57 pm
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NICE CHAPTER
thaxn :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 11:26 am
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Okay, I was wrong, she didn’t just let him leave, but she did stay back enough to watch his back without him knowing it just like he had done for her time and again. I like that Buffy had realized that although Spike had really loved no one has ever really loved him and how deserving he is of it, and I am glad that she has earned from him the choice of him giving her a chance or not and that he decided to do so.
yep :) thanx

08/06/2006 07:03 pm
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How about a little bite to seal the deal?
soon :)

08/06/2006 01:26 am
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Whoohoo!  What a way to burn.  Lovely chappie.  :)
lol..thanx :)

Tonia
08/05/2006 10:44 am
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::loud cheering:: That was wonderful! ::sniffles:: Please don't let either one mess it up!
thanx :) i wont :)

Kim Adams`
08/05/2006 09:45 am
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just finished the new chapter and loved it and can't wait for more!! I can't get enough of this story and it's powerful beauty and heartbreak. Just awesome! I want more, please.
linnea2sweet@yahoo.com
please respond
thanx, so glad you enjoyed it :)

08/05/2006 04:38 am
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Yay! Finally!
:)

vladt
08/05/2006 01:46 am
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wonderful read, thank you. great chapter ending, although she deserves to atone for many, many more chapters.
thanx :)

08/04/2006 10:53 pm
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That brought tears to my eyes. Great job.
thanx :)

pretty_in_fangs
08/04/2006 09:49 pm
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oh, beautiful. Wonderful last line, as well.
thaxn :)

Emily
08/04/2006 08:58 pm
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YAY! I'm so happy (no matter what these tears are trying to tell you) and I am really happy about the pair of them. *Both* have been incredibly courageous do this. Although I have seen what a bloody bitch Buffy can be, and I am not justifying her in the least; she hasn't had the greatest experience with the men she loves either. Her Dad leaves and rejects any and all responsiblity and contact with her, Angel turns evil and leaves, Parker (well, 'nuff said), Riley cheats on her with Vampire hookers and then leaves, and (although she realizes that it was completely her fault and was incredibly cruel for this to happen) it must have felt as though Spike had left her there for a bit. So I am really glad for both of them, and I hope that they will both get the happiness that it is about time that they get (wow confusing sentence). Anywayzz, great chapter:D:D
thanx, so glad you liked it...they had to walk a long road but they're getting there :)

08/04/2006 06:05 pm
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YYYYYYYYYYESSSSSSSSSS!

Beautifully written, and once agian I sense the rollreversal from what you normally see in a Spuffy fic, with Spike trying to win Buffy. Very, very well done.
yeah, i like doing it this way, too :) thanx, glad you like it :)

FetchingMadScientist
08/04/2006 03:25 pm
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YES! It's about time!!!
thanx :)

Emilee
08/04/2006 02:47 pm
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Awwww! I'm teary! Excellent, just excellent. Very poignant. Can't wait for more.
thanx :)

kim
08/04/2006 01:48 pm
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So sad.....

I'm still scared for him. Even if things go well for a while, he's still not going to be the same Spike for a while. He was too broken down. Too exposed.
yeah, he's been through a lot...but things are looking up :)

Lou
08/22/2006 03:40 pm
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Come on, Spike - buck yourself up! It's sink or swim time.
:) yep thanx

08/09/2006 06:52 pm
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I decided to make up with Buffy. Yup. Uh-huh. What? I'm not that evil.So, I like a little Buffy-chase-Spike-for-a-change but always a spuffy fan at heart.
lol thanx

Robyn
08/07/2006 11:10 am
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Halfrek becoming human because of Spike's actions is very fitting for the cruelty that she subjected him to, I like that he realized that he wasn’t beneath anyone and that he had been the one to allow others to make him feel that way. I also like that when Spike told Buffy he needed to be alone that she respected him enough to let him go.
thanx ;)

08/06/2006 06:57 pm
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Poor Buffy, after she wailed the daylights out of Hallie, too.
lol

08/04/2006 10:50 pm
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Wow. Loved the fight.
thanx :)

pretty_in_fangs
08/03/2006 11:08 pm
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He's coming into his own all over the place, isn't he?
yeah pretty much :)

dare2differ
08/03/2006 06:06 pm
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What will happen to cecily
hmmm....don't know don't care :P lol

Leora
08/03/2006 04:00 pm
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I can't imagine Halfrek as a human again! More please....
:) thanx

08/03/2006 03:08 pm
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As what is slwoly becoming a tradition, after leaving my negative reviews for the latest chapter in Blood Bond, I decided to come back here and review your, in my opinion, better fics, this time Trusting You. A fic I found later on in it's life, I have really enjoyed the twists and turns. never able to guess what the story is about, it plays Spike much in the way that Buffy is.

In this chapter, we saw more role reversal,which makes me wonder if this will be the norm for the fic. if so, then joy. Spike is perfectly charecterized in this fic (Which makes me wonder why you are writing him like you are in Blood Bond): A poet hiding behind a mask of anger, who's first reaction is to either hide or destroy. The switching between him in Hallie in roles is perfect, and Buffy's decsion to let Spike go is written beautifully.

Personally, I would say focussolely on this fic and get it done, becauseit shows the greatest potential. An original story, with the charecters never OOC, and twists that leave you guessing.
thanx so much for your kind words...i'll continue working on both fics till they're done, but your opinion is noted ;) lol...glad you're enjoying this story :)

fallen_angel
08/03/2006 11:41 am
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I love the chaptertitles, they're so thoughtful and totally fit the chapter.

Loved what u did to Cecily.
thanx, glad you like them...i just choose a pertinent line from the chapter and use it as the title :) thanx so much :)

vladt
08/03/2006 05:40 am
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nice to see cecily, finally, get her's. will buffy? very good chapter, thank you
more soon :) thanx

Emily
08/02/2006 09:17 pm
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As I'm sure you are aware of, the words 'let him go' could mean more than what was (literally) intended there, and it worries me. Although the way the last few chapters it seems very unlikely that she has completely let him go (duh) it worries me a wee bit, for possibly foreshadowing reasons. Am i looking into this too much, or do you have to do one of those annoying (yet sometimes necessary) "you'll see:)" comments?
you'll see... :)

No, just kiddin'! lol :P

i'm well aware of that...and it's not likely that buffy is gonna actually let him go after trying so hard to this point, and after how hard he tried for her... thanx for the review :)

Kimberly Adams linnea2sweet@yahoo.com
08/02/2006 05:54 pm
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I just finished reading the new chapter and this story just won't let go. Hallie sure got hers didn't she? I enjoyed that Spike got back at her! I am going to wait until Blood Bound has way more chapters before I start reading again. I just have to see a more hope before I can put myself out there again in that story.
I am enjoying Buffy's humility and willingness to do what it takes to get Spike back, no matter what it takes.
I hope my reviews and comments make a difference since you never reply.
thanx so much, so glad you're enjoying this...your last statement confuses me though because i *always* reply...hmmm...are you not getting the responses on this site? thanx again for your kind words :)

08/02/2006 05:30 pm
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Oh, heartbreakingly the right thing for Spike to do. And, yay for smashing Hallie's pendant! Take that, bitch! LOL
glad you think so :) thanx

Bridget
08/02/2006 05:05 pm
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Okay, I understand that Spike is going through a lot. However, when is he going to stop feeling sorry for himself and make a decision one way or the other. I hope it is soon. I hope that Halfrek is not going to become a part of the story and a reason for additional conflict between Buffy and Spike.
give the guy a bit of patience...halfrek's appearance sort of threw him for a loop...and no, i dont plan on her being a major part of the story, there's not much left to the story anyway :)

08/02/2006 04:36 pm
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Bout damned time someone beat the snot outta that lil prissy bitch Halfrek... *Smirk*

Poor Spike... Poor Buffy...

Get them back together soon... with sweet tender bitey spuffy sex!
okay :P lol

Emilee
08/02/2006 04:13 pm
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Cecily is still a nasty bitch, no real surprise there. Having her powers revoked was perfectly fitting :) Excellent update, can't wait for more.
thanx, glad you like it :)

FetchingMadScientist
08/02/2006 03:46 pm
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*sniff* Now all that's left is the "coming back" part of, "If you love something, let it go..." Hope that comes soon, I don't know how much more of this I can take!:P
not too much left to take, i promise :)

08/02/2006 03:00 pm
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Dammit Spike....
lol...give the guy a break, he's kinda been through a lot

kim
08/02/2006 02:45 pm
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Oooo, brilliant. And William gets his long-waited-for revenge. Poor little Halfrek - not! I suppose she could beg D'Hoffryn to take her back, but she's not nearly the favorite Anya was.
lol...she so deserves whatever she gets :P thanx

08/09/2006 06:49 pm
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What can I say, I love Anya!
me too :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 10:59 am
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I loved Buffy’s openness and her pointing out that for her to regain Spike’s trust he would have to give her some to start. I really love Anya and her bluntness.
thanx :)

08/04/2006 10:48 pm
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Great chap. I like how you tied it in with the show's epi.
thanx, glad you like it

08/01/2006 07:32 am
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I always loved that part, when Anya called Halfreck on her spell.  Good chapter. :)
thanx, glad you like it :) next chappie should be interesting :)

08/01/2006 02:54 am
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Goddamn you Anya!!!
you hate everyone that's not spike or buffy, huh? ;) lol :P

08/01/2006 02:07 am
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Boy that was tear jerky. Reader sniffles and wipes away a tear.
awww...thanx :)

vladt
08/01/2006 01:24 am
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great read. love anya's attitude.
tahnx :)

fallen_angel
07/31/2006 08:54 pm
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I haven't read ur fic in such a ling while. RL'a a bitch! You though are amazing. I love how all the relationships are turning out. It's perfect. You are definitely the queen of spuffy fics
thanx, i'm glad you're enjoying it :)

Kimberly Adams/linnea2sweet@yahoo.com
07/31/2006 08:41 pm
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You just keep getting better and better! I love this story. I am eagerly awaiting the next chapter and the ones after that!!!!!

:) :) :) Kim
thanx, so glad you like it :)

Emily
07/31/2006 08:37 pm
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ARGGGHHH! Everything that has been said is so bloody true, but my patience (what little I have to begin with) is wearing thin. The amount of frustration going on here is criminal you little devil. It must be your objective to put us through the most amount of suffering while keeping the story realistic. Well congratulations, because it's working! ::grimace::
lol...patience, love.. :)

Emilee
07/31/2006 08:27 pm
Step by Step         
Okay that was mean. So many unresolved issues. Poor Buffy, poor Spike. This was an excellent chapter. Very moving. I can't wait to see how everything resolves. Will Spike take that leap of faith yet or not? And it sounds like Xander has some grovelling to do to make up to Anya, that is if he can.
thanx, glad you like it...yes, grovelling is in xander's future :)

07/31/2006 06:00 pm
Step by Step         
Very nice chapter. Good to see Buffy finally make the point that Spike must risk a little bit of himself if he hopes to find out if Buffy is telling the truth. Also, interesting role reversal with Anya and Xander...I hope it keeps up, and I hope that BOTH of them learn a lesson. While it's easy to see that Xander would learn one, I think Anya can learn one too...

Just a suggestion for a subplot with that, you could do it that at some point, Xander askes a question or two to Spike or another demon that embrasses Anya,and she snaps at him. At which point, both realize what the other one went through: Xander by his attitude, and Anya by not realizing that there is a difference between being frank and being just glaringly abrasive. Just a suggestion, but one that would be very, very interesting for both to see the other side.

We really do have alot of role reversals in this fic: Buffy is now the lover wanting a crumb, while Spike is the one distancing himself to protect his hear; Xander is the trailer that is treated badly and ignored while Anya is thrust into the protector/master role of the relationship. All we need now is for Tara to suggest using a spell on Willow that Willow is scared about and Tara getting mad and desperate. That's not to say I want that to happen, jsut saying what could happen.

Oh...and what will happen when Buffy meets the first woman to crush Wlliam's heart? I sense some angst and anger. Also, a chance for her to earn some of Spike's trust by beating Hallie up. :)
hmm...feel like writing a fic? :P ;) lol...some of your ideas are spot on with mine..others not so much...you'll just have to wait and see :) hope you like where i take this story :)

Bridget
07/31/2006 05:54 pm
Step by Step         
Good chapter. I think that Spike has to give Buffy a crumb. I understand the hurt she caused him but they can't move forward if he doesn't give her a chance.
i think he's coming to that realizaiton :)

kim
07/31/2006 03:13 pm
Step by Step         
True words are almost over. Wonder how long they'll all remember their lessons?

I'm glad Spike is still making her work for every inch.
she deserves to have to work for it..but i think she's doing a pretty good job of it, don't you? :)

Lou
07/31/2006 03:05 pm
Step by Step         
Come on Spike - gird your loins and gve the girl a chance!
i think he's about there... :)

08/09/2006 06:48 pm
His Last Love         
The ironic, poetic justtice-y reverse thing-loved it!
thanx :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 10:52 am
His Last Love         
Even with Xander having to tell the truth he still managed to tell her how he feels in a very wonky way.
lol too right ;)

08/04/2006 10:44 pm
His Last Love         
I am so glad I can go to 27 right away. the benefit of having toomany chap. to read.
thanx :)

dare2differ
08/03/2006 05:27 pm
His Last Love         
Do they get together
wait and see :)

07/30/2006 06:46 pm
His Last Love         
Like this much better than Xander dumping her. Much better.
thanx, me too :)

Tonia
07/30/2006 07:43 am
His Last Love         
Poor Anya ::sniffles::
Great chapter!
thanx :)

golddrake
07/30/2006 02:42 am
His Last Love         
great chapter
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/30/2006 01:22 am
His Last Love         
Yay, go Anya!
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/30/2006 12:47 am
His Last Love         
Great chapter.  Nice to see the tables turn for Xander and Anya.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Lou
07/29/2006 11:31 pm
His Last Love         
Hard home truths for Xander and not before time! Really well done.
thanx, glad you like it :)

vladt
07/29/2006 10:48 pm
His Last Love         
very good update. love anya. xander deserves nothing from her. thanks for the fine read.
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/29/2006 10:02 pm
His Last Love         
Nice chat with Anya. She never needs a truth spell; she's so straightforward. She deserves better than she's getting from Xander. Maybe the truth spell helped.
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/29/2006 09:59 pm
His Last Love         
great chapter xander really needs his butt kicked i hope spike whacks him again pity anya gave up the vengence gig she could turn him into the pig he is......

did i say i don't like xander eww hyena incident
thanx, glad you like it :)

Emilee
07/29/2006 08:07 pm
His Last Love         
Dammit! Now you've gone and made me feel sympathy for Xander. Excellent update, can't wait for more.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Emily
07/29/2006 08:00 pm
His Last Love         
It's about freaking time that Anya gets to show Xander what a bastard he can be. Good on ya!;)
thanx, glad you like it :)

Bridget
07/29/2006 06:00 pm
His Last Love         
Good chapter.
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/29/2006 05:59 pm
His Last Love         
More than one couple learning some hard truths in this fic and working on their trust issues. Nicely done -
thanx, glad you like it :)

kim
07/29/2006 05:46 pm
His Last Love         
Oh, very real...

And Anya wouldn't notice, at least not in herself, because she'd only be saying a little more truth than she already does. And yeah, the truth being out just shows how much work they need to do now, instead of the crash and collapse later. It should take some dead serious consideration.

Still say Buffy shouldn't have the chance as a girlfriend, yet. Friend - yeah, but not romantically. She hasn't earned that, yet.
thanx, glad you like it :)

08/09/2006 06:47 pm
William's Wall         
If I say that the answer should have been no, do I get classified evil?
lol...no :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 10:45 am
William's Wall         
When Buffy went to go back in the house I started to get teary eyes and even more so when Spike said ‘stay’. I love that she is really starting to know Spike and that she is reaching out to him the same way he used to reach out to her.
thanx so much :)

08/04/2006 10:42 pm
William's Wall         
no comment other then off to read 26 for his answer.
lol thanx :)

Kimberly Adams
07/29/2006 06:24 am
William's Wall         
This is one of my favorite stories and it just keeps getting better. I can't wait for the updates! You are terrific!

thanx, glad you like it :)

Emily
07/29/2006 04:45 am
William's Wall         
I hardly knew that so many different emotions were able to make someone cry before this story. Very touching, and i am anxiously awaiting the answer to the last question and the content of the next chapter.
thanx, glad you like it :)

dare2differ
07/28/2006 05:04 pm
William's Wall         
would spike forgive Buffy
thanx, glad you like it :)

Lou
07/28/2006 10:04 am
William's Wall         
All credit to Buffy for the hearfelt apology. Spike will just have to be brave and take the risk or I'll blub!
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/28/2006 08:52 am
William's Wall         
Yes! Yes! Give her a chance Spike! PLEASE!!
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/28/2006 04:00 am
William's Wall         
JL - you are as mean as a snake.
lol... :P

vladt
07/28/2006 02:47 am
William's Wall         
wonderful read, thank you.
thanx, glad you like it :)

B
07/27/2006 10:53 pm
William's Wall         
I keep meaning to review and always forget. Just to say I adore this story, have been following it from chapter one and i just love it. So realistic and almost heartbreaking whilst still having some hope to not make it depressing. Just the right mix of all the emotions. Really do like it alot. Am waiting eagerlly for the next chapter.
thanx, so glad you're enjoying it :) thanx for the review :)

07/27/2006 09:18 pm
William's Wall         
Beautifully written chapter.  This one got me.  So, what's Spike's answer gonna be?  I know, I gotta wait to find out.  *sigh*
thanx, so glad you liked it... more soon, i promise :)

07/27/2006 05:51 pm
William's Wall         
Has she talked enough yet to get Spike back at her side?
we shall soon see :)

MARGARET
07/27/2006 05:05 pm
William's Wall         
LOVE THIS STORY THANKS FOR THE UPDATE!
thanx so much, so glad you like it :)

kim
07/27/2006 03:35 pm
William's Wall         
Friends first! They need to build that kind of bond before the love is going to work. Feelings are real, but temporary. They need to like each other and have commonalities, and trust, that will get them through the times they don't feel like loving.

She can prove herself without them dating yet.
you're quite right...but she's been working at building the friendship back up...we'll see where it goes soon :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/27/2006 02:24 pm
William's Wall         
oh, so sweet.
thanx :)

07/27/2006 02:03 pm
William's Wall         
Please let him say yes. I'm sitting here crying because that was just so lovely. She can't lie so he knows she telling the truth when she says she loves him.Can't wait for the answer, will it be in next chapter I hope so.I've started biting my nails as I read this and I don't bite my nails.More soon please I'll get down on my knees and beg if you want. spike's mrs
awww..thanx, i'm awed that i've brought you to tears...so glad you're enjoying it..more soon i promise :)

01/29/2008 12:43 am
For What It's Worth         
oh  i love how you turned it around

cause lie xander said run to buffy in in to the woods

08/09/2006 06:46 pm
For What It's Worth         
Glad Xander came to his senses. Love the Willow/Tara.
thanx :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 10:34 am
For What It's Worth         
I loved Buffy's speech and the acceptance she demanded for Spike whether or not he takes her back. I'm glad that Xander finally realized that Buffy would never be his and what his foolishness was costing him.
thanx :)

08/04/2006 10:40 pm
For What It's Worth         
Will he make it? Will Anya take him back? I am off toread 25.
thanx :)

dare2differ
07/28/2006 04:43 pm
For What It's Worth         
For thefirst time xander is doing something smart
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/28/2006 03:54 am
For What It's Worth         
Great JL, very sweet Buffy and Happy Birthday.
thanx, glad you like it :) and thanx for the kind wishes :)

07/26/2006 07:36 am
For What It's Worth         
That was cool, the way you switched Buffy and Xander's roles there.  Nice chapter. :)
thanx, glad you liked it :)

vladt
07/26/2006 01:33 am
For What It's Worth         
excellent read. very good to see buffy speak the truth. very sad to see that xander might have an opportunity to redeem himself with anya. he does not deserve her. thanks for the wonderful read.
thanx, glad you like it...i like to let xander redeem himself, because i always felt like he mostly had a good heart, but let his motivations get all mixed up...thanx for the review :)

07/26/2006 12:13 am
For What It's Worth         
Nice speech by Buffy. Will Anya take Xander back? It's too bad she loves him; she deserves better. Is it Spuffy now?
it's been spuffy...just not always happy spuffy :)

07/25/2006 10:26 pm
For What It's Worth         
Yeah. Run, Xander. Run into a big pit full of pointy sticks, acid, and venomous snakes... and bunch of other nasty stuff
he deserves it, doesn't he? :)

kim
07/25/2006 08:20 pm
For What It's Worth         
Well, finally...on so many counts.
lol :)

Bridget
07/25/2006 07:53 pm
For What It's Worth         
Great chapter. I am glad that Buffy was completely honest with her friends, herself and Spike. I hope it is not too late for Xander but he should have to do a lot of begging to Anya.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Kimberly Adams linnea2sweet@yahoo.com
07/25/2006 05:46 pm
For What It's Worth         
Loved this chapter and what you did between Buffy and Spike! For her to finally be open and honest and let everyone know was just great and I thank you for that. I probably won't be able to handle Blood Bound for a little bit since I am too exhausted from packing and getting ready to move. I know, a coward...I will wait until I get to LA.
thanx, glad you like it..i know BB is getting a bit scary, but it'll all come out right in the end :)

07/25/2006 04:51 pm
For What It's Worth         
xander not very bright is he! he's only just realized that buffy's not intrested in him poor boy what it must be like to live in ignorance. there's a word that describes him perfectly ignoramus.well done buffy for standing up and telling them all how she's been feeling even if is because of the truth spell. perhaps spike's trust in her is going to grow again nowhe knows she can't lie.as for dawn it about time she learnt not to express wishes to complete strangers. as always jl brillant update
thanx so much, so glad you're still enjoying it :) and even if it *is* because of the truth spell....it is nevertheless *true*, and he cant deny that :)

Emilee
07/25/2006 02:42 pm
For What It's Worth         
Well, the light dawns! Hallelujah. Love the speech she made, it's a shame it took a truth spell for her to do it though. And, Buffy telling Xander to "Run" after Anya, is just kinda poetic irony. Since I'm a sucker for a happy ending, I hope that he catches her, and they work things out. Can't wait for the next update.
i liked writing it that way...glad you enjoyed it :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/25/2006 02:28 pm
For What It's Worth         
It's about time he got knocked on the side of the head with a clue-by-four.

Lovely speach from Buffy as well.
glad you liked it :)

Tonia
07/25/2006 02:14 pm
For What It's Worth         
Took him long enough.
Great chapter! =)
too true :)

Lou
07/25/2006 02:03 pm
For What It's Worth         
At last - Buffy is being straight with everyone. Never thought I'd live so long!
lol thanx

01/29/2008 12:38 am
The Man She Loves         

well that went well

08/09/2006 06:44 pm
The Man She Loves         
I hate Xander!
lol me too :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 10:00 am
The Man She Loves         
Xander really showed his foolishness here. He really doesn't seem to understand that no matter how much he might want it, Buffy will never be his. I love how Buffy not only stood up for Spike, she very clearly chose him when asked to make the choice.
thanx :)

08/04/2006 10:37 pm
The Man She Loves         
Xander when will you think before you talk?
did he ever? LOL

Emily
07/29/2006 04:33 am
The Man She Loves         
I have been away, so I'm gonna make this quick so I can go the next chapter, but Xander is such a WANK!
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/25/2006 07:18 am
The Man She Loves         
Ugh, can we kill Xander in an extremely painful way...?
probably not, unfortunately...

Tonia
07/25/2006 05:24 am
The Man She Loves         
Great chapter! I really want to stomp Xander! Spike was right. He does not deserve Anya. She needs someone better.
you're right, i know...but i myself am a sucker for a happy ending...so...

07/25/2006 02:04 am
The Man She Loves         
Wait just one minute evil writer girl. Xander Harris needs to have his butt kicked. Go right to your room and rewrite this chapter.
i'm a bit easy on the whelp, i know *sigh*

Lou
07/24/2006 11:55 am
The Man She Loves         
Terrific chapter. Buffy actually regained respect and deserves the chance to make amends. Xander was plain rancid!! I look forward to the next update.
you're right, she's definitely earning forgiveness...thanx for the review :)

vladt
07/24/2006 07:08 am
The Man She Loves         
very good read, thank you. feel sorry for anya. xander did not , hopefully yet, get anything near what he deserves.
xander may learn his lesson very soon :) thanx

07/24/2006 03:49 am
The Man She Loves         
great chappy!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanx :)

Kimberly Adams
07/24/2006 02:37 am
The Man She Loves         
just read the new chapters from both stories and again you outdo yourself every time! Blood Bound is too intense until I know for certain that Spike won't die and that it at least has a happy ending. I have a very hard time with unhappy endings...childish I know. I need the illusion of happiness sometimes. I look forward to more and more of trusting...and can't believe how dumb Xander is. I can't wait for Buffy to throw him out on his A--! I want more...
thanx, so glad you like it :) my stories usually have happy endings even though they can get scary at times..thanx again for the review :)

FetchingMadScientist
07/24/2006 01:02 am
The Man She Loves         
Has Xander forgotten about Anya's past? Is he stupid? Oh, wait...he is stupid! :)
yeah, but he's not thinking about that at the moment... :(

Tamara
07/24/2006 12:30 am
The Man She Loves         
Great chapter. The Scoobies always needed a bit of truth.
i agree :) thanx

lessie
07/23/2006 11:21 pm
The Man She Loves         
What an update! Everything's out in the open! This is so very well written and interesting, I check for updates every day. More please!
thanx, glad you're enjoying it so much :)

spike'smrs
07/23/2006 09:52 pm
The Man She Loves         
hey spike smacked xander hooray it's about time some one did and good for anya too, why should she keep having to put with his shit .
if i was buffy i would of kicked his arse into next weekend sorry about the rant but i hate xander.perhaps spike will now relize buffys feeling for him are also true, as she has defended her rights to be with him more than once now. it is gooding to turn out okay jl isn't pleaseee. spike'smrs
well xander deserves hating lol :) thanx for the review :)

Bridget
07/23/2006 08:35 pm
The Man She Loves         
Great chapter. All of these things needed to be said. I feel bad for Anya but Xander is a big loser and doesn't deserve her. He is so pitiful. I hope that Spike will have a good reaction to what happened for Buffy.
no he doesnt deserve her...more to come soon :)

07/23/2006 07:48 pm
The Man She Loves         
Another great chapter! Stupid, mean evil Xander! Poor Anya.

Does this mean that Spike trusts Buffy again now? 'cause he ought to, or at least give her another chance, 'cause she almost lost a bf over it. Even if said friend was being an ass.

Update soon :)
spikes_wish
xxx
well, they're getting there...after this night he wont be able to deny that she means what she said...thanx for the review :)

margaret
07/23/2006 06:17 pm
The Man She Loves         
well we all knew zander's an idiot! great update, hope spike will give in!. thanks
thanx, glad you like it :)

Dar
07/23/2006 05:26 pm
The Man She Loves         
Great update. poor Anya, Xander's the one who needs to be staked.
too right :)

Emilee
07/23/2006 05:16 pm
The Man She Loves         
GAH!!! He is such a stupid idiot!!! I'm glad Spike got in one good hit, because MAN he deserved it! Ooooh, I'm am just so pissed off at Xander right now! *deep breaths* Okay, that was a riveting update, and I really can't wait for more, even though I have to. I swear this story just keeps getting better.
yeah, xander needed it, he's a real jerk in this...more will be up soon :)

kim
07/23/2006 04:46 pm
The Man She Loves         
That asshole!!!! Anya finally had all her fears confirmed, poor girl. Maybe she could go see Giles? They had lots of chemistry in Tabula Rasa.

Since Buffy's already told her friends that she's in love with Spike, what else does she have to share? They already know that there's going to be a relationship, if Spike will take her back. Is she just repeating it for his sake?
yeah, i always liked giles/anya...she does need to say it where he can hear her...to publicly acknowledge, openly and honestly, what he means to her...you'll see in the next chapter what my particular take on that involves :) thanx for the review

07/23/2006 04:12 pm
The Man She Loves         
Xander is SUCH a prick...

GO BUFFY! *dances for joy*
GO SPIKE! *more dancing*

now... all we need is Spike and Buffy dancing horizontaly...

*giggle*
thanx, glad you enjoyed it...that last part...hopefully before the end of the fic..but not yet :)

Araedhel
07/23/2006 03:58 pm
The Man She Loves         
Great chapter! Xander had it coming.
thanx :)

08/09/2006 06:43 pm
Losing You         
Love the title!
thanx :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 09:51 am
Losing You         
What an emotional chapter. I do like the truths that the couples were sharing with each other. It was nice that Buffy had to tell Spike why she really did what she did, but even with that knowledge it is completely understandable why he still can’t allow himself to trust her.
thanx :)

08/04/2006 10:33 pm
Losing You         
Oh my.
:)

07/25/2006 06:52 am
Losing You         
NOOOOOO!! Come back SPIKE!!!! Gawd, you ASS!!!
he will...he will...

07/25/2006 01:57 am
Losing You         
Mean JL.
*sniff* *tear* :P

vladt
07/23/2006 01:28 am
Losing You         
very good update, thanks. have a bit of bother with spike leaving. thanks for the fine read.
thanx....he's really struggling through this..she's seriously damaged his trust in her...but it will all end well :)

07/22/2006 11:36 pm
Losing You         
Noo! Spike! What's wrong with you! You love her! She loves you!grr! Damn Buffy and her stupid game.

Great chapter as always, thanks for your review on Another Little Piece Of My Heart, glad to know you're still enjoying it.

Update soon!
spikes_wish
xxx
she brought this on herself :( ... thanx, glad you're enjoying this one :)

sheri
07/22/2006 03:24 am
Losing You         
yay! buffy really loves spike. that chapter title scared the bejesus outta me. i thought she was gonna do something stupid. great chapter. can't wait to see what happens next.
glad you liked the chapter :)

sheri
07/22/2006 03:18 am
Losing You         
yay! buffy really loves spike. that chapter title scared the bejesus outta me. i thought she was gonna do something stupid. great chapter. can't wait to see what happens next.
more soon :)

07/22/2006 01:39 am
Losing You         
I say this to you, often... and I will say it again.  You...  Are...  EVIL!  The First should envy you!  Bad...  Bad...  Person, you!  I need more!!!! :P hehe
lol... *hehe* thanx

Kim Adams
07/21/2006 06:22 pm
Losing You         
just finished and loved this chapter and loved the truth "spell" and how it brought the real truth of buffy's feelings. Definitely doesn't follow canon all the way and that is neat. You're the best!
thanx, glad you like it :)

Emily
07/21/2006 06:01 pm
Losing You         
I *knew* it! I KNEW IT!:( Stupid ass Buffy's screw up bit her in the ass again, and Spike got hurt, and they wont be able to fix it quickly cuz Buffy is still ignoring Dawn! And the worst thing is that I'm going away on vacation and won't be able to get your updates for nearly TWO WEEKS!! ::sob:: All the best til then, and you can bet the one of the first things I'm doing when I'm back is catching up.
i'll miss you while you're gone, have a good trip and thanx for your great reviewz! :)

Bridget
07/21/2006 05:34 pm
Losing You         
I am glad that Buffy spoke her true feelings to Spike. I hope she hasn't lost him. There has to be a way for him to really give her a chance again. Great chapter.
thanx, glad you like it... :) as to losing him, he already answered that question :)

Lou
07/21/2006 04:51 pm
Losing You         
Good lad!
i agree :)

kim
07/21/2006 04:29 pm
Losing You         
Yeah, Buffy needs to stop reacting to Dawn as an older sister, and start being a caretaker. With Joyce gone, they CAN'T stay in the old roles. Not until Dawn is out on her own as an adult.
And it comes out in a bratty way, but Dawn's feelings are real, so I'm glad Spike is going to be aware of how she's missed him, and been hurt by his absence.

Poor Anya...but at least this isn't their wedding day...and the others can finally realize that they treat her like Xander does, too.

There's hope for Willow and Tara, if Willow will stay mindful of the truths they've expressed.

And I'm glad the slate isn't wiped clean between Spike and Buffy. She still has to put in the time on changing her actions. It's not enough to know the truth. The truth doesn't erase the hurt. It might seem cowardly of Spike, but it really isn't, for Buffy still has to prove herself. It's still to early to risk taking her in again. And he needs to remember how to be his own man.
you're right on just about all counts...hope you like the rest as much :)

Emilee
07/21/2006 03:29 pm
Losing You         
That is so sad. Finally a good cathartic conversation and it's 'Spike' who runs away. Interesting role reversal. What is she going to have to do to win him back? I thought the Xander/Anya conversation was very moving. Poor girl. He's still a poophead, but better that things come out this way then be left at the alter. And Buffy really doesn't treat her sister very well. Poor Dawn. Do we have more truths coming to be revealed? Excellent update, can't wait for more.
kind of serves her right, don't it ? but it is sad for both of them...hope you like what's to come :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/21/2006 03:14 pm
Losing You         
OH dear. That was a very moving chapter. I loved the parralells between Willow/Tara and Buffy/Spike. Very nicely done.
thanx, glad you like it :)

spike'smrs
07/21/2006 03:02 pm
Losing You         
aw i want them to get back together. Spike knows how she truly feels thanks to the wish hallie granted for dawn. it's got to workout surely
in time....but he has to build his trust back up

Tonia
07/21/2006 02:57 pm
Losing You         
Ouch! :::wipes tears:::
i know, sorry :(

01/29/2008 12:27 am
So Many Secrets         
Oh this is gonna be good

08/09/2006 06:43 pm
So Many Secrets         
OOO... loved it!Buffy begged Spike to come to her party!
thanx :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 09:40 am
So Many Secrets         
What an interesting twist on the wish and it has so many possibilities. I am really looking forward to how it plays out.
thanx :)

08/04/2006 10:28 pm
So Many Secrets         
This should be good. Off to read 22
thanx :)

07/25/2006 06:20 am
So Many Secrets         
oh noes!!
oh yes :)

Tonia
07/20/2006 11:07 am
So Many Secrets         
Things are about to get ugly! All of the Scoobies are known for keeping things hidden and buring their heads in the sand. Can't wait to see the fireworks!
yep, should get interesting at least :)

vladt
07/20/2006 04:20 am
So Many Secrets         
great update, great set up. thank you. wasn't the wish something about truth? should make the next chapter highly entertaining. thanks for the great read.
yes exactly :) hope you like it :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/19/2006 11:33 pm
So Many Secrets         
::evil grin:; Oh, this should be good...
yep :)

spike's mrs
07/19/2006 09:46 pm
So Many Secrets         
um yeah i don't know what to say another great chapter, with spike a little nervous around buffy's friends, hope it's all going to work out okay
thanx :)

Kimberly Adams
07/19/2006 09:12 pm
So Many Secrets         
Another fantastic chapter, never enough though. Buffy had better NOT hurt Spike during the party or she deserves to be shattered in a million pieces. That is all I have to say...except, I want more!!!

:) Great writing!
you're so right :) thanx

Bridget
07/19/2006 08:39 pm
So Many Secrets         
Well this will be interesting. Can't wait to read the next chapter.
thanx ;)

Emily
07/19/2006 07:29 pm
So Many Secrets         
Oh! I'm really looking foward to next chapter!! I just hope that Spike won;t get hurt by anything that happens, even if it is what he does to himself. Great lead-up, as always, and I truly think that this plot turn will do loads for the story:)
we'll see...thanx, glad you like the twist :)

Araedhel
07/19/2006 06:15 pm
So Many Secrets         
Please write more soon. I love your story.
thanx :)

Emilee
07/19/2006 03:13 pm
So Many Secrets         
Oh you are sooo not nice with the teasing and the cliffhangers, and the suspense building!! :P This looks to be a very interesting development. Excellent update. Really can't wait for the next chapter.
thanx, hope you like it :)

Lou
07/19/2006 02:46 pm
So Many Secrets         
Dear peevish Dawn - when she grows up she'll find out why you don't tell kids everything!
lol...too right :)

08/09/2006 06:42 pm
Taking It Slow         
I just caught up.*Read up to chapter 31 in one go*. So I'm gonna review now.

Liked Buffy a little better here but still felt evil.
lol... :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 09:33 am
Taking It Slow         
What a huge step for Buffy, not only telling her friends about the relationship that she used to have with Spike, but to also tell them that she in pursuing him now. I do like how cautious Spike is being, for Buffy to truly appreciate what she regains from Spike she will really have to work for it.
thaxn :)

08/04/2006 10:26 pm
Taking It Slow         
Go Buffy. Keep trying.
:)

07/18/2006 12:17 am
Taking It Slow         
would be funny if she was following him the way he follows her, lol
lol :)

Emilee
07/17/2006 11:15 pm
Taking It Slow         
Even though this is obviously hard for him, I'm so glad he's finally stopped sublimating himself to Buffy's needs. Love's bitch sounds romantic, but every healthy relationship requires two people, not a person and a shadow. Are you planning on having any sort of confrontation with the Scoobies or having Riley show up? Or will it stay just the two of them? Can't wait for the next update.
you're right, they need to be equal partners...the others will be showing up next chapter :)

07/17/2006 11:12 pm
Taking It Slow         
well that is what she gets. I am very happy that she is really trying to get him back the right way. And I just hope that Spike doesn't get his feelings hurt any longer.
yeah, she's trying...but she'll have to earn it :)

Lou
07/17/2006 11:01 pm
Taking It Slow         
I'm right with Spike on the 'who are you and what've you done with the Slayer'!
lol :)

Emily
07/17/2006 08:26 pm
Taking It Slow         
This looks really good. It looks like sheer torture for both of them, but it finally looks like it is possible for there to be a *healthy* relationship between them. Hallelujah, Buffy may actually get it:)
yeah, it's hard, but it will be worth it for them :)

Morrigan
07/17/2006 06:08 pm
Taking It Slow         
Wonderful Spike POV of Buffy's attempt to regain his trust.  I really liked the way you wrote his thoughts and feelings on the subject.
thanx, glad you like it :)

07/17/2006 05:13 pm
Taking It Slow         
I like Spike's new attitude. Like that he grew a backbone. And the same goes for the new and improved Buffy. I hope they can build something new and better together. Great chapter.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Bridget
07/17/2006 04:58 pm
Taking It Slow         
Good chapter. I am glad that Spike still loves Buffy so much. I don't think it would be believable if he didn't. I also like how none of the other characters are in the story. It makes it much more intimate.
of course he still loves her...but this will still take work...and as of next chapter, the other characters will be making an appearance....it'd be hard for her to *really* prove herself without showing the way she treats him around the others now :)

spike'smrs
07/17/2006 04:39 pm
Taking It Slow         
Please let them get back together, their so good together. Even though they are like chalk and cheese, they need each other. I know Buffy broke Spike's trust, but hasn't he punished her enough yet.
they will, they will...but this isn't about him punishing her...he needs to *know* he can trust her after what she did, and that would take time, hon... :-\

07/17/2006 04:23 pm
Taking It Slow         
Well, well, Buffy being kind and sensible and thoughtful and not keeping secrets. That is a twist.
isnt it? thanx :P

Robyn
08/07/2006 08:44 am
All I Can Ask         
I loved the truth of Spike’s statement, ‘You don’t have to trust to love someone’ as well as everything else that he said. He really showed how much he loves Buffy by being willing to even give her a chance to prove herself I just hope for his sake and happiness that she can.
thanx so much :)

08/04/2006 10:24 pm
All I Can Ask         
How is she gonna earn his trust? can't wait to read on.
thanx :)

Lou
07/17/2006 10:54 pm
All I Can Ask         
I hope he's not going to get over this like some 24-hour bug!
of course not...:P have a *little* faith in me! :)

Bridget
07/17/2006 05:38 am
All I Can Ask         
Great chapter. I am glad that Spike is giving Buffy the crumb she never gave him. I know that Buffy will probably make mistakes in trying to prove her love for Spike but I hope that eventually it will be Spuffy.
yes, because he really does love her...buffys gonna have to wrok hard but she can do it :)

07/16/2006 10:02 pm
All I Can Ask         
Buffy begging - love it. Wonderfully tearful.
she deserves to beg, doesnt she? :)

Emilee
07/16/2006 06:44 am
All I Can Ask         
Nice character development. I'm glad she finally sees the light. But I don't think Spike can bear to make her work too hard. I feel so bad for both of them. And unfortunately I sense a certain lackage of forthcoming smut. Can't wait for the next chapter.
he probably cant stand to make her work as hard as he should...but she's gonna have to earn him back :)

sheri
07/16/2006 04:33 am
All I Can Ask         
aww. poor spikey. i hope buffy's feelings for spike for genuine, cuz she's got a hell of a lot to make up for. great chapter. can't wait for more.
she sure does :) thanx

07/16/2006 02:11 am
All I Can Ask         
pleeaaase make it happier soon *whimpers*
soon :)

Typerbabe57
07/16/2006 01:30 am
All I Can Ask         
I'm loving this. It'll be great to see Buffy trying to win Spike--chase after him--for a change. Can't wait to see how this plays out.
yeah, she has a lot to make up for, doesn't she?

07/15/2006 11:13 pm
All I Can Ask         
the sad thing is, spike really *shouldn't* trust her -- not now, not ever.

the minute willow or giles or especially xander express any of their usual anti-demon/anti-spike crap, buffy will not stand up for spike, or for her relationship with him...
well, maybe she's actually learned a thing or two from this :)

vladt
07/15/2006 10:47 pm
All I Can Ask         
powerful read, thank you. buffy received more than she deserved from spike. what she has done in the previous chapters did not warrant a chance so easily. thanks again for the great read.
true, she did...thanx :)

vladt
07/15/2006 10:40 pm
All I Can Ask         
powerful read, thank you. buffy received more than she deserved from spike. what she has done in the previous chapters did not warrant a chance so easily. thanks again for the great read.
thanx :)

07/15/2006 09:56 pm
All I Can Ask         
Poor, poor Spike.  I love that you kept him strong through this.  No matter how hard it would be for him to reject her advances, to do otherwise would have made it too easy for Buffy to hurt him again.  Wonderful chapter.
you're right, but he cant be too hard on her and still be in character...cause he just loves her too much

Emily
07/15/2006 08:07 pm
All I Can Ask         
Once again, you have taken strong, confused emotions and just thrown them in our face. This story is starting to worry me, because you estimated 17 or so chapteres. JL, if you end this story too quickly I very well may just go completely barmy. I *need* for this to end properly, happy ending or no; and although i have no doubts about your writing skills, I just want to say that somehow you will be paying for my therapy bills if this ends abruptly. Just a friendly warning:)
my stories always go a bit over...right now i'm thinking about 25 maybe? :) thanx for the review

fallen_angel
07/15/2006 07:59 pm
All I Can Ask         
No chances for Buffy! Absolutely none! Make her SUFFER! SUFFER!SUFFER!....ok... I'm evil...so what?
lol...spike loves her more than you do :P

spike'smrs
07/15/2006 07:30 pm
All I Can Ask         
Crying again how could you make it so sad. I hope Buffy learnt her lesson and Spike will let Her prove that she really does love him. More pleaseeee...........

It's wonderful
we'll see :)

07/15/2006 06:39 pm
All I Can Ask         
I wish that he'd held out longer and made her suffer more. While Spike understands and deeply feels what he is saying, I think Buffy is still very much involved in her own discomfort and doesn't truly understand what she has done and how far she has to go. I still think she is totally untrustworthy. It would be better if Spike were strong enough to leave the town. Looking forward to seeing what happens next.
you're possibly right...but he can't be *too* hard on her because he loves her too much in spite of it all :(

07/15/2006 06:37 pm
All I Can Ask         
:)

golddrake
07/15/2006 05:46 pm
All I Can Ask         
great chapter
thanx :)

kim
07/15/2006 05:41 pm
All I Can Ask         
He's a smart one...really understands the psychology, though he hasn't been human in so long.

And hey! You used "love is a choice" - exactly what she needed to learn.
yep, spike's perceptive all right..thanx :)

Robyn
08/07/2006 07:18 am
Won't Play This Game         
I really love how truthful Spike is, he was truthful when he trusted her and now he is telling her point blank exactly what she did and why she is no longer worthy of his trust. She really did end up with exactly what she was working for.
thaxn so much :)

08/04/2006 10:22 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Wow. I need to read a few more chaps to catch up. Off I go.
thanx :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/15/2006 03:14 am
Won't Play This Game         
God, what an emotional chapter. Hurry with the next, because I don't feel like I can breath.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

movingbox
07/14/2006 05:28 pm
Won't Play This Game         
You realize this should pretty much break Buffy? Her fears have become self-fulfilling. And whatever head she may have made during the earlier chapters will be destroyed by this proof: Her love is dangerous, hurtful. I honestly don't know how you intend to go forth from here.
I'm not sure this is fixable even with someone they both trust to run interference. If you can find that someone. Joyce may have been able to, but she's dead.
Really good story so far.
well, i'm not sure i agree..i think she could pick up on the fact that it's not her love, but her *denial* of her love, that hurt spike...this is fixable, but not without a lot of hard work on buffy's part :)

07/14/2006 10:36 am
Won't Play This Game         
That's right, Spike.  Tell her, good and proper!
:)

vladt
07/14/2006 04:51 am
Won't Play This Game         
wonderful read, she earned all of it. thanks for the great chapter.
she sure did, didn't she?

07/14/2006 02:57 am
Won't Play This Game         
Reader wipes away a tear and begs author to fix Buffy's mess.
trying :)

Tonia
07/13/2006 10:06 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Great chapter! Seems Buffy got exactly what she wanted. ::shakes head:: Stupid girl.
we'll see if she learned her lesson :)

07/13/2006 10:00 pm
Won't Play This Game         
*cries* stop it! stop it!
sorry *tucks head* thanx

Emilee
07/13/2006 07:30 pm
Won't Play This Game         
And I repeat, Ouch. Am I right to be anticipating a emotional breakdown on Buffy's part? She KNOWS she f***ed up. She not only has to apologize and make him realize she means it, but she has to explain her frame of mind for the whole set up. Not that "for his own good" is really going to go over real well with Spike either, but she does at least owe him that. I'm really feeling for her in this fic, and S6 Buffy was not someone who I could dredge up alot of sypathy for. Excellent update. I understand his anger now. *lightbulb flashes* Can't wait for the next chapter.
yeah, she has a lot to make up for...so glad i'm making you feel for her...glad you like it :)

Emily
07/13/2006 05:52 pm
Won't Play This Game         
I'm getting a little sick of crying because of this fic. I want a happy ending now! *sniff* Otherwise, that was a great chapter, I'm always so impressed with how you are able to capture Spike's (or Buffy's for that matter) emotion so well, and to be able to display it in a way that they would.... did that sentence make any sense?? It basically means good characterization... Anyways, great chapter, and im really *really* REALLY anxiously awaiting the next one.
thanx, glad its touching you...more soon :)

07/13/2006 04:45 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Very intense chapter. I thought it odd that after all he had been through that night, he'd chose that very moment to freak out, but his explanation makes sense. It's mean of me to say, but I'm almost glad she lost at her own game. She was so cruel and selfish that she deserves this. Let's just hope she can find a way to make it up to him. Oh well, if Spike is single, I'm available lol ;)
thanx, glad you liked it and it made sense :)

FetchingMadScientist
07/13/2006 04:12 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Wow...Buffy's really messed up. Be careful what you wish for, you may get it. Too bad she hasn't learned that the feelings don't stop because you've stop saying the words. She will have to grovel, BIG TIME, and I hope she does. If only there was a way for her to prove that she trusted *his* love for her like she says she does. Get ready to beg, Slayer! :)
yep, she's got a lot to make up for :)

Araedhel
07/13/2006 02:54 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Update soon, Please!
ok :)

Bridget
07/13/2006 02:49 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Good explanation of why Spike left. I hope that they can find a way to get past this. Great chapter.
eventually they will :)

spike'smrs
07/13/2006 02:26 pm
Won't Play This Game         
great fantansic brilliant wonderful i can't praise this fic enough i gets better every chapter i ca't believe buffy want and broke spike so now he won't trust her again when he did before she started this stupid game with his emotions stupid buffy she needs her backside smacked repeatadly
yeah, she's got a lot to fix now for her stupid little game :-\

Lou
07/13/2006 02:25 pm
Won't Play This Game         
I couldn't have put it better myself. Really well done!
thanx :)

Tamara
07/13/2006 02:23 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Great way to have Spike react. I don't blame him one bit.
thanx, glad you like it :)

kim
07/13/2006 01:33 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Denser than a box full of rocks, she is.

It's not going to matter now if she explains her whole thought process to him. Even if he'd believe that she loves him after the whole speech, he still wouldn't trust her.

She didn't stop to think about anything but her own self, didn't save him any pain at all, so she really doesn't deserve him. It would take years for her to deserve him.

He shouldn't trust her anymore. After all, she's not even sane. Her delusions and cruelty prove that. Angelus would be so proud of her little mind game. She accomplished something even he could never do to Spike.

Kick her bony ass out the door.
you're right, but maybe she's learned her lesson a bit through all of this...spike's going to give her a bit more than you would -- or i would, for that matter -- :)

07/13/2006 01:23 pm
Won't Play This Game         
Really good chapter. I would love it if he could actually keep her away from himself, but if not, then I hope she finally learns her lesson.
he cant, not for long, but she may have learned her lesson after all :)

fallen_angel
07/13/2006 01:12 pm
Won't Play This Game         
It's settled, I'm a vindictive person:evil: I'm sooo enjoying seeing Buffy suffer. Don't stop it for a couple of chapters, please! Oh and a message for Buffy:plzdie
well, yeah...she deserves it!thanx :)

01/29/2008 12:03 am
Not About Me         
thois is a greeat written chapter it just goes to prove a certain person can only take so much

Robyn
08/07/2006 07:02 am
Not About Me         
The pain that Buffy caused Spike made my heart hurt for him, I’m glad that when he realized her full perfidy that he left without looking back.
thanx :)

07/14/2006 02:51 am
Not About Me         
JL!!! How could you!
how could i not, after all she did to him? thanx for the review :)

vladt
07/12/2006 09:06 pm
Not About Me         
wonderful tale, loved the update. you could end the tale here and it would be fitting. but i know i will enjoy the rest. thanks for the fine read.
you're right, i could...but i always go for the happy ending...cruel, viciously painful story, but a happy ending... :P lol

tg1982
07/12/2006 01:48 pm
Not About Me         
I now get why you're fallen_angel's favorite author. This fic's reallly good. Really hope Spike won't forgive Buffy easily. She needs a lesson on appreciation!
awww..that's so sweet!! so glad you're liking it...yeah, she's gonna have to earn his forgiveness back :-\

07/12/2006 12:30 pm
Not About Me         
Whoa.  Just...  whoa.  Buffy deserved that.  But, it's still like, ouch!
yeah, she did deserve it... now let's see if she can fix it

07/12/2006 03:33 am
Not About Me         
well she finally got what she wanted. She better work HARD to try and fix this. I don't blame him if he never forgives her.
she will have to, i promise...he has every right to be angry

kim
07/12/2006 01:27 am
Not About Me         
Ha! Ha, ha, ha....

Bitch gets what she deserves, after all.
lol yep

07/11/2006 11:53 pm
Not About Me         
Bugger...
lol

Emily
07/11/2006 10:52 pm
Not About Me         
*sob*
:(

Tonia
07/11/2006 10:08 pm
Not About Me         
Stupid, stupid, stupid Buffy.
::shakes head:: Will she ever learn? She's definatly right about one thing. She doesn't deserve him.
Loved the chapter even though I wanted to smack Buffy, repeatedly.
thanx, glad you liked it...she's learning her lesson now, though :)

Tina
07/11/2006 09:53 pm
Not About Me         
Grat fic. Update soon
thanx :)

Tia
07/11/2006 09:52 pm
Not About Me         
I've been meaning to read this for ages, but never got a chance. This is a very nice fic. Hope to read more soon.
thanx, glad you're enjoying it :)

Emilee
07/11/2006 08:05 pm
Not About Me         
Ouch. Good chap, although I have to admit to being a little confused about the reason Spike is so mad. Not that he doesn't have a right to be. I'd be disappointed in him if he didn't get angry over this whole thing. I just don't understand the path taken. Are you going to elaborate in the next addition or am I just being slow on the uptake? I'm quite willing to say it's me. Can't wait for more.
his reasons will be more clear in the next chapter...they're not really supposed to be clear yet, so you're not slow :) thanx for the great review :)

07/11/2006 08:04 pm
Not About Me         
THAT's what it took?? I'm comfused as hell by Spike's reaction. One minute, he's willing to forgive her for almost letting him dust just to prove a stupid point, then he completely freaks out because she wanted to convince him to leave her? Granted, it does make her a selfish, heartless coward, but it makes more sense than doing all this just to prove he doesn't trust her. I don't get him. I guess there will be more explanations in the next chapter.
his reaction will be better explained in the next chapter...there's more to it than that, but buffy doesnt know yet, and therefore neither do you :P lol thanx for the great review :)

07/11/2006 07:02 pm
Not About Me         
OMG! What will she have to do to get him back? If she tells him she love him, that should help.
well, maybe -- except that the last time she said those words she basically used them to break his heart... :\

fallen_angel
07/11/2006 04:56 pm
Not About Me         
I want her to die too!
now, now...the girl's finally learning her lesson the hard way

spike'smrs
07/11/2006 04:31 pm
Not About Me         
what did she expect playing with his emotins like that of course in just going to walk away can't believe this is almost finished what'll i read daily story is fantastic
yeah, she's going to finally learn her lesson

Lou
07/11/2006 03:19 pm
Not About Me         
Good on ya, Spike. I wouldn't come back if I was you, mate!
he wont...it's buffy's turn to go to him for once :)

Bridget
07/11/2006 02:58 pm
Not About Me         
Great chapter. Very heartbreaking. I am glad that Spike left the room. I hope that Buffy will finally be honest with herself and Spike. Great writing, I could feel every word.
thanx, glad it touched you... thanx so much for your kind words

Tamara
07/11/2006 02:28 pm
Not About Me         
Buffy's finally learned to be careful what she wishes for .
yep :(

01/28/2008 11:57 pm
Wish I Knew         

OMFG

i'm in tears here

 

how could you be so cruel to poor spike?

 

i mrean i know buffy'sa coming to relisations and everything but

 

flipping heck

07/14/2006 02:47 am
Wish I Knew         
Angsty - thy name is JL.
yep :)

Robyn
07/11/2006 06:29 am
Wish I Knew         
Buffy finally realized that Spike would rather die then give up on her, it’s too bad that it took so much for her to understand this. I loved every point that Spike brought up about Buffy and her lack of faith in herself, and I particularly liked it when Spike reminded her that Dawn is about the same age she was when her involvement with Angel started. I am really looking forward to finding out how Buffy reacts.
yeah, she's already done a lot of damage...glad you liked spike's points :) thanx for the review

vladt
07/11/2006 04:22 am
Wish I Knew         
let him dust buffy, he deserves so much more than you. very good read, thank you
you're so right

spike'smrs
07/10/2006 08:50 pm
Wish I Knew         
crying again this story breaking my heart i love it i still can't believe she won't listen to her own heart
so glad it touched you :)

07/10/2006 08:05 am
Wish I Knew         
Ugh!  Stupid Buffy.  Get off of your self-pitying ass and let him go!  Ooh, she ticks me off.  You write her so well, it's like I can see her and it makes me want to choke the daylights out of her.  I hope she hurries up and gets over there, though.
thanx, glad you like the way i write her...even if it makes you feel murderous...lol :P

fallen_angel
07/10/2006 01:59 am
Wish I Knew         
I stand by my last review.
:)

pretty_in_fangs
07/09/2006 10:16 pm
Wish I Knew         
::whimper::
:(

Emily
07/09/2006 09:24 pm
Wish I Knew         
Finally, you have broken me down. I was trying so hard to not cry at all in this fic, but damnit, i jsut couldnt do it. Whaaaaa! Great chapter and emotion, but so sad:(
yea! victory! lol :P j/k thanx :)

Lou
07/09/2006 07:44 pm
Wish I Knew         
She's definitely lost her marbles!
lol

07/09/2006 07:07 pm
Wish I Knew         
Ouch! I hope she gets a grip within the next few seconds!
she will :)

07/09/2006 07:05 pm
Wish I Knew         
Yikes! Stop dithering Buffy! What will be enough for her? More story please.
she's about had enough, i promise :)

Emilee
07/09/2006 06:16 pm
Wish I Knew         
Excellect update. Very emotional. Poor Spike. He has the right to be so very pissed off with her when she lets him out. She is gonna let him out right? Can't wait to find out more.
you know by now... :) thanx for the review :)

Bridget
07/09/2006 06:11 pm
Wish I Knew         
Unbelievable. I can't believe you let it end here. You must update this chapter today. It is really heartbreaking. You are doing a great job writing Buffy's thoughts and Spike's emotions. Thanks for the great writing.
update coming up soon :) thanx

07/09/2006 06:02 pm
Wish I Knew         
Well unchain him you big dufus!!
and a big duh to that :)

07/09/2006 05:22 pm
Wish I Knew         
Wow. Very moving.
thanx :)

07/09/2006 05:05 pm
Wish I Knew         
Heartbreaking. I hope she makes the right decision.
thanx :)

07/09/2006 03:49 pm
Wish I Knew         
You're breaking my heart here, you know. Absolutely sobbing for my poor vamp.
not meaning to sound mean, but...good :)

kim
07/09/2006 02:57 pm
Wish I Knew         
She admits he's right, but she still won't choose the right course? Bitch! Get over yourself and grow a pair, Buffy. This is bloody ridiculous. You're always going to be hurting yourself here more than Spike, really, because he loves unconditionally enough to have faith. And he's stronger than you because he's always eventually been honest with himself.

She's never really done that a day in her life.
yeah, she's about to learn her lesson the hard way

Robyn
07/09/2006 03:49 am
The Theory         
I love how insightful Spike was about the reason Buffy is doing this, she wants to break his trust in her because she doesn't trust herself not to hurt him. That makes about as much sense as stubbing your toe so you cut it off. I really hope that Spike can reach her before she does something that she will end up forever regretting and not only emotionally destroying him but possibly anything positive that is left in her.
thanx, glad you like it...she's definitely doing more harm than good...but we'll see how far it goes...

07/08/2006 11:51 am
The Theory         
Yeah, tell it true, Spike!  Great chapter.
thanx :)

07/08/2006 04:19 am
The Theory         
Bad buffy, bad *smacks her*
lol

07/08/2006 02:24 am
The Theory         
I really hope Spike can get through to Buffy before he really gets hurt. She better really listen to his words and to her HEART.
we'll see :)

07/08/2006 12:05 am
The Theory         
JL, you scared me there for a minute. Even Buffy isn't that cruel.
no...but she doesn't know that yet

07/07/2006 11:37 pm
The Theory         
That's what I feared.. Buffy will make Spike leave her. Well she tried and is on her way to do it. ~ I wonder what Buffy will say to Spike's theory.
thanx :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/07/2006 10:15 pm
The Theory         
Well, he's certainly hit the nail on the head.
doesn't he always?

Emily
07/07/2006 09:47 pm
The Theory         
Arghh!!!! Is she going to leave him or isn't she?? The thing is, I believe that Buffy can be cold-hearted enough to leave after that speech (the 'how much it means' one). She has proved it again and again that she is able to be cruel no matter what has happened previously or what is in her heart. I just really hope that this story will have a happy ending.
yeah, she's just too convinced of her own bad nature..she *came back wrong*...but my stories pretty much always have happy endings :)

07/07/2006 09:17 pm
The Theory         
fine read, thanks. buffy is on the edge.
yep thanx :)

kim
07/07/2006 09:12 pm
The Theory         
So caught up in her delusions, she doesn't even realize that she already made successful love choices last night when she was honest and real with him, letting him love her as he's always wanted to.
That's really what Buffy doesn't get, that love isn't about feelings, it's about choices, and she's just as capable of good choices as any other sentient being. Love is a verb, it's about actions - and Spike is right on the money about her fear. This night had nothing to do with Spike. It's all about her brain.
you're exactly right...she's out-psyching herself, and she'll lose everything if she's not careful..

fallen_angel
07/07/2006 07:51 pm
The Theory         
BSV went fatal-error-mumbo-jumbo on me so had to review this on SR but i'll do it again:
This chappie made me want to cry (for Spike mostly.No one writes spuffy angst like you do. every time I read a fic of yours i fall in love with spuffy and Spike all over again. you totally rule!
thanx so much for your very kind words :)

07/07/2006 05:25 pm
The Theory         
Interesting! Can't wait for more.
thanx :)

margaret
07/07/2006 05:25 pm
The Theory         
i really hope you're planning on buffy waking up soon...maybe spike's theory will help her make up her mind
we'll see :)

07/07/2006 05:23 pm
The Theory         
I don't care that she hasn't done it yet, just the fact she planed on leaving him there is disgustingly cruel. I don't care what her reasons are, I've reached the point where I'm hoping he'll dump her. The girl needs a psychiatrist, that what she needs. Although, maybe Spike's on the right track with his little theory. I'm not sure anything he would say could snap her out of her delusions though. So we'll see. Excellent angst by the way =)
she is majorly hurting him here...but we'll see what happens :)

Bridget
07/07/2006 04:10 pm
The Theory         
Please don't let Buffy break his heart. This is heartwrenching.
thanx :)

Emilee
07/07/2006 03:05 pm
The Theory         
Wow! The convultuted turns her mind takes. I am in awe. Actually, I'm curious if you have anykind of RL background in psychology/therapy, b/c the emotions and revelations seem very insightful, and very real. She's really underestimated him. Can't wait for the next update.
a bit, actually...all amateur and unofficial mind you, but pscyhology is a fascinating subject to me and i've learned quite a bit...thanx for the great review :)

07/07/2006 02:47 pm
The Theory         
If she doesn't know by now that Spike will stay there-until he's *dust* just because she wants him to...then that *clears throat*... Slayer doesn't deserve him!
you're quite right...but she never was the most perceptive one was she?

spike'smrs
07/07/2006 02:26 pm
The Theory         
ah don't yer love him he still trust her after she tied him up again hope she gonna work out soon theres nothing she can do to break his trust in her not to hurt him
she's swiftly approaching that point :) thanx

01/28/2008 11:45 pm
Gone         
1 sound bout this chapter

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

07/06/2006 09:49 am
Gone         
Awww!  So sweet!  I absolutely LOVED this chapter.
thanx..so glad you liked it...don't stone me for the next one :P

07/06/2006 06:14 am
Gone         
Lovely, just lovely.
thanx :)

Typerbabe57
07/06/2006 04:52 am
Gone         
Awwwww! Um, he's not dreaming or something, is he?
no, not dreaming... :-\

07/06/2006 04:40 am
Gone         
Please tell me Buffy has finally opened her eyes? No more broken hearted Spike o.k?
soon...soon, i promise ;)

07/06/2006 03:58 am
Gone         
That was lovely, JL.
thanx :)

vladt
07/06/2006 03:08 am
Gone         
beautiful read, thanks. is it real? or is she going to use it against him?
not telling yet :)

Kendra
07/06/2006 02:41 am
Gone         
Hee:):):) Yay! Don't mess it up.
lol...don't stone me if i do :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/06/2006 12:12 am
Gone         
::happy, quavering sigh:: What a beautiful chapter.
thanx :)

Emily
07/05/2006 10:48 pm
Gone         
That was so cute and fluffy and I'm very very happy right now. And if Buffy dares to fuck this up again I will be sooooooo damn agree. But let's hope that doesnt happen. Great provocative and emotional writing. Any word on for how much longer this fic will continue?
just a few more chapters on this one...i'm guessing about three? thanx for the great review :)

07/05/2006 09:00 pm
Gone         
Ohhhhhh, so sweet *bounces around*
thanx :)

margaret
07/05/2006 08:02 pm
Gone         
this is such a beautifully written chapter, i love that buffy is telling spike how she feels, but i really hope it's not part of her plan. love the story thanks
we'll see.. thanx :)

spike'smrs
07/05/2006 06:31 pm
Gone         
i did know i could be made to cry read a story that was wonderful i love the part where spike tells her not to say she loves him unless she means it gonna go and get a tissuse now cause i'm bawling(crying forgot your american)thanks it@s great so far more soon please! spike's mrs
thanx, so glad you liked it...(and we americans say 'bawling' too :P ) lol...

07/05/2006 06:23 pm
Gone         
Wow that was just perfect.
thanx :)

Robyn
07/05/2006 05:44 pm
Gone         
This was so beautiful and touching and for me tinged with a touch of dread. Spike might trust Buffy but I'm not so sure that I do, I do believe that she told the truth but that doesn't mean that she will still be there for him in the morning. I am desperately, but patiently, waiting to see what happens. :)
you are a perceptive person...she did tell the truth...but that doesn't make her trustworthy.. :) thanx

Bridget
07/05/2006 05:06 pm
Gone         
Great chapter. Beautifully written. Thank you.
thanx :)

Emilee
07/05/2006 03:33 pm
Gone         
This was very beautiful, and sweet, and touching. But I gotta admit, I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. The last peek we had into Buffy's head, was that this was gonna be the last time, and she had to break him to get him over her, and now he's in a really vulnerable place. So I think this, for me, is really more suspenseful then your other chapters when physical harm was the worst she was planning. Can't wait for the next chapter.
you're right to be a bit worried...buffy's still got a bit to learn...thanx for your great review, more coming up soon :)

01/28/2008 11:41 pm
Giving You Me         
It took all his strength not to tell her he was sorry, not to back down.

Buffy quickly recovered, however, donning her own smirk as she shot back, “Yeah. Just didn’t think you knew how to use it.”

He knew that the hurt showed in his eyes, in the instant before he quickly looked away.

*And we’re back to the whole ‘nothin’ but her soddin’ whore’ routine,* he thought bitterly. *Bollocks. I *am* really that pathetic.*

The pain in his eyes had a softening effect on the Slayer, who was suddenly kneeling in front of him, her hand releasing his hair to touch his cheek gently and turn his face back toward her.

He was surprised at the regret, the sadness, he saw in her eyes. “I’m sorry,” she said softly, leaning in to follow her words with a slow, tender kiss.

It was hardly enough.

He was as unresponsive as she had ever seen him be to her, submitting to her kiss, but not actively returning it. She withdrew her mouth from his, slowly, a frown of concern forming on her face, as she took in the firm set of his jaw, the way he leaned slightly away from her, keeping his eyes averted – everything in his stance speaking of hurt and anger.

Buffy froze, a cold feeling akin to dread building in her chest. Was this it? Had she finally succeeded in hurting him badly enough that he would walk away from her? It was what she had wanted – wasn’t it?

Then why was the thought so terrifying to her?

“Can you forgive me?” she whispered, unconsciously holding her breath in anticipation of his answer. For a long, excruciating moment, he did not move, did not look up, as she waited for him to speak.

When his eyes finally rose to meet hers, wide and honest and glistening with tears, her breath was stolen away from her again, as he whispered, shaking his head slowly, a sad, ironic, yet beautiful smile on his full, slightly trembling lips.

“Buffy – Buffy, love – how can you even ask me?”

The tone of his voice made his answer clear – so full of love and devotion, even after everything. Her chest ached with a deep sorrow as she thought about the exercise in torment and pain that had been her treatment of Spike over the past few months. He gave her absolutely everything he had to give, submitting his very life into her hands – and she gave him nothing but punishment and pain in return.

She knew by now that her words could hurt him much worse than her fists ever could – so of course, that was what she dealt him. Harsh, demeaning comments designed to belittle him and crush his spirit.

And yet he loved her.

Was there *nothing* that he would not forgive her?

As she gazed into those open, expressive blue eyes, unable to tear her own away, she knew that she could not abandon her plan, now more than ever. He loved her -- *really* loved her. And regardless of her feelings for him, her confused, mixed-up desires and dreams and longings for how it might be – she was irreversibly, hopelessly screwed up beyond any help.

She would only ever end up hurting him.

She had to break it off – had to *make* him move on, so that in time, he could find someone else, someone who would love him like he loved her, completely, holding nothing back, and without the crippling fear that always left her more confused and conflicted – and Spike broken and wounded.

She did not know if she loved him, but she felt strongly that she did not love him *enough* -- couldn’t – if she always ended up hurting him so badly. But she knew that she *did* care enough to stop herself from using him, from hurting him, again.

And she cared enough – or was selfish enough – to give them this one last night.

She held his gaze for a moment longer, before leaning in for another kiss, her hand gently cupping the back of his head, caressing tenderly, where before she had been hard and forceful. This time, Spike responded to her kiss, with a desperation, a thirst that made her heart ache with the power of its intensity.

When she finally broke the kiss to draw breath, she looked into his wide, stunned eyes, surely mirroring the expression in her own, as she whispered intently, earnestly, “What do *you* want, Spike? Please – let me – let me give you – what do you want?”

Their faces were mere inches apart, and she could clearly see the surprise, the doubt and disbelief, in his startled eyes, in the moment before he leaned forward to rest his forehead against hers, still breathing hard with the intensity of the moment as he gave her his soft, heartfelt response.

“You, Buffy…just you.”

She could not respond. There were no words. She swallowed back a sob, closing her eyes against the tears that rose there, as she raised her hands to gently cup his face, without lifting her head from his.

*God, it’s too much…it’s too…I can’t…*

“I love you, Buffy,” Spike went on, his voice quiet but trembling with passion and intensity. “You’re all I want, Buffy…just you…just…you and me…and no…no games…”

He shook his head slowly, and she felt his tears fall onto her bare leg, pulled up under her. Her own tears slipped down her cheeks as she lowered her arms to gently wrap around him, and he struggled to go on.

“No – no posturing and mind games and trying to out-brave each other…just…just you and me, and you…you…letting me love you.” His voice broke slightly over his last words, and as she pulled him closer to her instinctively, he lowered his head to her shoulder and let out a gasp that was almost a sob.

“I – I don’t expect…I mean…” he fought to get the words out in a dangerously shaking voice. “I understand if you can’t…but…God, Buffy…why won’t you just let me *love* you?”

I had tears in my eyes with that part above

and i love the rest of this chapter

07/06/2006 03:54 am
Giving You Me         
Whew. Thermonuclear JL
thanx :)

Em
07/05/2006 02:49 am
Giving You Me         
Awwh!!! It's about freaking time, Buffy! She is really starting to annoy me with all the hot and cold crap. Cuz im sooo sure that itll come back, and break Spike, but then he'll come back for more, and, *sob*. I sure hope this lasts!
glad you're so into it...no promises yet...but no matter how dark they get my stories usually have happy ending :)

07/04/2006 05:32 am
Giving You Me         
Ohh!  Yay!  She better not do something mean again!  Loved the chapter!
no promises :)

Robyn
07/04/2006 02:00 am
Giving You Me         
I must admit that I am not so trusting of Buffy right now. I really hate to think that she is giving him what they both truly want before she uses her new knowledge that her words hurt him far more than her fists to try to really drive him away. I hope I'm wrong and I'm looking forward to finding out how things play out.
you are right to be suspicious...not telling how it will play out though :)

07/04/2006 01:48 am
Giving You Me         
Could it be true? Can she be saying she loves him? Can't wait for the next
you'll see :)

07/03/2006 11:19 pm
Giving You Me         
beautiful read, thanks. hope she does not reverse herself later.
thanx :)

Tonia
07/03/2006 12:49 pm
Giving You Me         
:::bangs head::: She was so close! At least now she's apologizing and admitting he has real feelings.That is a step in the right direction. I can't wait for more!
thanx, glad you are enjoying it :)

pretty_in_fangs
07/03/2006 10:24 am
Giving You Me         
Oh. Oh oh oh. You had me holding my breath through that whole chapter.
thanx, so glad you enjoyed it :)

Emilee
07/03/2006 03:10 am
Giving You Me         
Angsty and beautiful, and when(if) she cuts and runs afterwards as visciously as she has before, then it's just going to devastate him. I can't wait to see what happens next.
thanx for the review and your kind words :)

Lou
07/03/2006 02:15 am
Giving You Me         
Please don't let her turn on him again, it'd just be too cruel!
we'll see what happens :)

07/03/2006 01:59 am
Giving You Me         
i'm with spike... this SO better not be a sick game!
we'll see :)

Kendra
07/03/2006 12:09 am
Giving You Me         
Yay! Beautiful chapter. Here's hoping this will make Buffy see that she doesn't need to push him away, that she can love him one day, even if she doesn't love herself right now.
buffy will learn all this...no guarantees as to right this moment...but she will :)

Robyn
07/02/2006 01:55 pm
Selfish         
For Buffy it's like two steps forward one step back. She comes to a new realization, a break through with her thoughts or feeling, she actually apologized to him, but then she hides from herself again denying what she feels. You have done a great job of showing her journey towards knowing herself.
thanx, glad you are enjoying the journey...buffy is really struggling with her feelings right now..but in the end she'll figure it out :)

07/01/2006 01:18 pm
Selfish         
so close and now so far away... When will Buffy learn to give her heart?
in time :)

07/01/2006 05:37 am
Selfish         
*grabs Buffy and slaps her around a bit*
sounds like a good idea :)

vladt
07/01/2006 03:08 am
Selfish         
though, for a moment, she was going to come to her senses. very good read, thank you
eventually she will...thanx :)

Gillypod
06/30/2006 10:59 pm
Selfish         
Keep it up - this is brill
thanx, glad you like :)

spike'smrs
06/30/2006 10:31 pm
Selfish         
god can it get any more intense why can't buffy just admit it she loves the bloody stupid vamp and yeah she must of been have sex lessons from anya great chapie more please
sex lessons from anya? now there's a scary mental pic i didnt need! lol

Emily
06/30/2006 09:44 pm
Selfish         
Wow. After all the heartfelt admissions and realizations, how can she come back to deny it all! Argh!! Stupid buffy.
becasue she's buffy...lol

pretty_in_fangs
06/30/2006 09:38 pm
Selfish         
closer...closer...
lol

kim
06/30/2006 06:36 pm
Selfish         
Ooo! I like Lou's idea of Spike saying no thanks. I'd like him to actually not give in to her sexual manipulations until she 'fesses up. He's better than a sex slave, damnit.
i liked it too, obviously :) thanx for the review :)

06/30/2006 05:34 pm
Selfish         
Excellent chapter and very hot too. Can't wait for more.
thanx, glad you liked it :)

Bridget
06/30/2006 03:54 pm
Selfish         
I thought Buffy would at least acknowledge her feelings for Spike but as usual she only thinks about herself.
yeah...she'll get a wake up call soon though :)

Emilee
06/30/2006 03:22 pm
Selfish         
Gahh! She is the most stubborn, insecure, urgh... words fail.You've done an excellent job of portraying Buffy's cowardice (there's really no other word for it) throughout her affair with Spike. She's had a fairly significant emotional breakthrough here, and yet she's still withdrawing from him. I keep expecting her to do a physical runner too. Because if I noticed one constant during the entire series, it is that Buffy runs away. Excellent update. Can't wait for the next chapter.
thanx...glad you're enjoying it... yes, i think this is typical buffy... :)

Lou
06/30/2006 02:26 pm
Selfish         
I hope he says no thanks. You've done a great job making a loathsome Buffy!
hmm...not going for full-on loathsome...glad you're enjoying the story though :)

01/28/2008 11:29 pm
Only One Thing         
Oh my god :tear:

poor spike
and damn buffy's a lil screwed up in this fic

Robyn
07/02/2006 01:41 pm
Only One Thing         
What a powerful chapter, I like that she finally realized that her words did hurt him but at the same time her not even able to admit to herself how she feels about him shows that she still has a ways to go.
thanx, glad you enjoyed it :)

FetchingMadScientist
06/29/2006 04:35 pm
Only One Thing         
It really is a shame that she had to bring Spike to tears to see it, but now maybe she can admit that she cares about him. And start to heal. I'm sure it'll be a long road- but I so HATE to see Spike in tears! I hope it's not too much longer. :)
yeah, she's headed in the right direction... :)

vladt
06/29/2006 07:27 am
Only One Thing         
love the chapter. thanks for the fine read.
thanx :)

Emily
06/29/2006 03:16 am
Only One Thing         
Amazing... simply amazing.
thanx :)

spike'smrs
06/29/2006 12:43 am
Only One Thing         
it just taken over a bloody hour to get my freaking pc to lock on to this site so i could catch the update it was well worth the effort thanks keep on going at it it's bloody brilliant so far i love that you update nearly every dat on boyh fics i'm reading thanks again spike's mrs
i hope it was worth it :) so glad you're enjoying it :)

06/28/2006 10:53 pm
Only One Thing         
Heartbreaking chapter.  Nice to see that it had an effect on Buffy, however.  All those times on the show that she called him *convenient* and *worthless,* etc, she never once took it back. So, as always, it's wonderful to see a more human side to her.  Yay, you. :)
yeah, she's having to face up to the hurt she's caused :(

06/28/2006 10:34 pm
Only One Thing         
Wow.You took candles and foreplay from Wrecked and made a great chapter.
thanx :)

06/28/2006 10:04 pm
Only One Thing         
Bad Buffy. Bad.
lol...yep

pretty_in_fangs
06/28/2006 09:05 pm
Only One Thing         
::whimper;:
:(

06/28/2006 08:23 pm
Only One Thing         
God, that was so sad. I don't care how emotionally torn she is, I just wanted to punch her in the face for saying what she said to him and making him cry. Great chapter. Very intense.
she would have deserved a good punch...glad you liked the chapter :)

Bridget
06/28/2006 07:19 pm
Only One Thing         
Finally. I am glad that Buffy's cruelty backfired on her. I hope that she has a real awakening this time. Poor sensitive Spike he did not deserve Buffy's act of cruelty.
no, he sure didn't ... thanx for the review

kim
06/28/2006 06:06 pm
Only One Thing         
What exactly does Spike see in her again? She can't even admit in her own mind that she loves him, even though he's loved her better than anyone in her life except her own mother. Stupid cruel bitch. She's right about being unworthy of him. He does deserve someone better. He deserves a grown-up, for one thing. Not a little girl in a grown-up body playing at things she doesn't understand.
pretty astute assessment there...thanx for the review

Dreylin
06/28/2006 05:32 pm
Only One Thing         
The turning point? I hope so.
not quite

Emilee
06/28/2006 04:40 pm
Only One Thing         
She can be really cruel when she sets her mind to it. On the other hand, it's pretty obvious her mind isn't set.Can't wait for more. I wanna know what she's gonna do too.
yeah, she always could...she still doesn't know what she wants

Lou
06/28/2006 03:55 pm
Only One Thing         
'What am I going to do?'

Sounds like she's at the start of a breakdown to me!
getting there :)

06/28/2006 03:39 pm
Only One Thing         
Ohhhh poor Spikey, you made him cry you mean mean lady! *kicks you in the shin*
sorry :P

Sarah
06/28/2006 03:07 pm
Only One Thing         
Darnit, you made me cry at work!
sorry hehe

Robyn
07/02/2006 01:23 pm
Always Bad         
I like that Spike did question things for a moment, a very normal response given their history and what she is trying to prove. I love what Spike then did, handcuffing himself to the bed, to show Buffy his trust.
yeah, he's not stupid...he loves her so he's willing to put himself out there, even if he's pretty sure he's gonna regret it :(

vladt
06/28/2006 04:48 am
Always Bad         
buffy is slowly losing her own game. excellent read. thank you.
thanx :)

06/28/2006 02:30 am
Always Bad         
OOOO - what do we do with bad bad vampires.
let's find out :)

Emily
06/27/2006 11:12 pm
Always Bad         
This story seems to me like it is about to get complicated. It looks like Buffy doesnt really know herself whether she is going to be *able* to hurt him like she wants to prove she can. I cannot wait to see how it progresses. Great suspense, great emotion, great chapter!:D
i hope it's as complex as i'm meaning it to be .. :P thanx, glad you're enjoying it :)

kim
06/27/2006 09:44 pm
Always Bad         
Ha! Took back the power in the game again. He's always going to be one step ahead because 1) he knows her so well, and 2) he's way more calculating than she ever could be. Compared to what he certainly learned about "games" in the past, this is nothing.
yep, he's got a lot of experience on her...his one weakness is how much he cares about it...it will always be more than a game to him...he could win, and *still* lose, because of that *sigh* he's such a romantic...but in the end she'll come through.. :)

Lou
06/27/2006 03:07 pm
Always Bad         
I bet she'll end up putty in his hands! Well if she's got any sense she will.
eventually, probably so :)

pretty_in_fangs
06/27/2006 02:55 pm
Always Bad         
Oh so sweet. Hang in there, Spike.
thanx, so glad you're enjoying it :)

Gillypod
06/27/2006 01:13 pm
Always Bad         
Just gets better and better
thanx glad you're enjoying it :)

06/27/2006 11:55 am
Always Bad         
punish the bad little boy *grins*
and they say *i'm* disturbed! lol :P

Tonia
06/27/2006 07:19 am
Always Bad         
My God she's dense. I can't wait to see when it all finally sinks in that he loves and trust her.
oh it will...in time...a bit more story to go before that, though :)

06/27/2006 05:33 am
Always Bad         
Wonderful chapter. Loving this story very much.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Emily
06/25/2006 08:57 am
Still Talking         
That is a pretty damn nice chapter... woah. very hot, cant wait for more.
thanx, glad you liked it ;)

vladt
06/25/2006 01:04 am
Still Talking         
fine read. things are not going according to plan. spike could tell buffy all about that. thanks for the great update.
lol...that's the truth! glad you're enjoying this :)

06/24/2006 11:54 pm
Still Talking         
Loved the chapter! It was hot :) I'm glad too that Buffy got more than she bargained for when she was biting Spike (when she was touched that she almost cried). She has feelings for Spike even when she can't accept it, is denying it.
thanx, glad you enjoyed it :)

Lou
06/24/2006 06:45 pm
Still Talking         
I hope she doensn't turn cruel.
dont worry she wont...not physically, anyway...when you get right down to it her whole motive is cruel, even though she's trying to pretend its for his good

Bridget
06/24/2006 05:55 pm
Still Talking         
I like your story but I am sick of Buffy's behavior. Is there going to be some acknowlegment of her feelings sometime soon.
there will be at some point, but that's kind of the point of the story is her gradually reaching a point where she has to accept the reality of what he feels for her

Robyn
06/24/2006 12:58 pm
Still Talking         
Wow, what a fantastic chapter. I like how he is slowly breaking down the walls she's built, that she has to force herself to deny her true emotions and keep reminding herself that breaking his trust in her is what's best.
thanx, so glad you liked it...he is gradually getting through to her... :)

06/24/2006 12:44 pm
Still Talking         
Great chapter! I love how Spike seems to bafel her. I can't wait to see how thing whole thing turns out. Also, the idea of a helpless Spike? :::drools:::
i know...yum, right? :) hehe

06/24/2006 11:33 am
Still Talking         
gag him! gag him!!
but...he might *need* his mouth! ;) lol :P

pretty_in_fangs
06/24/2006 08:29 am
Still Talking         
She may be breaking through his control, but he's wearing down her defenses too. Yummy.
yep :) thanx

06/24/2006 03:55 am
Still Talking         
Wow what a chapter. That was very hot and very interesting too. I like how you had her only bite him lightly and not break skin. Something different and I can't wait for more.
thanx, glad you liked that...i wanted it to be clear that this is not really a claiming fic (may or may not include claiming later, but if it does, it wont be central to the plot like my other current fic)...but the biting/sex connection for vamps...couldn't really leave it out :)

01/28/2008 11:14 pm
Are You Listening?         
ok in the words of spike

"BLOODY HELL!!!"

08/12/2006 01:46 am
Are You Listening?         
ohhh I wonder if she will let him play or continue to teast and torment him
thanx, glad you like it :)

06/28/2006 02:10 am
Are You Listening?         
He simply loved Buffy too much to care. - JL you have cut to the disgustingly sick heart of this relationship.
thanx, glad you agree :)

spike'smrs
06/23/2006 09:22 pm
Are You Listening?         
on her knees in front of a naked spike i 'll take her place please brill chapter love the whole set up
lol....so would i...thanx, glad you like it :)

Lou
06/23/2006 01:31 pm
Are You Listening?         
She's a right tease, isn't she? I hope it comes back to bite her on the ass!
it will :)

Robyn
06/23/2006 10:45 am
Are You Listening?         
Very hot! and I loved the look into why Buffy acted the way she did.
thanx glad you're enjoying it :)

pretty_in_fangs
06/22/2006 11:33 pm
Are You Listening?         
H O T !!!

I started reading this fic this morning and was five minutes late for work because I kept needing to read "just one more chapter". Whew. So well written. And steamy, of course.
aww..sorry i made you late for work...glad you're liking the story though :)

vladt
06/22/2006 08:47 pm
Are You Listening?         
very good read. thanks. was trying to recall what buffy set out to accomplish, and, i realized, i (for a time) did not care. thanks agaain for the fun read.
lol...neither does she, at times... :P thanx for the great review :)

06/22/2006 06:07 pm
Are You Listening?         
Oh I like those thoughts. He has stuff to teach her too.
he sure does :)

Emily
06/22/2006 09:03 am
Are You Listening?         
Very nice, you are able to drag out the suspense to epic preportions. Good job...and very hot.
thanx :)

Emily
06/22/2006 09:03 am
Are You Listening?         
Very nice, you are able to drag out the suspense to epic preportions. Good job...and very hot.
thanx, glad you like it :)

Verda
06/22/2006 08:00 am
Are You Listening?         
Talk about cruel! She really does know a thing or two about torture. Poor Spike! You do know that you're torturing us as well? Evil little minx!
torture ... but in a good way..right ?

06/22/2006 06:10 am
Are You Listening?         
This is the longest smut I've ever read, lol, not that I'm complaining *drools*
lol...maybe that's cause i've got a bit of an agenda with this smut...there's actually a story to it :)

08/12/2006 01:44 am
Warm Up         
good chapter
thanx, glad you like it :)

06/22/2006 09:51 pm
Warm Up         
Let's get this party started, then!
here we go :)

Robyn
06/21/2006 01:04 pm
Warm Up         
I loved Spike's thought process and how he showed once again how well he knows Buffy. Thanks for the update, I am really enjoying this fic. :)
yep..he's pretty perceptive...which may be what gets him through this night :)

Emily
06/21/2006 02:49 am
Warm Up         
woah. thats... woah.
lol...thanx :)

06/20/2006 10:15 pm
Warm Up         
Love Spike's realization that it didn't really matter whether he trusted her or not, he had to do it or lose whatever he'd gained.
yep...and therein lies the point :)

Verda
06/20/2006 07:40 pm
Warm Up         
He may be the one in handcuffs but he's more in control of the situation than she is. Love how he knows her so well, better than she knows herself. Yes! paaarty now please!
thanx :)

06/20/2006 06:24 pm
Warm Up         
Oh can't wait for more of this.
more coming up :)

Lou
06/20/2006 03:04 pm
Warm Up         
God I hope she's not going to break him!
no, cause that would be bad... :) lol

06/20/2006 06:36 am
Warm Up         
Ouch!  And yet, why is it that the thought of Buffy yanking his chain, *literally* just cracks me up?  hehehe  Great chapter.
lol...glad you enjoyed it ;)

Emilee
06/20/2006 04:34 am
Warm Up         
You are a blatant tease. And I can't wait for the next chapter, so you're obviously very good at it.
thanx... if i'm a tease at least i'm good at it :)

vladt
06/20/2006 04:10 am
Warm Up         
very good chapter. buffy's plan seems to resemble some of spikke's. thanks for the fun read.
maybe so :) thanx

06/20/2006 04:04 am
Warm Up         
Stop drawing it out so much... this is torture *whimpers*
nope...not anytime soon, anyway :)

golddrake
06/20/2006 03:42 am
Warm Up         
great chapter. Very hot.
thanx :)

Bridget
06/20/2006 03:14 am
Warm Up         
Good chapter. I can't figure out what Buffy is trying to do. It seems that Spike has more control than she does.
read closely...you should be able to figure it out soon :)

06/20/2006 03:01 am
Warm Up         
Not to mention the fact that Buffy would never actually hurt him. - Is he nuts? She's beat the crap out of him a dozen times.

Yes, start the party, JL!
yep...of course, this is before the infamous beating in DT..not that she didn't hit him over and over before...but he's thinking more along the lines of *really* hurting him...using the situation to break his trust...which, as will be revealed later, is not really complete :P

01/28/2008 11:09 pm
Blind Obedience         
greeat chapter must read next one

08/12/2006 12:49 am
Blind Obedience         
very nice chappie - Of course he is not going to back off - this is his dream come true. She may be playing at dominating him, but there is nothing she can do to him that would be bad - she cares for him. Silly Buffy - if he can survive Dru and not leave her, he can survive your kinky sex games!
thanx, glad you like it :)

06/22/2006 09:45 pm
Blind Obedience         
Buffy's gonna lose
probably :)

Robyn
06/19/2006 09:46 am
Blind Obedience         
I like how at each new step she askes him if he trusts her. Thanks for another great chapter.
thanx, glad you like it :)

vladt
06/18/2006 09:03 pm
Blind Obedience         
the slow, teasing progress of the test is giving buffy to much time to think. but it is a hell of a read. thanks
but maybe she *needs* time to think of what she's giving up :)

06/18/2006 05:44 pm
Blind Obedience         
Buffy you little bitch, JL is going to do something really mean to you. Love it.
she's gonna learn her lesson, that's for sure :)

06/18/2006 12:24 pm
Blind Obedience         
I am so jealous of the looney bird and gaaaah, do you have to draw it out so much *flops over*
of course i do :)

Emily
06/18/2006 12:47 am
Blind Obedience         
And the suspense continues....
:)

Verda
06/17/2006 10:11 pm
Blind Obedience         
He's in for one heck of a night! Wonder how much she is going to make him beg? probably alot and as long as that's the only metal she's going to be putting on him! Love it!
you're probably right..we'll see what all she has planned for him :)

06/17/2006 09:00 pm
Blind Obedience         
Ok way too hot for me in this hot weather we are having. Great chapter, now I shower.
lol...i'll take that as a compliment :)

08/12/2006 12:43 am
...If You Dare         
Nice setting. I can't imagine why she keeps expecting him to back out. He would have to be insane at this point. He loves her so much. Good chapter I enjoyed it very much!
thanx, glad you like it :)

06/22/2006 09:33 pm
...If You Dare         
love it.
thanx :)

Robyn
06/17/2006 12:09 pm
...If You Dare         
I can't wait to see what Buffy has planned, I have a feeling it's going to be a very interesting night with some unexpected twists. I really enjoyed this chapter, thanks for the update.
oh definitely yes to the interestin.. :) hope you like the rest :)

vladt
06/17/2006 04:59 am
...If You Dare         
very good read. thanks. can't imagine what buffy has planned, but if she had red's help, that is more assurance it will go wrong.
lol...maybe so :)

06/17/2006 02:10 am
...If You Dare         
What a cruel bitch she is. I hope her little plan is going to backfire on her. I know we can count on you, JL.
oh it will :) hehe

Emily
06/17/2006 01:38 am
...If You Dare         
Starting to really look great. Buffy really does seem to let herself be nice... I wonder if it will last longer than two chapters.
yeah, she's getting there...you might be surprised ;)

06/16/2006 10:36 am
...If You Dare         
Arg!  What's she gonna do now?!
more soon :)

Lou
06/16/2006 10:22 am
...If You Dare         
This is one extremely saucy Buffy!
thanx :)

06/16/2006 06:53 am
...If You Dare         
get to the yummy smutty goodness!! *flails*
coming up :)

Emilee
06/16/2006 04:40 am
...If You Dare         
Oooh getting to the good stuff :) Can't wait for more.
coming right up love :)

Emilee
06/16/2006 04:39 am
...If You Dare         
:)

Emilee
06/16/2006 04:39 am
...If You Dare         
:P

golddrake
06/16/2006 04:35 am
...If You Dare         
great chapter
thanx :)

Verda
06/16/2006 02:16 am
...If You Dare         
Another great read! Loved the line describing the lying, cheating, vampire whore visiting creep that was Riley. It was great! Maybe after tonight, it's Buffy who will realize that she can indeed love...even Spike. Thanks for the wonderful read.
thanx...i was particularly proud of that line :P

gotkona
06/16/2006 01:42 am
...If You Dare         
Oh you can't stop there. More please
more coming up soon :)

01/28/2008 11:01 pm
In or Out?         
Another 3 great chapters i'm on the edge of my seat for the next ones

sierra
09/04/2006 08:04 pm
In or Out?         
wow wow wow I luv it lots of spike just like it should be
thanx, glad you like :)

08/12/2006 12:38 am
In or Out?         
Oh like anyone in their sound mind would choose to stay out. That is rather obvious - she is being sexy and he is loving it. I can't wait to see what their next moves are!
thanx, glad you like it :)

06/22/2006 09:23 pm
In or Out?         
this is turning out to be real fun
thanx, glad you're liking it :)

Robyn
06/17/2006 11:59 am
In or Out?         
I love Spike's thoughts about Buffy when shes trying to sound scary.
lol...thanx, glad you liked that :)

vladt
06/17/2006 04:48 am
In or Out?         
great chapter. thanks. i really doubt spike is going to stop at this point.
of course not :)

Emily
06/15/2006 03:47 am
In or Out?         
Although it is not much of a guess to suppose whether Spike is in or out, and cannot wait to see what happens once the decision is made, and the preparations are complete. Great chappie and great suspense:)
you're right...hello? what's he gonna pick :)

Verda
06/15/2006 03:13 am
In or Out?         
Was a little worried about where she might take this but starting to feel safe enough to really enjoy it. No hurting of Spike, only if it's in a good way! Update soon!
very little hurting of spike in this fic, i promise, if any at all...mostly emotional angst here :)

Typberbabe57
06/15/2006 02:22 am
In or Out?         
Whoa! More! More!! *Gasp* *pant* Um...good chapter.
thanx :) lol

effulgent_girl
06/15/2006 12:58 am
In or Out?         
I think we all know what the answer to that one's gonna be:)
lol yep

Emilee
06/14/2006 07:22 pm
In or Out?         
Oh like he has to think about that decision. Excellent addition. Can't wait for more.
lol..right..he knows what he wants

06/14/2006 03:56 pm
In or Out?         
This could get *really* scary real fast...don't know why but- I LOVE IT! LOL
oh it probably wont ;)

Bridget
06/14/2006 03:48 pm
In or Out?         
I hope that the tables will turn on Buffy. Good chapter.
oh they will :)

Lou
06/14/2006 01:48 pm
In or Out?         
I hope sh'e not going to torture him -- in a bad way, that is!
she's not..much ;)

Tonia
06/14/2006 07:27 am
In or Out?         
“Well? What’s your answer? In…or out?”

Like she really needed to ask that. Buffy has a willing Spike on her hands.
Wonderful chapter. I love knowing that you will eventually make Buffy see reason.
of course she will...yeah, she knows she has him already :)

06/14/2006 06:58 am
In or Out?         
In In In!! hehe
but of course :)

Sierra
08/15/2006 05:31 pm
Only Beginning         
wow that is all I can say.Your writing is fonomanal to say thew least.I have never read any Spuff as deeply detailed as this.In fact I have never read any story as detailed as this I absoulutly love it.
Sierra
thanx, glad you're enjoying it...hope you like the rest :)

08/11/2006 10:23 pm
Only Beginning         
I love this line "She was a young, virile, completely heterosexual woman, wasn’t she?" LMAO oh yeah you would have to be dust to not notice Spike! Poor Spike, I feel so sad for him, he just wants her love but she is so cruel to him.
thanx, glad you like it :)

06/22/2006 09:12 pm
Only Beginning         
When you write Spike I fall in love with him all over again.
awww...that's so sweet..that's the nicest compliment i've gotten in a while, thanx :)

vladt
06/17/2006 04:18 am
Only Beginning         
very intense read, thanks. buffy needs a wake up call.
thanx, and she's gonna get one! :)

Verda
06/15/2006 02:49 am
Only Beginning         
Never thought of it from that perspective. How she might have felt. Only saw it from how much she was hurting him. That was an amazing piece of insight. Great job!
thanx, glad you are enjoying it...i always felt that some of the things buffy did were inexcusable...but not beyond understanding...she *was* seriously hurting during season six :)

Emily
06/13/2006 02:41 am
Only Beginning         
Why must I love angst so? This really is incredibly written, and truly shows your understanding of Buffy and Spikes character. Quite splendid. I cannot wait til the next one:D
thanx so much, glad you think so ... your kind words are so flattering :)

Tonia
06/12/2006 07:29 am
Only Beginning         
Oops. I meant that she left him defenseless to demons on the show. Buffy seems to leave the land of denial in your stories a lot faster than she ever did on the show. =)
oh i see :)

06/12/2006 05:01 am
Only Beginning         
Great chapter. It was sad though, knowing that she would and did leave him vulnerable to Sunnydale demons.
not really...she was right there the whole time, and would have stopped anyone who actually tried to hurt him...she just wanted him to *think* she'd left him

Emilee
06/12/2006 04:19 am
Only Beginning         
Buffy needs therapy. But damn, that was a very powerful chapter. I liked how she caught him before he could fall. What will she do with this blind faith that he has in her? Maybe I'm not feeling as pessimistic as I was. Although it would serve her right to have some big epiphany about her feelings AFTER she's violated his trust to such a degreee that forgiveness will be nigh unto impossible (but not completely impossible b/c really the point is Spuffy after all) Keep up the great work!
yes, season six buffy could have benefited from lots of therapy, i'm sure lol...yeah, this story will be heavy on the angst, but buffy's gonna learn a definite lesson through all of this, and it will have a happy ending :)

Typerbabe57
06/12/2006 03:21 am
Only Beginning         
Okay, I THOUGHT I was going to like this game, but now it sounds kinda scary! What's Buffy planning, anyway? I'd be nervous if I was Spike.
don't be scared...it's not gonna get too bad..mostly psychological :) thanx for the reviw :)

06/12/2006 02:51 am
Only Beginning         
NOW walk him naked through town
lol...nope... :P

Robyn
06/12/2006 02:17 am
Only Beginning         
You have managed very well to explain why Buffy treats Spike the way she does, guilt and resentment. It’s sad that she how much she wants Spike to fail her test and the reasons for it. Thanks for another great update.
thanx, glad you enjoyed it :) yes, buffy had some major psychological issues at this time, didn't she?

FetchingMadScientist
06/12/2006 02:12 am
Only Beginning         
Even blind Spike can see Buffy Soo clearly. Lovin' this so far!
so right ;) thanx for the review, glad you're liking it :)

06/12/2006 01:38 am
Only Beginning         
I'm sad for Spike....and Buffy's an idiot.
don't worry, things wont get too bad...and buffy will learn her lesson :)

Lou
06/12/2006 01:19 am
Only Beginning         
Hot damn - that's the best Vixen Buffy ever!
thanx, glad you like 'er :)

06/12/2006 12:37 am
Only Beginning         
Boy, Buffy is as mean as a rattlesnake. I'd like to bitch slap her. Fortunately, I have confidence that you will be dishing out her comeuppance shortly.
she would certainly deserve it, wouldn't she? lol :)

08/11/2006 08:01 pm
Well, Do You?         
lovely chapter - intersting that they are both turned on by this - I wonder what is going to happen next - very yummy chapter
yeah, it should get hot :)

06/22/2006 09:01 pm
Well, Do You?         
Sometimes I feel Spike's just too good for Buffy.
i agree...most of the time,actually :)

Verda
06/15/2006 02:25 am
Well, Do You?         
Gosh, sometimes I forget how really badly she did treat him and how much it out of him. I think it would be fun to have him walk into a headstone,not to get hurt of course, but fun all the same. Oops! sorry, must put my horns back in again!*giggles evilly*
lol...you *are* evil...

Emily
06/10/2006 03:59 am
Well, Do You?         
This looks awesome. I just hope that Buffy won't do something incredible cruel to screw up this trust. Yet she will. Cuz shes Buffy. Anywayz, great leading chappie, and I cannot wait to see where it leads to.
well, buffy is buffy...and she's gonna do some not nice things, but in the end she'll learn her lesson :)

Typerbabe57
06/10/2006 03:39 am
Well, Do You?         
Ohhh, I like this game! Looks like it's about to get really interesting, too.
lol...it sure is :)

06/10/2006 02:36 am
Well, Do You?         
It was a good chapter if I don't count the part that I cried a bit. No offense but why do you always have to make people nearly hate the Buffy in your fics? I mean, I'm sure everything's gonna be allright a few chapters later and you just do it to make a point about their relationship. When you started this fic, I thought, just a plot jl can manage. I love your writing style but.. I end up being very upset. I think angst isn't this. Isn't it mary-sueing a character and being unfair to the other? I know that you don't approve her behaviors too, please don't tend to get upset, I'd never like breaking your heart. I think you're a very good writer but when it comes to Buffy, sometimes there's something questionable.
i'm glad that the chapter touched you...i'm sorry if you felt like it made you hate buffy, though...that's so not what i'm going for here..this fic is actually going to attempt to portray her issues from season six, but be sympathetic to her pain, and i don't really see where in these chapters so far i've made her any worse at all than she was in season six :-\

just for the record, the only spuffy fic i've written where buffy is bad is BB, which is currently in progress...if i've portrayed buffy as bad in any other fics on this site, i haven't meant to...

anyways, i hope you enjoy the story, and you haven't offended me..everyone's entitled to their own opinion :)

06/09/2006 09:27 pm
Well, Do You?         
Give this girl a whip. You are seriously disturbed JL. You known that don't you.
lol...*innocent wide eyes*...what...me? ;)

06/09/2006 03:19 pm
Well, Do You?         
I can't wait for more of this. Reminds me of trust walks they do in camp and on retreats, but maybe more sexual ;)
very astute assessment :)

Tonia (LadyYashka)
06/09/2006 01:33 pm
Well, Do You?         
I really like this story so far. In fact, I really like all of your stories. I look forward to each update.
thanx, so glad you like my work :)

06/09/2006 08:30 am
Well, Do You?         
i woulda made him get naked first... that would be a real test of trust... lol... hoping she wasn't leading him into a public place, heehee
lol, yes but you are one sick puppy, whereas buffy is goodness and light and perfectly well-adjusted...at least in comparison to you, love :P lol j/k *hugs*

Robyn
06/09/2006 08:14 am
Well, Do You?         
This game of trust that they are playing is going to be interesting. I am looking forward to where you take it. Thanks for the update.
thanx, glad you think so :)

Emilee
06/09/2006 07:41 am
Well, Do You?         
She's gonna hurt him, isn't she? You're stories always make me cry for Spike. Otherwise, good chapter. Definately want to see where it goes from here.
actually in this story...not so much :) this is more an exploration of the issues of their relationship in season six, but buffy is portrayed (i feel) more sympathetically in this fic...she's hurting and she's going to push the envelope..but she's not going to *really* hurt him, i promise :)

golddrake
06/09/2006 07:12 am
Well, Do You?         
I'm really enjoying this story.
thanx, glad you are :)

01/28/2008 10:51 pm
Do You...?         
oh it's getting curious

08/11/2006 07:46 pm
Do You...?         
interesting beginnng - i wonde where she will be doing
you'll see :)

06/22/2006 08:52 pm
Do You...?         
I'll say just one thing no one writes spuffy like you do.
thanx...i hope that's a good thing :)

Verda
06/15/2006 02:02 am
Do You...?         
Really like how you're expanding on that part of "Dead Things". Must catch up. BFN
thanx... :) glad you like it :)

Emily
06/10/2006 03:54 am
Do You...?         
Ooh! This looks good. Could this possibly be a less angsty story? ... I actually dont hope so. I love your style of angst: the ones with happy endings:D I cant wait to see how this story will move along.
like i said, high angst...but definite happy ending :)

Lou
06/08/2006 03:02 pm
Do You...?         
Run, Spike, run. She's lost her marbles.
lol...maybe not :)

06/08/2006 01:59 pm
Do You...?         
Breath-taking. This great- can't wait to see more. But poor Spike, he always seems to get Buffy's bitchy side!
lol...he always did, though, didn't he? thanx...so glad you're enjoying it so far :)

vladt
06/08/2006 05:59 am
Do You...?         
very good start. i know spike wants to answer, yes. but should he, i don't thing so. thanks for the fine read
you might be surprised :)

06/08/2006 03:00 am
Do You...?         
Great start. I'd love to read more...:)
soon :)

Robyn
06/08/2006 02:37 am
Do You...?         
Great start. I love the idea of exploring their messed up relationship and all the emotional trauma and trust issues that went into it. If anyone can manage to do this justice it is you.
thanx..that is exactly what i plan to do, and i hope you're right :)

~*~Tasha~*~
06/08/2006 12:03 am
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Very good start to this one. I'm really going to hope that it isn't a beat up on Spike fic. I'm crossing my fingers here and waiting for more.
thanx, glad you like it...very minimal spike-beating-up in this fic, if any, i promise :)...this story will be high-angst, but mostly lots of bondage smutty goodness :) lol

06/07/2006 09:37 pm
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I was hoping for a new fic from you. Yay! I love that scene in Dead Things and so glad you are expanding on it
thanx, glad you're enjoying it so far...hope you like the rest :)

06/07/2006 08:19 pm
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Eeee, what's she going to do??
you'll see :)

golddrake
06/07/2006 03:43 pm
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Great so far. I can't wait for more.
thanx :)

Spikes Slayer2
06/07/2006 03:16 pm
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oooh im liking this already! great start!
thanx, glad you're enjoying it :)

Emilee
06/07/2006 02:49 pm
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Nice start. You certainly grabbed my attention. But I get the feeling that just blindly trusting the Slayer at this point in her depression will not work out too well for Spike. How much is she gonna hurt him this time?
thanx, glad you liked it...you might be surprised how it works out...this is gonna be a very smutty story, but with a lot of emotional development throughout as well :) hope you enjoy it

06/07/2006 01:39 pm
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Great beginning - so painfully true to the relationship as they hurt each other with words (ok, more Buffy than Spike, but that's typical, isn't it?) when they could so easily be soothing feelings instead of injuring them.

I'll be waiting eagerly to see where you go with it.
yes, very typical them...and spike didn't really say anything hurtful to her this time...thanx for the review

06/07/2006 01:10 pm
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See you're cranking up the old angst machine, JL. Can't wait.
yep :) thanx

06/07/2006 09:18 am
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Hehehe... waiting to see what happens next. Great start!
wont have long to wait :)

Ella
06/07/2006 08:16 am
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Whew! What an opening chapter! Can't wait to see what happens next. Spike better trust Buffy. :D
thanx, glad you liked it...if you were Spike, would *you* trust Buffy?